Jacinto Paredes Marder

Messages

1. October 13, 2009

   Gone but not forgotten

   Michael, it has been a while since I have left you messages. I miss you and remember the times we shared together. All is well. I know that you are around me daily. That gives me comfort. Take care. Love you much. Tony

   Tony

2. July 31, 2006

   Summer 2006

   Michael, I am hope visiting my family. I was thinking about you and visited this website. I know you are flying high in heaven looking at all the jewels in the street. Enjoy. Rev. Brown is very ill. I trust that he will get well. Anyway, I love you my dear friend. I have not found anyone to take your place. Take care. Love you very much. Tony

   T

3. July 31, 2006

   Summer 2006

   Michael, I am hope visiting my family. I was thinking about you and visited this website. I know you are flying high in heaven looking at all the jewels in the street. Enjoy. Rev. Brown is very ill. I trust that he will get well. Anyway, I love you my dear friend. I have not found anyone to take your place. Take care. Love you very much. Tony

   T

4. July 31, 2006

   Summer 2006

   Michael, I am hope visiting my family. I was thinking about you and visited this website. I know you are flying high in heaven looking at all the jewels in the street. Enjoy. Rev. Brown is very ill. I trust that he will get well. Anyway, I love you my dear friend. I have not found anyone to take your place. Take care. Love you very much. Tony

   T

5. February 7, 2006

   4 Years Later

   Mike, It has been months since I have visited this site. You have not been out of site or out of mind. You are always near. I really miss your presence and your company. Life has not been the same since you have departed this life. My father passed in 2004 and that was a great loss. It did not affect me as much as your passing did. Perhaps, you prepared me for accepting the passing of loved ones. You are a wonderful soul (person) and no one can take your place. I have not found anyone to take your place. By the way, I have not heard from your family. I continue to call Paul but get no response. I will not give up on him. I told you I will look out for him and still plan on doing that. Well, I am going to close now and say, “My dear friend, I really miss you and know to be absent from earth is to be present with God. Thank God you accepted Him as your savior. I love you and will see you again one day. Stay cool and classy. Love your eternal friend, Tony. Happy New Year, Valentine’s Day, Easter, Christmas, and the other holidays I missed. Enjoy the rest. Bye now!

   "T"

6. August 31, 2004

   MISSING YOU

   Mike, I have been thinking of you and really miss you and your family, too. This summer has been quite busy but I will never stop missing you. I will see you one day when I return to God. I don’t plan on coming soon. Whenever, please greet me. I love you, and will always. Your friend, Tony

   T

7. March 2, 2004

   Happy New Year and almost 2 years later

   Mike, Happy New Year and I miss you very, very much. There is no one like you on this earth, or close like you. Life has been interesting but empty at the same time. Much has changed. My father is at a hospice, as of November 2003. My twin has had several serious illnessess with her heart (6 by passes) and kidneys (on dialysis). Mom is holding on and trying to maintain her sanity. Vicky and Monique are doing fine. You would be proud of Jacqueline. She’s doing studio recording and singing in a professional children’s choir. As you can see, things are changing, some for the good and others for the challenge.
   I have not spoken to Paul since last August. He will not communicate with me for some reason. I would like to find out what could I have done for him to react like that. As you know, and I told you, I was bonding with him so after you made your transition we, Paul and I, would be like family, and include the rest of the family. Well, there it is.
   Please come around sometimes. I can tell when your spirit is near.
   Well, I will not stay away so long. I love you, my dearest friend, and will always. If you see my Aunt Mildred and Grandmother, give them my love, and your family, too. Eternal love, forevermore.
   Anthony

   "T"

8. March 2, 2004

   Happy New Year and almost 2 years later

   Mike, Happy New Year and I miss you very, very much. There is no one like you on this earth, or close like you. Life has been interesting but empty at the same time. Much has changed. My father is at a hospice, as of November 2003. My twin has had several serious illnessess with her heart (6 by passes) and kidneys (on dialysis). Mom is holding on and trying to maintain her sanity. Vicky and Monique are doing fine. You would be proud of Jaqueline. She’s doing studio recording and singing in a professional children’s choir. As you can see, things are changing, some for the good and others for the challenge.
   I have not spoken to Paul since last August. He will not communicate with me for some reason. I would like to find out what could I have done for him to react like that. As you know, and I told you, I was bonding with him so after you made your transition we, Paul and I, would be like family, as include the rest of the family. Well, there it is.
   Please come around sometimes. I can tell when your spirit is near.
   Well, I will not stay away so long. I love you, my dearest friend, and will always. If you see my Aunt Mildred and Grandmother, give them my love, and your family, too. Eternal love, forevermore.
   Anthony

   "T"

9. March 2, 2004

   Happy New Year and almost 2 years later

   Mike, Happy New Year and I miss you very, very much. There is no one like you on this earth, or close like you. Life has been interesting but empty at the same time. Much has changed. My father is at a hospice, as of November 2003. My twin has had several serious illnessess with her heart (6 by passes) and kidneys (on dialysis). Mom is holding on and trying to maintain her sanity. Vicky and Monique are doing fine. You would be proud of Jaqueline. She’s doing studio recording and singing in a professional children’s choir. As you can see, things are changing, some for the good and others for the challenge.
   I have not spoken to Paul since last August. He will not communicate with me for some reason. I would like to find out what could I have done for him to react like that. As you know, and I told you, I was bonding with him so after you made your transition we, Paul and I, would be like family, as include the rest of the family. Well, there it is.
   Please come around sometimes. I can tell when your spirit is near.
   Well, I will not stay away so long. I love you, my dearest friend, and will always. If you see my Aunt Mildred and Grandmother, give them my love, and your family, too. Eternal love, forevermore.
   Anthony

   "T"

10. August 21, 2003

    YOU ARE STILL HERE!

    Michael, It has been a few months since we have talked and enjoyed each others company. God always have the last word and thought it was time for you to come home to him and your family. I know you are enjoying your family there, in heaven.
    I miss you more than one would imagine. Lately, I have been calling other people “Michael” and they would look at me and say “Are you aware that you called me Michael?” I know you are present at that time and it wasn’t a slip. Well, I just want you to know Paul and I have finally talked; first time since before Valentine’s Day. I hope to see him for the first time this year, (WOW!) soon.
    Well, I love you and will write again soon. Be good and remember, God has been so good to you He’s opened door we could not see.
    Love you, forever.
    Anthony

    Anthony

11. June 18, 2003

    You'll Never Be Forgotten

    Michael, You have been gone for over a year and I am adjusting. I still miss talking to you and being around you. Every now and then I sob thinking about the places we went and had plan on going to. God wanted you with him, so there it is. I couldn’t do anything about that, even though I tried to keep you hear as long as I did. Praise God from whom all blessings flow. It is now June 18 and I have not seen Paul. I will continue to pray for him and keep him in my heart. However, he doesn’t want me to come around now. Why, I do not know. I have put him in God’s hand. Well, I love you and will visit your site again. You’ll never be forgotten and always loved.
    Love your friend, Anthony

    Me

12. April 28, 2003

    Missing You

    Michael, I miss you even more than ever. I realize that God wanted you to be with Him and he took you with him. I am glad that your soul was prepared for the transition. I will be there someday, when my time comes around. I pray for your family everyday.
    I will write more. I never will forget about all the good times we shared together. You will forever be at the top of my list, always. Love you, my friend. Always, Anthony

    Anthony

13. March 25, 2003

    A Year Plus Away

    Mike, Hello. I know your spirit must be saying, “my word, are you writing me again”. Remember you thought I called alot. Well, it was not too much. I figured one day I would not be able to call you or vica versa. I could have gone first, you know. However, I am glad God enabled me to take care of you and I shall always cherish those last moments and the ones preceding those. I would do it again, and again,. .. and again. You will never know how much you are missed. Thank God for the pictures, etc., that I can still see you, and hear you. Praise God for that.
    I will ALWAYS keep you in my heart, thoughts, minutes, and my life, PERIOD!
    May God continue to bless you and all of the other saints in heaven with you and those down here on earth. One day I will SEE you again. Only the Lord knows when. Until the next time I write be good and keep that loveable spirit. Love you eternally.
    Anthony

    "T"

14. March 25, 2003

    A Year Plus Away

    Mike, Hello. I know your spirit must be saying, “my word, are you writing me again”. Remember you thought I called alot. Well, it was not too much. I figured one day I would now be able to call you or vica versa. I could have gone first, you know. However, I am glad God enabled me to take care of you and I shall all cherish those last moments and the ones preceding those. I would do it again, again,. .. and again. You will never know how much you are missed. Thank God for the pictures, etc. that I can still see you, and hear you. Praise God for that.
    I will ALWAYS keep you in my heart, thoughts, minutes, and my life, PERIOD!
    May God continue to bless you and all of the other saints in heaven with you and those down here on earth. One day I will SEE you again. Only the Lord knows when. Until the next time I write be good and keep that loveable spirit. Love you eternally.
    Anthony

    "T"

15. February 25, 2003

    Missing you.

    Mike, It is almost a year since I was able to talk to you and enjoy your company. Praise God that our paths crossed and we were able to enjoy life together along with Paul. I really miss you more than any living soul could imagine. I will continue to watch over Paul. I pray that he will return to his friendly and loving nature. Though you’re gone but you’re not forgotten. I know you are always with Paul, your family, and I.
    I will communicate with you soon. Love your friend, Anthony.

    "T"

16. February 12, 2003

    2003

    Anthony

17. February 12, 2003

    2003

    Anthony

18. January 29, 2003

    I don’t know why but I find myself here today writting to you. As if you would receive this to read. But perhaps from above you can feel what I am saying. For a very long time after mammy’s death I was very mad at you. I was mad because of the lies you told her. You said to her that I didn’t want to see her. That we didn’t love or care about her. My son was born almost 3 months before she past and the one thing that I know would have given her joy for the remaining time of her life would have been to meet her grandson and you took that from her. Why? I look above and ask. Why did you do all that you did? Why did you take the truth with you. My anger towards you dimenished about 3 years ago. I had realized that if mom was watching us from above (which I’m sure she was) it would have broken her spirit to know that we weren’t there to help you get through what you were going through.But I was scared. I was scared to try and contact you. Scared of what I don’t know. So I suggested to Alma and Charlie that we try and make amends with you and that way I wouldn’t have to go at it alone. But They weren’t ready to. They still had issues with you that they were dealing with or choosing not to deal with,however you want to look at it. It hurt so deeply you passing away. We had been through deaths in the family too many times but I was just a child when mom, dad and mamayoya past away. I didn’t really get it. But this time around I was an adult and I very well knew what had just happened and I must say that it literally dropped me to the floor. I could not believe it. I don’t know why you did things the way you did. And I never will know. But I’ll till you this … I love you!… no matter what you did. You saved us from being torn apart in court after dad died. I remember it very well. I remember being in court and you coming out of the court room with such excitement because you had won custody of all four of us. THANK YOU! If it hadn’t been for you Alma, Paul,Charlie and I wouldn’t have had the chance to have one another. “Amaneci otra vez”… is my favorite song of your’s. But you have always known that, and to hear it on the video of your tribute brought so many tears to my heart. I hope that you are resting in peace along side everyone. GoodBye!!!!!

    ana

19. December 29, 2002

    Snow

    Mike,
    Happy Holidays. It is the Sunday after Christmas and I am at home. We had snow here and Mom and I said we wished you could have been here to see it. Last year, we planned to come here but it wasn’t in God’s plan for you.
    Christmas is not the same without you. Life, period, is not the same. I am still trying to adjust to you not being here. I will never adjust. I miss you dearly, and will always remember you and keep you in my heart. I love you, my dear friend.
    Always, Anthony P.S. When I fly back to L.A. it will be empty knowing that I can’t call you and say “I’m back and I will be right over, when I unpack.”…

    "T"

20. November 24, 2002

    Thanksgiving Week

    Mike, It has not been a year but seems like it since we last talked on Monday night, approximately 8:00 p.m., on March 12, 2002. Now we are getting ready for Thanksgiving. Last year Paul and I had our Thanksgiving dinner with you while you were still in a coma. We thanked God for keeping you with us, during that crucial period, and afterwards, too. After Thanksgiving, a couple of weeks later, you came out of your coma and we enjoyed you. This Thanksgiving Day, we will not be able to anticipate your coming out of the coma. We thank God that he has you with him and you are not suffering as you had in the past. Saddly enough, you are missed very dearly, but I will never, ever, forget you. I think about you all of the time. I love you and missing you is an understatement. Enjoy Heaven, your loved ones, and new friends. I will see you one day. Your eternal friend, T, Tony, Anthony, or whatever else you’d call me…Wish I could answer your call again. Bye.

    Anthony

21. November 24, 2002

    Thanksgiving Week

    Mike, It has not been a year but seems like it since we last talked on Monday night, approximately 8:00 p.m., on March 12, 2002. Now we are getting ready for Thanksgiving. Last year Paul and I spent had our Thanksgiving dinner with you while you were still in a coma. We thanked God for keeping you with us, during that crucial period, and afterwards, too. After Thanksgiving, a couple of weeks later, you came out of your coma and we enjoyed you. This Thanksgiving Day, we will not be able to anticipate your coming out of the coma. We thank God that he has you with him and you are not suffering as you had in the past. Saddly enough, you are missed very dearly, but I will never, ever, forget you. I think about you all of the time. I love you and missing you is an understatement. Enjoy Heaven, your loved ones, and new friends. I will see you one day. Your eternal friend, T, Tony, Anthony, or whatever else you’d call me…Wish I could answer your call again. Bye.

    Anthony

22. November 6, 2002

    My Dear Friend!

    My Dear Friend, it was a year ago, this past Sunday when I had to admit you into the hospital, not knowing that you would never return back home. It was hard knowing the reality of the situation but ultimately God knows best. He knew that you were ready to be with him and he spared your life a few months after you left your penthouse, to get your soul ready to be with him. I am glad that I was in your life to help you make the transition to the other side. I know you are with me. I can feel your presence and I and thankful for that. You are indeed missed and I would do everything, and even more, again, for you. One day, we will meet again in heaven and maybe we will finally write our songs together. I think about you EVERY DAY, EVERY HOUR, AND just all of the time. Praise God for his blessings. I love you and continue to pray for you and your family. Always and forever, your friend. Anthony

    Anthony

23. September 26, 2002

    Vacation with you!

    Mike, Vacation is not the way it used to be with spending quality time with you. I am keeping myself busy but it is different now.
    By the way, according to Sylvia Brown’s theory, you paid me a visit last week. I awaken and smelled your cologne. What a way to go. That made my day. I know you are roaming around earth protecting Paul, Charles, Anna, Alma, Vernon, Jackie, Rev. Brown, Ann, myself and others who love you. You are missed but NOT FORGOTTEN. There is a song that has these lyrics….”You are gone but not forgotten, oh, my friend, we remember you, though you’re gone we HAVEN’T FORGOTTEN YOU! Love you. Anthony

    "T" or me

24. September 10, 2002

    9-11

    Mike,
    I know that your spirit is out there roaming around. I can not say how much I miss you. Last year this time we were enjoying life, as such as it was for us. But happy that we were around then. I am not enjoying my time off from work not being about to be with you and take care of you. However, I will always take care of you and your family. I will write more. It was a very pleasant dream I had that you appeared in. After I had awaken did I realize it was just a dream. At any rate, my friend, it was welcome. Enjoy your parents, family members, and the other folks who are in heaven with you. Love you forever, and forever. Missing you very much!
    Your friend and brother,
    Anthony

    Anthony

25. August 22, 2002

    Back to LA

    Mike, I just returned back to LA from home. This is my first time returning back to LA and not be able to call you and say I’m back and will see you in a few minutes. I will never adjust to it. You were mentioned while I was back east. Also, your video and pictures were shared with loved ones.
    I received your message, via Paul’s dream. Thank you. I needed to hear that. I will write to you, my dear loved one, soon.
    May God continue to bless you and keep you in his care. I will always miss you and NEVER GET OVER THAT YOU ARE NOT ON EARTH. Eternal Love. “T”

    Me

26. August 22, 2002

    Back to LA

    Mike, I just returned back to LA from home. This is my first time returning back to LA and not be able to call you and say I’m back and will see you in a few minutes. I will never adjust to it. You were mentioned while I was back east. Also, your video and pictures were shared with loved ones.
    I received your message, via Paul’s dream. Thank you. I needed to hear that. I will write to you, my dear loved one, soon.
    May God continue to bless you and keep you in his care. I will always miss you and NEVER GET OVER THAT YOU ARE NOT ON EARTH. Eternal Love. “T”

    Me

27. July 27, 2002

    Thinking about you!

    Mike, I have been thinking about you really heavy this week. I am watching the last video I took of you back in December 2001.
    Things are going as well, as to be expected, considering you are not here. I am going to be with Paul and will give him your tender loving care.. I will write you again. It really is therapuetic. Love your friend, Anthony

    Me

28. July 13, 2002

    Think about you...

    Mike, I am thinking about you at this very moment. I think about you 24/7. I pray to God to continue to bless you. I know you are with him and with your Dear Parents, Aunts, and other loved ones. You will never know how much you are missed from being down here on planet earth. You now are free from all of these worries and other problems on earth. Nevertheless, I wish you were here with us. I will NEVER get over your departing from this life. I am doing better, but, I will always be pre-occupied with your departure. I will always cherish our time together on earth. Praise God for that. Well, enjoy the new peace and rest. I will see you one of these days. Love your friend, Anthony

    "T"

29. July 13, 2002

    Think about you...

    Mike, I am thinking about you at this very moment. I think about you 24/7. I pray to God to continue to bless you. I know you are with him and with your Dear Parents, Aunts, and other loved ones. You will never know how much you are missed from being down here on planet earth. You now are free from all of these worries and other problems on earth. Nevertheless, I wish you were here with us. I will NEVER get over your departing from this life. I am doing better, but, I will always be pre-occupied with your departure. I will always cherish our time together on earth. Praise God for that. Well, enjoy the new peace and rest. I will see you one of these days. Love your friend, Anthony

    "T"

30. June 8, 2002

    Always thinking about YOU!

    Mike, you thought out of sight out of mind. No, that is not the case. I think about you all of the time. Driving down the street in Los Angeles, thinking about the places we went, etc., brings back memories of when we were there, or were planning on going there, where ever, there was. I will see you someday in heaven. Love ya.

    Anthony

31. June 3, 2002

    June 2002

    Mike, it is going on three months without you. Life is really different and hard to realize that this reality has transpired. You had prepared me for the end of your life’s story. I knew it would come to pass but I was not ready for it then. All of the good memories of what we did, where we went, how we did things, when we went to take care of business, pleasure, shopping, to look for stones and other things.
    I miss all of that and there are so many places I drive by and think about the time we went there, not realizing that it was probably the last time that we would go there together.
    Praise God, He extended your life beyond your initial stay at Good Sam. Do I miss going there daily, twice, doing TPR, massaging, reading the scriptures, trying to affirm to you that God is healing you and you will be coming home, to us, that was. Well, God had different plans. He took you home with Him. Praise God you were ready to meet him, claimed Jesus Christ as your Saviour, and knew God in your heart.
    Well, I will write to you from time to time. I love you and know one day we will see each other and be brothers/friends again.
    Be at peace. Love you.
    Anthony

    T

32. May 21, 2002

    Mike

    Mike, It has been over 2 months since I have last seen you, in the flesh, that is. These past few months have been unreal. I have not adjusted to being without you, praying with you mornings and evenings/throughout the day, calling you from work to see how you are doing, to check if your appointment is today, etc., going to get our dinner, even if it is after 9 pm, going to the market to buy you sorbet and Fuji apples, only the best for my friend, of course, just miss every thing about our past. The future is here and it is not, and will never be as happy as the last few years living with you.
    You see, people have friends and people have REAL FRIENDS. I PRAISE GOD HE put you and your dear family in my life. The last 9 years have been very interesting. I wish I could come and see you, without any hassles, but that is not how it is. When God is ready for me, too, I will find you and we will continue to pray together, write our songs, share stories and ideas, and most of all, be BROTHERS together. I love you, Michael. Always, “T”.
    P.S. You live with me 24 hours. I wear something, carry something, use something, that you cared enough to pass on to me. What a wonderful and generous person you have been to me. Oh, I will look after the children and Hooters, who is going for his grooming this Memorial Day. Take care. Love you, very much. Anthony

    "T"

33. May 7, 2002

    You are not forgotten!

    Mike, Yesterday was a hard day for me. You stayed on my mind all day. On the freeway to Long Beach, at the gym, in Long Beach, back in L. A., at the house, and at your house, I had tears in my eyes, thinking about you. I understand that this emotional situation will mellow one day. It has been less than 2 months and I am still asking why and I know why. God was ready for you. Still, I miss you dearly and will always have a VOID in my life without you. Keeping busy is not enough for me to do. You still ring through. Of course, I knew you would. By the way, I will make sure your family is keeping it together. Thanks for everything. I love you my friend. Signed, “T”.

    Anthony

34. May 1, 2002

    Less than 2 months later

    I can not believe that you are gone to be with God. I pray for you every morning and at night, when I awakened and retire from/to sleep. I pray that God continue to bless you and bless your family here on earth. Paul and Chuck are doing fine consider your absence. Not an hour goes by without me thinking about you. This seems to be a dream that I can not shake off. I have experience grief but not as I am with YOUR ABSENCE. Well, God always knows best. I will go now and leave you more messages in the very near future. Love your best friend and brother. There will be no one in the world to replace YOU! Sleep in peace! alvk

    Me

35. April 17, 2002

    One Day

    One day I will see you again and we will finish our song.

    Anthony

36. April 17, 2002

    My Missing Link

    Mike, I know you are still with me in spirit but I want you to know I really miss you. You told me this time will come and you tried to prepare me for it. Unfortunately, it still seems like a nightmare, or just a bad dream. I know God has numbered our days and has given each one of us a set time for our eternal transition. Praise God that you are with him and our paths met here on planet earth. I miss you more than one can imagine. When I drive by the places we went, it brings tears to my eyes, and just thinking about it, makes me hurt very deeply. Once, daily, I have my moments thinking about you and the good times we had together, as well as the very precious times we shared together up until 2:00 a.m. on Thursday morning, March 14, 2002. Remember, I will always hold you in my heart, my dear friend. I will forever cherish your friendship, love, and generosity. Love your best friend, forevermore. Anthony, or “T”, as you would call me. I miss hearing “T”. I will get strong and be able to accept reality, one day.

    Anthony