Gerardo, Jr. Lujan
1985 - 2001
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I love you. forever.
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Yep, still need you….
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Sister
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yur lil cousin
Miss yu primo. Talked to my pops today and yu were the topic of our convo. Made me miss yu man .i only got the chance to meet yu a few times but jus know yur missed💔 keep protecting everyone primo. Cs up hoes down. Rest Easy MAD 💔
Danielle
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I’m here, alone in my own apartment, in my own room, a grown ass man now. 24 years old. I’m older than you now Gerardo. I still can’t wrap my head around that, you’ll forever be my older brother until I die. Even though 24 is fairly young, I feel old. I been through a lot, we been through a lot. Every now and then I wonder how life would have been if you were still alive. Where we would be, how we would have turned out. You would’ve been 35, truly an old ass man lol. I don’t even know what i’m writing. I’ve never even written on of these and I don’t even believe I’m talking to you. I guess I feel somewhat connected. I can miss you too, can’t I? hahah. I wish you were here. Sorry for the things I’ve done, but I’m sure you’d understand. This page lonely. Going through these old comments and photos… 19 years. Man. I’ll visit soon. Your big head cry baby little brother, Charlie
Charlie
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Thinking of you ❤️
Hey you, I know it’s been a looooooooong time since I stopped by.. first and foremost I would like to say that I am truly sorry and even though I’m not writing you here you are always in my mind, today is January 8 2020 and when I woke up this morning. I had this strange feeling that I couldn’t describe till it was time to go to bed I got on my phone and this song came on that you will bump “Brake Fluid” and rite away that feeling that I had went all away and u just came into my mind 🙁 so many years has passed since u been gone and I know your birthday is coming up as well and I would like to wish u a happy early birthday 🎂 finally 35 huh 🥳🥳🥳 i wish we can go back to 2001 the day before u passed away when we were all together on 68 having a water ballon fight in the apartments bbq your mom my mom all of us chilling having a good time hearing u always talking shit to us those are the memories I will always hold on too💔😔 just know that you are never forgotten the pain is the same since the day u left…. love you always❤️
-Your Cousin Pam-Pam
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Hi ?
Hey ? I know I haven’t wrote in about a year , but now things just feel so odd , like I’m just writing & what’s the point ? Your gone , your dead & there isn’t any way to talk to you . Your anniversary is coming up , 15 years & as every year goes by it only makes me miss you more 😒 . The other day I was remembering how you’d defend me when I’d get crap . The way you looked out for me . Man how I miss you . Maybe it’s better that your not around , cause life sucks . Things are hard , glad I have my jay to keep me going , honestly . Ahah how cliche that sounds but I’m going crazy 😩 . I miss you & even if this message is just me talking to no one it’s okay . Just needed to say some things . See ya 💞
Priscilla
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just stoppin by ,
hey gerardo , just thought id stop to say hi , really wish i didn’t have to be typing here , wish it could be in person when i said hi , or whatever . but things arent how we want it right -_- been going through alot , really needed family , but we all know how that goes , as long as i have my grams ill be fine i guess & of course jeremiah too <3 hes now 4 , growing too fast . everyone asks when will i have another one , but no thank you i aint tryna have none anytime soon . i still try and wonder how would it be if you was here . im sure things would've been way different if you was here . but hey let me stop with the whole how it couldve been cause that ont change a thing . anyway sill end it here , ill stop by another time <3 i love you .
priscilla
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hey , *sigh so I haven’t wrote in a good minute , guess cause for a sec I thought it was dumb to keep messaging you here . even trying to talk to you when all I hear I hear is shit . thought to myself “why do I keep tryna reach out to you” -_- but here I am once again . the only place I can come to to feel like I am talking to you -_- rally wish you was alive . have you ever felt like you have no one ? like I know I have my son & his dad . but wheres everyone else ? wherres thee family ? -_- only family that always has ben there for me since day one no matter the shit ive done is my nana . and I thank whomever for that . I hardly see my siblings as is . really don’t like going ove , theres always some weird vibe like if your not wanted get me ? so id rather see them whenever they have a chance but seems like never . I miss seeing my brothers , but I guess as they get older everyone just ignores each other . I hate that I care so much . wish I could be as cold hearted as some people I know . I wonder if im like my dad ? hmm guess ill never know right . . . so when im feeling down I come here & write my ass off still not having a clue why D: ha , is it wrong of me to want a father ? Is it wrong that id rather have you & my dad here , hmm kinda is , cant say he’d be cool , idk . I don’t even know the guy he probably was a dick but then again he probably was a sweetheart , he probably had to much of a heart like I did . if not then idk why or how I came out like this -_- im super happy that I have my nana though , im 21 & I still have her . super glad she was able to meet her great grandchild . & she loves him so much . I hope to have more years with her , im sure i’d be lost with out her . everytime something happens she’s the first to call . shes always there for me . and im so great full for that . who would I call if somethings wrong ? no one cause theres no one that wants to know whats up with me , everyone else oonly cares about the parts where I fuck up so thy can be quick to judge . ive been judge to many times & from the people that are suppose to be my family . but it’s okay . it happens , guess that’s why I also keep my distance . wish jay could know all my family . but in reality who do I really have ? well ill leave it as is . don’t wanna write to much , most likely already did . ha well I love you bro , & still wish you were alive but that’ll never happen . so yeah bye Gerardo .
prissss
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dengggg
so next sunday you officially make 12 years gone :/ fuuckkkk . still miss you , obviously . still try talkin to you when im alone but then i feel weird , its like are you really there or am i talking to thin air ? its weird . i mean im kinda okay with typing stuff on here cause its to youo , will you read it ? im not sure , but i feel like i could write anything here . i really dont have much to say , but im doing fine , im doing more then fine , although seems like theres people who you “thought” care or are atleast suppose to pretend to care dont , it would be alot better if some people where more supportive , wish i could be that child to be proud of there parents or say “i love you mom/dad” but i cant & doubt il ever be able to . sucks , i always turn to my nana , shes always been there though everything , i may not be the goodest girl but atleast shes never judged me & always has been there even till this day , very thankful to have her , well anywho , going to bed now , well in a boit . i love you & miss you dearly .
prisss
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*sighh
hey bro , sorry i havent wrote you , usually i do every month but lately i havent , i appoligize for that , not sure why ive been only dreaming of death , not only of thoughs who are already dead but the ones i care for the most . shits scary . i hate sleeping , i hope it aint no type of sign . cause then that’ll be some damn bullshit , anyways as you can see jays going to be 2 next month already which is in two weeks , wow hes growing so fast on me , im gettin old . wish yiou was here to see yo nephew . he’s to much and to damn smart , ahah today was charlies birthday , he turned 17 . deng we aint no longer little . times passing to fast :c its going on 12 years since youve been gone . damn . aint even tryna think anout it . shit gets to me , well as you also can see , im going to school . tryna get a career ahah tryna stay positive for my son , i wanna give him everything i wasnt able to have and never have him not have anything . its crazy how life is , yes we all have our diffulties , yes we all have shit going on , but thats life , right xD lifes just fucked up in everyway . i really miss you , like alot , well im sure everyone does , i hope . well ima let you go , and btw keep an eye out for my granny , you know how i feel about her , i want her to have plenty more years besides me . please . im not sure how will i react if she leaves me aswell . shes like my mother , i cant stand loosing her like i lost you and my dad , just watch over her , thats all i ask for if its not to much , i love you dearly and i miss you , see you later bro ,
prisss .
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WHATS UP BRO.
HEY BRO…WELL I KEPT MY PROMISE..IM DOING GOOD IM STAYING OUT OF TROUBLE.WELL I SORRY FOR NOT WRITING YOU FOR OVER 4 YEARS, BUT I KNOW YOU UNDERSTAND IT PAINFUL THINKING ABOUT U BEING GONE FOR SO LONG ITS CRAZY ……HAHAHA WELL I KNOW YOU IN A CHILL PLACE. WELL YOU MAKE SURE YOU KEEP ON DOING WHAT YOU BEEN DOING FOR ME. WELL I KNOW U KNOW I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER. LOOKS JUST LIKE ME AND HAVE THE SAME PERSONALITY ME, AND U HAVE/HAD. WELL JUST DO ME A FAVOR AND LOOK OUT FOR MY DAUGHTER WHILE IM IN SAN DIEGO TRYING TO DO MY BEST TO MAKE SURE SHE HAVE A BETTER LIFE ME AND YOU HAD.. ILL BE SEEING U SOON HOPEFULLY JUST NOT TO SOON HAVE TO BE HERE FOR MY BABY GIRL..WELL IM RIGHT HERE IN A HOTEL WITH A BEAUTIFUL WOMEN NAME SARA WHICH IM FALLING FOR…BUT WELL SEE THE OUTCOME JUST GIVE ME PATIENTS AND HELP ME ENJOY MY LIFE A BIT MORE THAN NOW.. I PRETTY SURE U KNOW WHAT IM THINKING RIGHT NOW HAHAHA ….CATCH YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE
RAUL
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miisss you .
hey gerardo . damn your now 11 years gone . time flys so fast . damn , member when you first got out of jail , you looked different from the day you left . you where super tall . bald , just different . i will never forget that day . its amazing how i remember so many things . even things i dont want to remember . im sure you know . you know everything . i member the day you came out we all went to dominos to eat pizza ahaha , we had finally had our family back ! but damn you ended up leaving us again . but this time for good . lifes a bit to funny how things happen . i have a child , hes 16 motnhs , im going to be 20 like next weekend . i relized that you past away a month before my birthday , well im sure yout in a way better place now . who knowa how you wouldve been if you where still here . well anyways ill let you go , btw everyones doing good ,so rest peacefully . where doing good (: love you , laters .
little sissy (pris)
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why did you have to go !
hey bro , idk whats whats wrong with me , why did you leave me for ! i need you , moments like these i wish i had a big brother or father to run to , i need you guys real bad ! why did you have too go for?!?!?! why did you have to be from a gang ! why couldnt you just be normsl . what did you get out of being from there ?!?!? same goes for my father , hes also dead !!! & you guys are the ones i really need right now !! i mss you soo muchh , i need you back , i never wanted you to leave ! your little sister needs you , dont you see her crying out for you !? gerardo where are you ?! you said you’ll always be there for us ! i stood up nights crying for you , waiting to see if you’ll respond to me , you never did ! you left me alone , so did my father , i never knew him , but i wish i did , everyday i look at his oicture and try to figure out how was he , & then i look at you and wonder how would you be right now , im sorry , sorry for going off , i didnt mean to , i just had to let things out , i wish i could in person tho , i could really use a hug from you right now , D’: just know ill always love you and il never forget you !!! i just think you made a bad choice in leaving , i wish i had that chance to talk to you one last time ! for you to tell me “ill be ok” well ill let you go , ima keep watching your video , an remember how you were , how you looked when you would get mad , etc. well love you , & see you later bro.
priscilla (sister)
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<3
damn no one even shows my primo love anymore i cant say anything either cuz ihavent been on here either but ihope u doing gud watch over all of us
danielle
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miss you<3
hey gerardo , welli know its been to long since i wrote you , & im sorry , i just been really busy with school & my son , (: anyways i been good , so has my son, hes now going on 13months on the 10th , the boyfriend treats me perfect , besides that mom , daisys , charlie & jimmy are doing good (: idk about raul tho O.o hes kinda in his own world right now :c but oh well he’l get over it eventually (x well laters , love you <3
priscilla (:
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thought about u mijo its been awhile
Hi mijo its been awhile since i wrote u something u been gone for a long time but i still remember chuco tiny and me went to tj and u kept messing with me all the way uo there and was trying to make me fall with my high heels …lol i miss u so much mijo ill never forget u and terry if ur reading this its me Becky wats up girl how u been if u want to get a hold of me call chuco tell him to give u my number ok mija luv u and u to mad goodbye
loca from east clanton
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Missing you
Just stopping by to let you know we havent forgot about you , and we miss you alot .
-love always your cousin PamPam
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need you
heyy bro , sorry its been 2 months since i wrote you , but hey i did visit you durinig that time , as you know i really miss you , been thinking about you lately alot , wishing i had you here , just like i wish i had my damn dad , wonder why did i have to live with out him , i know everything happens for a reason but i dont like it , i want ah dadd 🙁 i need him , his talks something , but eekkk , i dont even know where hes burried , i cant even visit him , i tried looking online to see if i get any information , all i get is how he died , ugh , i dont wanna know that , i wanna visit him so i can talk to him & tell him how im doing , how much i need him , but anyways il stop talking about him , im here to talk to you , so yeahh , how you doing ? hows everything ? im pretty sure good >.< damn your 27 now , your old bro (x ahahah , kidding , love you , wishh you was here , i know i always say the same thing , but i actually mean it ! i really do miss you , well il let you go , love you , il be here later on . (: love you ,
baby sister (priss)
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just stopping by reall fast,
heyy bro(:soo its only been a month since i havent wrote you, i was kinda feeling bad because i thought its been a really long timee, but it aint that bad, lol so yeahh just wanna say hello(: & of course like always i miss you and love you, i cant never forget to say that 😀 ahahah, so hows everything going for you.? im pretty sure everythings dope ass fuckk huh.? anyways , im doing good 😀 really good, ahahah, never been soo happy now that i have my son and my man , best family ever, >.< well love you and lates gottah goo broo,
your sister priscilla(:
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upset -.-
soo i came to say hello obviously , ahahah but besides that im upset to see that no one takes the time to write you , not even 5 minutes , everytime i come here i always hope someome has wrote you , but ugh noo one.! and it gets me madd , everyone says they miss you and all kinda extra shit , yet they dont take the time to atleast say hello.? anyways ima leave that subject , I MISS YOU.! especially right now, i, sure you see whats happening, this is the moment i need you or atleast a father, but i guess i cant ): by the way tell him i said hello >.< even though he doesnt know me, (wish he did though) so how is everything going with you.? im pretty sure everythings good.!<3 well with me everythings good, ha. im happy, and my baby boy is doing good aswell , he's growing soo fast, he's 8 months already, he's forever screaming, and one thing he doesnt stop is always smiling, he has the cutest smile ever.! theres days that he looks like you, (x ahah , but anyways ima let ou go, i love you and miss you tons and everyday that passes by i wish you were here with us, honestly. xoxoxo, il be here again, iPromise bro, <3
your sister priscilla(:
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its been ah whilee : i miss you.!
heyy bro, i know i havint been oon to write you and im honestly sorry , i really miss you , it seems like im the only one who writes you /: whitch aint right , cause you have brothers and ah sister and dislike the fact that they cant waste 5 minutes of there time to write you ,):< one thing for sure i will always write you noo matter what , even if its once ah month , im still going to write you tho(: so a few days ago i was telling my boyfriend about you also how we would all play resolling in my moms room , ahaha memories i will never forget , remember that time you told my mom you was taking us to school , but instead you took us to one of your girlfriends house with my moms car , aahhhh i remember everything like if it was yesterday(': its funny how i could remember so many things , well what can i tell you now , im doing good , my son (your nephew) is doing great and growing up so fast >.< me and my boyfriend are doing perfect , everything is going better ,(: charlie and jimmy are doing good as always growing , raul is ok i guess , havint talked to him , and daisy is also doing good , and my mama aswell, and rauls baby , shes adorable, your neice , (: well il be here later on this month if not il be back to write you sooner or later , you know i never forget you(: il keep you updated on the family when i write you again(: love you tons , lateess(:
prisss(:
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sorry >.<
heyy gerardo , i’m soo sorry i havint wrote you ):i know it’s been a while , but hey atleast i still write you right.? ahahah well so far everythings good, im starting school(: & looking for a job ;o hopefully i find one asap lol well besides that hhmmm jeremiah’s growing so fast ,he’s now 5months , its likee each dayy he grows <3 well how's everything with you.? i'm pretty sure everyhtings good huh.!(: aahhhh really wishhh you could write backk /:well anyways, i wouldd stay to chat but i dont get no responce so il just end it right here >.< love you & i really miss you.!(:
priscilla(:
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stopping by ,
hey bro. its bee about two months since i wrote you o: dammit, sorry tho’ havint had ah chancee tho/: my sos 3months today omg he’s getting so bigg and lookig cuter as the days go by(; really wished you were here with us.!/:< butt oh-well(: i reallly miss you gerardo.! looks like im the oly oe that writes you here now , & noo everyone still remebers you just ah few people dont have much time -_- well idk but ima goo to bedd now its gunna bee 12.00 soo nights & i love you with al my heart <3
cilla(:
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hello(:
hey gerardo , well hhhmmm what to say.? how are you.? i’m doing good , living life ( my son’s growing soo fast <3 he's now a month & five days old <3(: & he's just the cutest baby ever >.< he makes me the happiest mom ever<3 specially when he smiles.! aahhh he's so damm adorable , only if you had the chance too carry & look at himm , i love my boys(: my boyfriend & my son<3(: well anyways let me tell you how your familys doing , daisy is doing really good , she's in college & working , charlie's doing good aswell , he looks soo old >.< he's only 15 & he looks like he's 18 & he's ah damm player with all these females lol (x dengg , jimmy is also doing good , he's short tho >.< lol but he has some features from you & girls are just on his little cute face 😛 lol , raul is doing good , has his own little family of his own , he looks like ah proud father(: which i'm glad(: & my mother is also doing good , proud to be ah grandmothere<3 well i might as well say everyone is doing good , <3 well that's how the family is doing , everyones good , & i know your doing good aswell<3 well ima lett you goo bro , lates & ii love you , we all LOVE you.!(:
cilla(:
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guess what >.<
hey gerardo , well ima start off with ah hello 😀 ahaha ‘ soo im sorry cause i havint wrote too you , usually i doo it once ah weekk & this time its been like ah few weeks /: sorry >.< but i'm sure you know by now , my baby boy was bornn on march 10 , same as little marcos may he rest in peace , my baby boy soo adorablee , wishh you could meet him >.< & also raul's baby was born on marchh 19 , on his birthday (x how cute is that right.? best gift ever , her name is samantha(: you have ah nephew & niece >.< it's nice how they only ah few days apart(:<3 i really miss you bro.! we all doo not only me >.< well i just wanted too tell you that my jeremiah was born (x il come write you some other day , kay.? well i love you gerardo & i really miss you , bye<3.
priscilla ,
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bleh ,
heyy gerardo , how was your day.? ^o^ well minee was greatt (: even thoo it rainded >.< i love the rain thoo , just can't gett soked cause i don't wanna end up sickk >.< then jeremiah well get suick >.< & we don't want that to happen >.< hehehehe , well charlie's birthday's on sunday , he's turning 15 , old guy , lol time goes by so fast >.< & then jimmy's birthday is the fallowing saterday he's turning 12 , everyones getting old >.< aahhh soo i'm tryna figure out if you do actualy read what i write.? or am i just writting for the fuck of it.? idk but i'm still gunna write you cause i have ah feeling you are able to read this<3 well i wana tell you a little about my baby<3 the guy that makes me happy & keeps me smilling 24/7 , his name is moises , obviously i'm sure you know that already >.< he's the sweetest guy ever , i wish you coulda met him , but then again what if you think wrong of him like everyone else does ): idk why everyone thinks of him in ah bad way , only if they took the time to get to know him they'l see he aint ah bad person , im sure you know that , cause i know your watching everything that happens <3 & i know you know how & who he is , so i don't think i have to tell you much , but i truely love this guy , my baby's father , been with him almost going on two years<3 & planning to stay with him for ever , i honestly love him , and you know that , he has changed me in so many ways that no one can , before him my world was darkk & plain & now look at it >.< it's way better im always happy & before my head was always stuck on the floor , i want everyone to see he is the guy & for them o stop thinking he's gunna leave me.! but how can i tell them , all i could doo is let time pass & show them that he's still with me & we still sticking strong.!<3 no matter what.! anyways , i wish i could write my dad the same shit i write you to let him know how his baby girls doing , but sucks that i can't ): i wish i had the chance to meet the guy , for him to know his daughter & to for him to meet his grandson<3 , but hey i can't ask for miracles right.? he made a stupid choice & fallowed the wrong croud.! he's dead & theres no way il ever get to know what kind of guy he was or anything , 19 years with out ah father , whats ah lifetime gunna do.? not much >.< but i aint gunna let that put my head down , ima keep my head up high , not for me or him but for my son & for my family<3 ,well il let you goo now gerardo , (: il be backk later this week , lovee you<3 HILLARY : WEREE ARE YOU.?
cilla ,
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hieee<3
hey gerardo , ahhh soo today is pretty boring >.< typical saterdays , nothing else to doo right.?(: lol , yummy im eating posole-__- aint nothing like mamas food right >.< ahahah' soo im almost due>.< yikes , my baby wants to comee >.< my little jeremiah<3(: wishh you coulda been here for you could meet him , i wonder how's he going to look.? >.< the only thing i could do is wait for the day to come & meet my son right.? hehehehe , i also wonder how rauls baby gunna look.? will he be white or darkk.? hhhmmmm , well seee >.< he's having ah little girl ,im sure you already know tho >.< wish you could respondd to every question i askk you , but im sure your reading them thoo<3(: that's what counts , well im ending it here , soo love you & byee bro. don't trip il be backk here to write you again(: love you.
cilla ,
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hola<3
here again on your page too sayy HAPPY VALENTINES DAY’<3(:& i miss you bro.! aight well laters & i love you.
priscilla ,
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juss stoppin byy ,
heyy gerardo , just stoppin by to sayy hello (: i toldd you ili comee on your page pretty sooon <3 well i love you & ill be backk on here probably next week (: who knows maby tomarrow , ahahah' well lates bro.!(:
your sister , priscilla
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missing you.!
heyy gerardoo , well your birthdayy juss passed , noo i didnt forget i juss didnt logg on your page>.< soo as you can see im pregnant , he's gunna be born next month>.< im so happy , his middle names going after your name , im sure you already know that>.< it would of bein better if you were here for you could meet him ♥ i was & have been thinking how would it be if you were still here.? sometimes i jus wonder why did you have to go.? but i guuess , how they say shit happens for ah reason right.? ): well ima let you go noww' il be comming backk on this pretty soon to write you again(: love you soo muchh & miss you.! byee broo , ♥
your little sister priscilla
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hey
just dropping by to say hello.dnt worry i havent forgotten bout u. I miss you bunches big brother. We all miss u. wish u were here, but i guess things happen for a reason.
love u lots
-lil sis
daisydaisy
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UR STILL INMY HEART
IT WASNT OVER WHEN U LEFT ME IS FUCKED UP HOW WE HAD TO LET EACH OTHER I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY DROPPING U OFF AT YO HOUSE LOOKING AT REAR MIRROW SOMETHING TOLD ME TO CALL UR NAME BUT MY PRIDE JUST DIDNT LET ME TO FIND OUT THEY KILL U WAS TO MUCH FOR ME I WAS JU8ST 15 SHOKED IN SCHOOL I SAW EVERYONE LOOKING AT ME AND I WHEN BLIND OF A MON U HAD UR CLASS RIGHT NEXT TO MINE I RAN I LOKKED I SCREAM FOR U BUT U WAS GONE GERARDO WHY GOD WHY ME WHY I GOT UR NAME CARVE IN MY HAND DID IT WHEN I WAS 15 BANDMY SON SEE IT NOW AND ASK WHO ITS G ABD I LET HIM NOW IT WAS A YOUNG LOVE U WHEN AWAY TO SOON DNT NEED IT TATTO ITS CARVE IN MY HEART YOU IN MY LIFE AND ON MY DREAMS FOREVER AND I DNT CARE WHO KNOW OR WHO DOSENT BELIEVED IT FUCK YO UGLY OTHER BITCH SHE AINT SHIT TO ME I WAS YO MAIN ONE AND ILL ALWAYS BE YOUR MAIN ONE THAT WHY SHE NEVER COULD FACE ME NOT THEN NOT NOW I FUCKEN MISS U GERARDO I MISS BABYYY
UR LADY HILARY
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missing u
FUCK GERADO HOW CAN I LET EVERYONE KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS U HOW MUCH U REALLY MENT IN MY LIFE FUCKEN MY WORLD END IT WHEN U DIE AND NO ONE GET IT…NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME…TERRY I LOST MY BABYYY IM ALONE IN THE WORLD MY BABYDDY IS IN JAIL MY SON GOT WORST MY PARENT TOOK HIM AWAY WHEN I WHEN TO JAIL IM LOST IN THIS WORLD AND IM SCREAMING FOR GERARDO TO COME SAVE ME IM TRYING TO KILL MYSLEF FOR SO LONG AND IDK WHY I KKEP WAKING UP IN THE HOSPITAL FOR SOME REASON GOD WANT ME HERE BUT I JUST CANT UNDERSTAND WHY I WANT TO RUN AWAY FAR FAR AWAY BUT IT SEEMS MY DAD KEEPS CALLING MY NAME MY MOM DNT WANT ME IN HEAVEN AND GERARDO KEPS PUSHING ME AWAY WHY GOD WHY AM I STILL HERE MY DADS IS DYING IN MY ARMS JUST LIKE POPEYE DID WHY U KEEP MAKING ME GO TROW THIS PAIN WHY ME GEARARDOM PLEASE COME BACK FOR ME IM ALL ALONE I DNT GOT NOONE….TERRY REACH OUT FOR ME I NEED U GUYS
HILARY
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babyboy
I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU AND I WISH I COULD HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS JUST ONE MORE TIME THEY TOLD ME THAT TIME WILL MAKE IT BETTER BUT IS NOT TRUETH IS BEEN 9 YEARS SEENS YOU BEEN GONE LIFE IS NOT THE SAME AND IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME NOT TILL THEY BURRY ME NEXT TO YOU NOT THAT AM PLANNING ON GOING SOON YOUR BROTHERS NEED ME AND MOST OF ALL I LOVE TO LIVE MANY MANY YEARS MORE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE MY GRAND KIDS ONE DAY NOT KNOW BUT MAYBE ONE DAY I LOVE YOU BABY AND FROM HEAVEN PLEASE AS GOD TO BLESS YOUR BROTHERS AND YOUR SISTERS ALWAYS ANDTO GUIDE THEM IN EVERY THING THEY DO AND TO GO AS FAR AS THEY CAN GO IN THERE LIFE -MISS YOU-
mom
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forever young forever beatifuel forever love
It fells good to know that family havent forgot you also special thanks to who ever it is that has not stop goint to the cementerie i would like to know who you are please call me at 323 354-46-24 thank you very much for making the time to go see him and letting him know that he is not forgotten also to those that take the time to write he is with us always thank you sincerly This message is for chata sorry about your sister boo call me 323-354-4624 or at daisys cel at 323 921-9722 my addres is 556 colonia magnolias LA CAL 90022 BLG,35 I WILL LIKE TO SEE YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU NEED ME AM HERE NO MATTER WHAT FOOL I HOPE YOU GET THIS MESSAGE SOON cousi MONICA call me chaoo
mom
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to babyboy
im sorry daddy i havent written to you. honestly i havent had the courage to do so believe it or not this is the first time i have seen this clip since u been gone.I guess u know by now u r tia Chio is with u.I cant do this right now!I luv u with all my heart,take care of my baby sis please,tell her i luv and miss her dearly too! Terry if u r reading this; I luv u too and i miss u and I need u right now we will always be family!LUV U ALWAYS CHATA
tia martha
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tia martha
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My Dream
Hey, you know why I am here. 🙂 I had a dream about you again. It felt so real that I had to come here as if it were a message. He told me needs everyone to know he is fine, and always has been, that it’s more difficult being in a body than it is to be on the side where he is. He says to tell “ma” he is good. This was for you tia terrie. He called you ma in my dream. He told me he is with family and no one is to blame for what happened. He told me that no one was in controle of his life but himself. In my dream he was a man and helping others.He also kept talking about some type of vase or jar. its white-ish but i dont really remember what he was saying. anyway. this dream helped me out because all I kept doing was thinkin of my baby cousin that died too young. I love you baby G. we had good memories.
Monica
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Remembering you still
I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.. I had a dream of what you would look like today.. You were all buff.. lol.. love you cousin.. Happy 25 baby G
Cousin Monica
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I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.. I had a dream of what you would look like today.. You were all bbuff.. lol.. love you cousin
Anonymous
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heyy
well heyy yewr birrfdaiis kumin upp((:25yearss oldd,woow oldd guyy,well miss yew bro. alott!
pris,
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miss yewe
heyy bro,wel uh juss stoppin bah tew saii heyy&&we miss yew alott!
we goin on christmas tew visit yew((:finalyy huh!((:heheh,soo uh yeah,wel peace outs bro,il write yew laters!mis yeweyewr liddo sistah pris,
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miss yew((:<3
heyy therr((: uh juss here writtin yew tew tell yew dat i miss yew!!alott//:i try tew imaine how would it be iff yew wer here??))’: wel buh-byes i miss yew((:<3
yewr liddo sistah priss((:
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CALLING OUT 4 U
I CANT SAY WHAT I BEEN TROUGHT THE WORDS THE WAY I ALMOST FANIT WHEN THEY TOLD ME THEY KILL U THE WAY I RAN HALF WAY TO YOUR HOUSE FROM HIGHSCHOOL WAITING 4 U STILL WAITING FOR U AND BEATING ALL THEM FUCKUP LOOKS THEY DNT UNDERSTAND AND WILL NEVER DO____________________-GOING INSANE LIL BY LIL I NEED YOU
UR LADY
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STILL HERE
HEY YOU IM SORRY I COME WITH U WITH MY SHIT…I KNOW U MUST KNOW EVERYTHING ABT ME BUT FUCK GERARDO CAN U SEE ME CANT U REALLY SEE ME? I KNOW SOMETIMES I FEEL U AROUND I KNOW IM NOT CRAZY I WANT 2 GO SEE U BUT SHIOT STILL SCARES ME…………………….IM FUCKEN MISSING YOU____________________________________ & ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY HE PUT YOU IN MY LIFE___________& TOOK U OUT OF IT THIS WAY!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHYGIRL
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Hey Mijo
Hey Mijop just thinking of you and wanted to that i love u
Rosa Sanchez
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INSANE
HEY LOVE DAMN GERARDO U THE ONLY ONE I CAN RUN TO FUCK IM MISSING YOU………I KNOW WE WASENT 2GETHER 4 A LONG TIME BUT U KNOW U TRUELY CHANGE MY LIFE…….IM SITTING HERTE ALONE WITH A LIL BOY NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO GOING INSANE BY THE MIN TELLING AND CRYING OUT 2 GOD WHY HE DIDNT TAKE ME LAST YEARS I FUCKEN HARD UGLY ACCIDENT AND HE DIDNT DO SHIT TO ME…………WANTED TO DIE AND TRY KILLING MYSELF SOOO MANY TIMES AND FUCK IM STILL HERE WHY PLZZ ASK GOD AHY HE STILL HAS ME HERE…………..FUCKEN ALONE AND GOING INSANE WITH A LIL BOY CRYING OUT MOMMIE PLZZZ STOP CRYING FUCK IM FUCKEN ALONE GERADO WHY DOSENT GOD WANT ME?????????????? IM FUCKEN MISSING YOU WHEN I SEE YOUR MOM IS LIKE SHE MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER DNT KNOW WHY BUIT SHE GIVE ME HOP-E 4 THE FUTURE HAVENT SEEN HER ION A WHILE LAST TIME I SEEN HER SHE WAS WITH DAISY FUCK SHE LOOK LIKE A LIL LADY IT HURT ME ALOT THEY GROW UP SOOO MUCH PRISILA DNT SOUND THE SAME O0N THE PHONE I REALLY WANT 2 SEE HER HEARD SHE DOPING BAD BUT HOW CAN I HELP HER BABE WHEN IM DOING WORST I FUCKEN WANTED 2 GO SEE DAISY GRADUATE BUT I WAS GONE THAT SHIT HURT ME ALOT IM LOST AND NEEDING YOU SOOOO MUCH………………….FUCKEN TRICKY IS AN OG IN THE HOOD CAN KICKIT WITH HIM IT SCARE ME IM TRYING TO KICK BAX FROM THE HOOD BUT I ALWATS END UP LOST IN IT FUCK BABY HELP ME WHY U HAD TO LEAVE ME WHEN I WAS SOO YOUNG PLZZ JUST COME BAX AND TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DOO,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I HATE FUCKEN PLP JUDGING ME SAYING WHY DO I CRY 4 YOU WHEN WE JUST HAD LIKE 2WEEKS TOGETHER BUT IDK U GOT TO ME CHASE ME AROUND U WANTED 2 BE WITH ME U USED TO TALK SHIT KUZZ I WAS NOT AROUND FUCK BABY I WISH I COULD TAKE TIME AROUND & JUST BE WITH YOU FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD WHY YOU TOOK HIM AWAY FROM WHY YOU TOOK HIM AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK GERARDO I FUCKEN NEDD YOU7 PLZZZ COME BACKKKKK PLEASE BABYYY BACK EVERYTHING GO BACK,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,IF I WOULD OF BEEN THERE 4 YOU YOU WOULDENT BEEN OVER IN UR HOOD AND JUST MAYBE MABE YOU WOULD OF BEEN HERE STILL WITH ME———————-FUCK IF I WOULD OF BIENG A BETTER LADY TO YOU IF I WOULD OF JUST CARE A LIL MORE YOU WOULD STILL BEEN HERE WITH ME NIM FUCKEN SOOOOORYYYY JUST PLZZZZ MAKE THIS PAIN GO AW3AY PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
SOMEONE WHO CANT 4GET U
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I MIZZ U!!!
GERARDO IM JUS STOPPIN BY TO SAI HI!!=]UH I WISH I COULD TELL U EVERYTHING I REALLY WANNA TELL U BUT TO MAKE IT SHORTER ILL JUS SAII I NEED U SO BAD RIGHT NOW!!THIZ IZ DA TIME WER I NEED DA LUV 4RM U!!I KNOW U BEEN WATCHIN OVER US N I THANK U 4 DAT!!BUT I NEED U I WANNA SEE U SO BAD I JUS DONT WANNA DO SUM’THIN STUPID.[IF U KNOW WAT I MEAN]WILL ILL LET U GO BRO..I MIZZ U N ILL B SEING U SOON!!=…….
YO LIL SISTAH!![PRISCILLA]
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whats up big bro..
whats up bro. i miss you alot fo imright here locked up the last place you would like to see me i know i broke some of your promises already but you know what know im doing what i have to do i got to start from scrap again and move myself up but you know what i been thinking of you alot fo the wonderful memories we had but now i feel alone in this shity world i think to myself that they will never be another person like you who care about like you did fo well im almost going home i get realease around july fo and trust me when i say im going to do good fo for you, me, and the famila you know what i mean fo just to let you know im going to do what i have to do to survive just keep on watching over me and the family and protecting us at all times a bro. ill see in the ends of my days will meet again and will be united once again i love you bro. and always thinking of you stay up mad and dont let anybody put you down.
Raul
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ME
SO WHAT CAN I SAY GERARDO………………WHY THE FUCK DID YOU GO WHY WHY FUCK..YOU KNEW ME GERARDO I WAZ STUPID BACK THEN IM REALLY SORRY I AM 2 THIS DAY I STILL WISH 2 HAVE ONE MORE DAY WITH YOU ILL HUG YOU N NEVER LET GO FUCK… I KNOW NO 1 REALLY UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I FEEL 4 YOU NOT MY FRIENDZZ NOT MY FAMILY..CANT THEY UNDERSTAND I KISS YOU,YOU WHERE MY BOYFRIEND THE 1ST ONE N ONLY THAT WALK ME 2 MY CLASS WANTED 2 BE WITH ME SORRY 4 ACTING STUPID SORRY 4 NEVER CALLING YOU IM SORRY 4 GETTING YOU MAD FUCK U LEFT ME WHY YOU WHERE MAD AT ME WHY LIVE ME LIKE THAT I STILL REMEBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAZ YESTERDAY WE WHEN N DROP YOU OFF HOME IN TRICK RED BUCKED YOU GOT MAD N I JUST LOOKED AT YOU WALKING AWAY TROUGHT THE MIRROW… THE DAY IN SCHOOL I CODENT WAIT 2 SEE YOU N THEY TOLD ME YOU WHERE GONE NOOO GERARDO NO I FACE DEAD I SAW YOU…FUCKKK WHY FUCK WHY DID YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE WHY YOU LEFT ME YOU REALLY LEFT ME ASKING WHY FUCKKKKK
HILARY
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HEY BRO. WAT UP?MISSIN U..
HEY BROTHER WATS UP..WELL IM HERE AT HOME MISSIN U SO MUCH..WONDERIN HOW WOULD IT BE IF U WAS WITH US….OH COULD U DO ME A FAVOR N TELL RANDY,ISIAH,N MA DADDY I SAID HI N I MISS THEM SO MUCH.,DA SAME GOES 4 U…U GUYS R DOIN A GOOD JOB IN WATCHIN OVER US….HOWS IT UP THERE?I WANNA SEE U I MISS U SO MUCH GERARDO!!!
YO LIL SIS..
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waz ^
jus stoppin by to say hi!
daisy {ur sis}
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SHY GIRL
hey just passing by to drop a line or two. every time I’m drunk n feel lost I run to ur mom. tell her I’m sorry. just that when I talk to her brings me back just to feel u just a lil. fuck gerardo our relationship was a trip thanks 4 tryingur best sorry baby I really I’m sorry. u change my life thank u n just WHY
Anonymous
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BAUTISTA FAMILY
OH N TO EVERYONE THAT DO NOT KNOW OUR INFORMATION…IF U WANT TO CONTACT US OUR NUMBER IS (323)268-7332N IF U WANT TO WRITE TO US OUR EMAIL IS daisyguerra323@yahoo.com
LOVE U GERARDO
N THANX FOR WRITING TO MY BROTHER.
WE REALY APRECIATE IT
N HE DOES TOO
BYEAnonymous
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I MISS U BROTHER
HEY BROTHER. HOW U BEEN? WE’VE BEEN ALRIGHT. HAPPY SUPER LATE BIRTHDAY! IM SO SORRY WE HAVENT WENT TO GO VISIT U, BUT WE R, I PROMISE. WELL I JUS TALK TO HILARY TODAY, SHE STILL MISSES U. IM GLAD SHE ALWAYS STOOD IN CONTACT WITH US AFTER U DIED. WELL EVERYONE IS DOING GOOD. CHARLIE JUS TURN 12, JIMMY IS GOING TO TURN 9 ON WEDNESDAY, PRISCILLA IS GOING TO TURN 16 ON AUGUST 8, IM GOING TO TURN 17 IN APRIL THA 2ND, AND RAUL IS ABOUT TO TURN 18 ON THA 19 OF THIS MONTH. YUP WE ARE BIG. ANYWAYS HOW R U UP THERE? I HOPE U MET ISAIH MY TIO DANNY’S BABY THAT DIED, AND RANDY, A GUY WE ACKNOWLEDGE AS OUR FAMILY. HE IS SO AWESOME. IM STILL SAD CUZ HE JUS DIED ON FEBRAURY, N LIKE WE KNEW HIM SINCE MY TIO DANNY HAD GOT OUT OF JAIL. RAUL IS REALLY SUFFERING TOO B-CUZ RAUL WAS CLOSER TO HIM, I REMEBERED WHEN RANDY USE TO GET OUT OF WORK HE USE TO PICK UP RAUL EVERYDAY. I MISS U GUYS VERY MUCH! N ALL OF U GUYS TAKE CARE OF US. OH N TAKE CARE OF MY TIO DANNY, EVEN THOUGH IM REALLY DISAPOINTED IN HIM TAKE CARE OF HIM. I CANT BELIEVE HIM, THE MAN THAT HELPED HIM MOST DIDNT EVEN RECONIZE HIM IN HIS TIME OF DEPARTURE. WELL ANYWAYS KEEP WATCHING OVER US LIKE YOU’VE BEEN ALL THIS YEARS. WELL I GOT TO LET U GO CUZ OUR MOM IS GONNA BE TRIPIN EVEN THOUGH IM OFF TRACK BUT ILL LET U GO..BEFORE I FORGET TAKE CARE OF FRANK, HELP HIM TO MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE AND DOING THA RIGHT THING…CUZ CHARLIE IS REALLY SUFFERING. WELL I GOTS TO GOI LOVE U ALOT
N I MISS U
TAKE CARE AND TAKE CARE OF US
WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U
MAY U REST IN PEACE GERARDO
WE ALL LOVE U N TAKE CARE
BYEUR LIL SISTA, DAISY
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miss u!
♥REST IN PEACE GERARDO♥JUST COMING BY TO TELL U I MISS U ND MY MOM MISSES U TO.
XOX DANIELEdanielle (ur lil.cousin)
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MISSIN U ALWAYZ
MA BAD HILARY ITS (323)2687332)LOVE U GERARDO!!!
PRISCILLA(LIL. SISTER
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I MISS U
HEY GERARDO HAPPY LATE B-DAY(HILARY CALL MA MOM 323-2867332 MISS U)WELL MISS U GERARDO!!!
PRISCILLA(LIL SIS)
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thinking of u
hey just wanted to say I miss u. trying to start a book. look after me baby ur one n only shy
Anonymous
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thinking of u
hey just wanted to say I miss u. trying to start a book. look after me baby ur one n only shy
Anonymous
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help
hey terry its me hilary missing u a lot n of course my life changer my my baby gerardo yeah mind. fuckk terry call me
Anonymous
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missing you
Anonymous
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I REALLY MISS U!!!!!
well hey Gerardo how have u been….well Charlie just graduated from elem. to middle school……..{TO EVERY1 MY MOM SAID TO CALL HER 323 2687332 WE LIVE IN EAST LA}
UR LITTLE SISTAH{PRISCILLA}
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I LOVE YOU!!
HEY GERARDO,JUST DROPPIN BYE 2 SAY HI AND 2 TELL U THAT I MISS U SO MUCH.ITS BEEN SO LONG BUT IT FEELS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY THAT U LEFT US LIKE THAT..I MISS U SO MUCH IT SUCKS WITHOUT U, I LOVE U!!WELL GOTZ 2 GO GOODBYE &GOODNIGHT..(2:PAM HEY CALL US WHEN U HAVE A CHANCE (323)268-7332.WE MISS YA TELL EVERYONE WE SAID HI)..
UR LIT. SIS.(PRISCILLA)
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miss u
hey you
pam
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friend
hey i no its been so long im sorry we miss you alot hope you still remember me and my sis hilary we miss you so much and i know one day will see you again later
mayra
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friend
Anonymous
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYBIRTHDAY
pam
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thinking of you
pam
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Hi
Anonymous
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hello
Anonymous
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hey u
love you
Anonymous
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Alwys In My Thoughts
Hi Mijo its been a long time since you havent heard from me its been a lot of things going on but i wont you to know that i miss u
Tia Martha
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Miss U
Hey you how are you just stoped bye to let you know we have not forgot about u
Pam
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ALWAYS IN MY HEART
Hey there primo! SORRY its taken me this long to write but i haven’t forgot about u and i never will cause i carry u deep inside my heart. I will always love u and u will aways be a apart of me.I know that I havent visit u but its because i’ve been going thru some drama buti carry u in my thoughts and in my prays so i hope u hear me but as soon as i get the chance i be there. Well Cuz I LOVE U, I MISS U and I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF U.TALK 2 U IN MY PRAYER.GOODNITE!!!!!!!
Lil Danny Boy
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4ever Lasting
Lil Danny Boy
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4ever Lasting
Lil Danny Boy
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hey
Anonymous
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hello
just stop by to say hello
pam
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good morining
HEY YOU JUST STOP BY TO SAY GOOD MORING LOVE U AND MISS U
pam
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love u
miss u
pam
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miss u a lot
hey gordo its been a while since i wrote to u but if u see am writing to u from camp yes am here again i was doing bad.but i miss u alot u just dont know the other day i was thinking of u when we had the ballon fight and you put soap in 1 of theme and it hit my mom in the face and we started chasing you all around.TIA TERRY IF YOU READ THIS CALL MY MOM AT (310)953-6268 AND I LOVE U TIA TERRY AND THE KIDS. well georardo i got to go love u a lot and MISS U VERY MUCH.BY PAM
pam
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miss u
hey georado i miss u so much Happy late birthday
pam
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just to tellu that i loveu
I honey sorry I havent veen to see you lately but i promise i will be there this mpnday i miss you so much i miss your smiley your kisses your attitud every thing . i hear onces some one saying that most of the time you dont know what you have till you loose it and you know what that is so trued i didn’t realise how important you really were for me now that i don’t have you even to breath or to go on in my life it’semms so hard i dontsometimes how i make it. but i realise so much and there is so much i got to tank you for you could’t even began to imagen in the natural but seens i know you are an angel i know you know thank you for being and important part of my live thankyou for loving me the way you have thank you for being there the way you werejust thank you for being born and most of all i thank god for you for giving me the pridilege of being your mother a’m so sorry for all the mistackes i have made along the way a’m still learning but i know that i a’m not where i was thank to god and thanks to you caues you dad make me realise alot of things and the most inportat one is that the love that i have for you not even dead can’take that from me always you’re mother terrie
Mom
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mom
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mom
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WAIT
HEY i didnt write my correct email.. hahaha.. hey uncle danny wanted my mom to go to church today… i am so sorry for not remembering your birthday. i am such a terrible cuz…but i will make it up to you. In my new Apt. i will put up a big picture. YEAH…and a candel right by it.. PERFECT!! let me see where… i will have to put one of those thingys..yup i have the perfect place…ok…well…see u…but not yet
Monica Espinoza
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Happy Birthday
Ok I am not sure if your day is today…or the 26th and i am sorry.. but its not like u ever rememebered my birthday.. anyway.. i love you…happy 21st birthday..
Monica Espinoza
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I REALY MISS YOU MIJO
I JUST GOT THREW WATCHING YOUR VIDEO AND I REALIZE THAT I STILL MISS YOU SO MUCH AND REMEMBER EVERY TIME YOU USE TO LOVE TO MESS WITH ME AND I WOULD YELL AT YOU . STAY STRONG TERRY LOVE YOU CALL ME AT 323 971-6541 OK WOULD LOVE TO HERE FROM YOU TO SEE HOW YOU BEEN DOING. LOVE ALWAY’S AND FOREVER CON MUCHO CARINO Y REPETO YOUR OG HOMEY’S BECKY AKA LOCA PACHY SLEEPY AND LEFTY FROM THE BIG BAD CLANTON GANG EAST SIDE AND WITH THIS I’M OUT….
homegirl loca aka Becky
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homegrl loca
Anonymous
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missing you
HEY YOU ITS BEEN SOME TIME SEEN I WROTE BUT YOU KNOW I STILL HAVE YOU IN MY HEART I STILL MISS YOU AND HOPE SOME DAY WE DO SEE EACH OTHER UP THERE WELL GERARDO I’M HERE TO LOOK FOR YOUR MOM I MISS YOUR FAMILY TOO. PLEASE LOOK DOWN ON ALL OF US. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU HONEY. TERRY PLEASE CALL ME I WANT TO SEE YOU MISS YOU AND THE KIDS 216 50 47 MISS YOU AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS
HILARY YOUR TRULY
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Its ME
All week I have been thinking of you. I have all your funeral papers and all the pictures i took in a box. and i was afriad to go through them because i didnt want to see u. Gerardo, you were too young. It shouldnt have been your time. you would have finally turned 21 this year. I want to say it isnt fair but i know in my heart that this happened for a reason. I heard the recorded msg aunt terry put on one of ur pictures and i started to cry and think ‘HE WAS ONLY 16!!!!’Well uncle danny’s baby is up there with you. watch over him. I never met him but he is still my cousin. i love you…..MONICA
Monica Espinoza
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we miss you always on our hearts
Mayra
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beloved friend
hey i know its been a while but im just letting you know your still in my heart and that you will always be miss your friend chonchis i know you remember that cause you were the one to named me that well ill let you go for now but not for long love you always your friend Mayra sleep in peace
Mayra
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me
hello just thinking of you
Hilary (shy girl)
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thinking of you
HEY YOU STILL MISS YOU A LOT I KNOW I WAS MAD LAST TIME I WROTE IS JUST SO MUCH SHIT GOING ON IN MY LIFE I WISH SOME TIMES THAT EVRY THING WOULD JUST GO AWAY. I MISS YOUR CUTE SMILE. I MISS THE OLD DAYS I MISS BEEN YOUNG I MISS NOT GIVING A FUCK ABOUT NOTHING I WISH YOU WERE BACK HERE.
TERRY I MISS YOU AND THE KIDS TELL THEM I STILL THINK OF THEM AND I HOPE THEY HAVENT FORGET ME LIKE GERARDO’S GIRL NOT LA OTRA I HAVE TO GO BYEHILARY
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So whats up bro how you doing the reason im talking to u today is because i realy miss u bro i know u know that but i being strenghing these day u ant around i just want u to know that for u to help bro well it time to go bye
Raul
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I MISS YOU
I STILL THINK OF YOU AND CARE SO MUCH DONT EVER FORGET THIS LITTLE SHY GIRL IT WAS A RESENT YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE TO SHOW ME THE WAY I JUST HAVE TO OPEN MY EYES AND SEE IT
Hilary (shy girl)
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what happen
dam what happent to me i’m trying so hard that im afria i’m going to brake down and hard dam gerado things in my life change so much that i’m afraid to see you i’m afraid something if going to happen that i’m going to see you soon i miss you i do but i’m not tready to be up there yet not now i have my little one to think of and his just my life now HIS just killing me how can some one love you so much and hurt you much more
Hilary (shy girl)
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dam
Fuck what can i say Gerarardo i just talk to your mom and it hurt what she told me about you fuck i wish i could just go back know and look in your eyes and tell you how much i did care for you fuck fuck mad i hate this shit how life had to be so hard i’m sorry but you change my life and you are changing it every day fuck fuck i wish i could go back.
Terry thanks and sorryHilary (shy girl)
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still here
here i am still thinking of you missing the times we spend together hopeing you were still here just with us even if were not together it would be nice to know you are out here fuck what am i saying fuck Gerardo i misss you you change my hold life i still get stuck on the day you were gone fuck fuck what can i say i wish you were here just to tell you i did care i did like you i did i fucken did fuck Gerardo i miss you.
i miss your mom TERRY IF YOU READ THIS PLEASE EMAIL ME I WANT TO HERE FROM YOU HOW ARE THE KIDS I MISS YOU GUYS HIT ME UP OKHilary (shy girl)
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LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER
SINCE YOU BEEN GONE NOTHING IS THE SAME AND IT WILL NEVER BE BUT I THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME A SECOND CHANCE TO MAKE IT RIGHTFOR THE REST OF YOUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS A’M SO SORRY THAT YOU HAVE LAY YOU’R LIFE FOR US IN ORDER FOR ME TO LOOK AT LIFE THE WAY I SEE IT TODAY AND I KNOW IN MY HEARTH THAT YOU ARE MY SHINNING START AS I LLOK AT THE SKY I CAN PICTURE YOU YOU WILL ALWAYS BE LOVE AND REMENBER TILL THE DAY I’LL WE MEET EACH OTHER BECAUSE YOU ARE RIGHT THERE WAITING AS YOU SLEEP THE CONSALETION THAT I HAVE TO DAY IS I KNOW YOU ARE SAFE AND THERE IS NO MORE PAIN NO MORE TEARS NO MORE PAIN, WHEN YOU HEARD JESUS CALL YOURE NAME YOU TOOK HIS HAND AND WALK AWAY FROM AS LIVING MANY THINGS UNDONE BUT IT WAS YOURE TIME AND NOW I UNDERSTAND I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY SHINNING START.
MOM
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ILOVE YOU HILARY
HEY GIRL I’M STILL HERE ALSO CALL ME 323 789 68 33 OR AT 323 218 77 27 I’LL BE WAITING PORTATE BIEN OKEY BEATIFUL AND DON’T LET NO ONE LET YOU DOWN REMENBER THAT OKEY
TERRIE GERARDO'S MOM
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Q-Vo
Hey all of you out there thank you for loving my baby and not forgetting him I belived that remenbers each and everyone of you and that he loves as well look if you guys need to get in touch with me or woul like to see me am at 254 w. manchester ave L.A 90003 write me or come an see me or you can reach me at 323 789 68 33 Home or cell 323 218 77 27 don’t forget I love you God bless you and take care of you always
TerrieGerardo's mom
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still here
HEY YOU SO I’M STILL HERE STILL THINK OF YOU AND MISS THAT CUTE SMILE OF YOUR SO MANY YEARS AND I STILL CANT FORGET ASKING WHY LIFE HAVE TO BW THIS WAY. STILL A TEAR DROP TO SHOW I STILL HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU.THIS FOR YOUR MOM TERRY I’M LOOKING FOR YOU ITS LIKE YOU JUST GOT LOST AND I CANT FIND YOU PLEASE WENT YOU COME DOWN TO MY HOOD PLEASE LOOK ME UP I DONT STAY WERE I USE TO BUT I’M STILL AROUND LOOK ME UP I MISS YOU AND THE KIDS.
REST IN PEACE A DEAR GERARDO LOVE YOUHILARY
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R.I.P BABY BOY
I MISS YOU ALOT BOY.AND I LOVE YOU TO .HAPPY B-DAY I WILL SEE YOU AND MY BABY JOHN ONE DAY UNTILY THEN GOOD BYE FOR HOW BUT NOT FOREVER . DED’ NO I CAN’T FORGET THIS EVENING OR YOUR FARE AS YOU WERE LEAVING BUT I GUESS THATS JUST THE WAY THE STORY GOES YOU ALWAYS SMILE BUT IN YOUR EYES YOUR SORROW SHOW YES IT SHOWS NO ICAN’TFORGET TOMORROW WHEN ITHINK OF ALL MYSORROW WHEN I HAD YOU THERE BUT THEN I LET YOU GO AND NOW IT’S ONLY FAIR THAT SHOULD LET YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SHOULD KNOK ICAN’T LIVE IF LIVING IS WITHOUT YOU I CAN’T LIVE ICAN’T GIVE ANYMORE. LOVE YOU ALWAY TELL MY BABY HIII. AND ILOVE AND MISS HIM TO LOVE NENA A.K.A NANCY HAPPY B-DAY ON THE JAN.29,2005 OK…OK..YOU KNOW HELL WE DO IT UP AND THE ES
LOVE ALWAYS NANCY
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R.I.P MOYO
HI MY MIYO.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.I REALLY MISS YOU.YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND MY THOUGHTS EVERYDAY.YOU ARE AVERY SPCIAL YOUNG MAN TO THE FAMILY REST IN PEACE MIYO
LOVE ALWAYS MICHELLE
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R.I.P MOYO
HI MY MIYO.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.I REALLY MISS YOU.YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND MY THOUGHTS EVERYDAY.YOU ARE AVERY SPCIAL YOUNG MAN TO THE FAMILY REST IN PEACE MIYO
LOVE ALWAYS MICHELLE
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rip mijo
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH ,YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE UP THERE ,TELL ALL THE HOMIES WHAT IT CEE LIKE TILL WE MEET AGIAN. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR TIA LOCA
becky
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rip mijo
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH ,YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE UP THERE ,TELL ALL THE HOMIES WHAT IT CEE LIKE TILL WE MEET AGIAN. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR TIA LOCA
becky
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R I P
Anonymous
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i till miss you
hey there lose one so how you been cute i miss you so much can you believe i’m going to be 19 next mounth already went i had you i was only 15 fuck how time past fast. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE ONE. i miss you and have you in my heart every day still thinking about your lovely smile and still could here your laugth fuch mad.i miss your mom take care of her please and if she gets to read this Terry please look me up i miss you guys.
Hilary
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GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
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GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
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GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
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GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
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GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
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my friend
hey was up again its me the one that realy doesnt stops writing to you because i realy miss you just likke the rest that had the luck of meetingyou well ass for us your friends the one you use too kick it in school with miss you like crazy and hopefully i could go and visit you very soon because i havent for a while but you always visit my dreams and your always remmember in my heart well clanton because thats what me and my sister and your homie from school use to call you remember gerardo becuse i do well intill then ill write back to you miss
lazy
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MY BELOVED FRIEND
I KNOW I VERLYWROTE TO YOU YESTERDAY BUT LIKE I TOLD I ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY MIND SO I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT WE MISS YOU AND WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WE LOVE YOU TALK TO YOU LATER.
LA CHONCHIS
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Hey was up my favorite cunado well even doe your not with us your still on our minds and hearts and youll always remember its been 3 or 4 years now but your still on my mind and i still remember when we use to go to freemont and you got with my sister when she lost you she was doing realy bad and you will always on her mind so thats why she will always write to you her beautiful poems and you have a couple of them were you live messages for you i remember the first time you and my sisterand triky and griselda and of course my self when to bethune park and stated playing tackle football and you started calling me names and call me chonchis you were the first one and i still remember and me and my sister and tricky were talking about you last time and remember when you came up with that named for me seince then they call me chonchis gerardo we still miss you and i still remember the last time we seen you when tricky and my sister and i drope you of in your house after school that was the last time we were going to ever going to see you i still remmeber it was on a thursday. and we did not know that was going to be the last time you ever walk away from us so like i said youll always on my mind and heart we love you and miss you. In Loving Memory of my Beloved homeboy and friend Gerardo Lujan Jr Rest In Peace
MAYRA
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Miss u
Pam
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friend
i still remember the days that we use to kick it remember conado how you always call me fats ass and we use to kick in school we love you and your still in our hearts for ever it still hearts and its been so long you still in my mind for ever love you your homegirl mayra la chonchis remember
chonchis
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friend
Even if your not with us we will always have you in our hearts and minds we miss you from your friend love for ever
mayra
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thinking of you
HEY BABY HERE I AM JUST THINKING OF YOU JUST LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURE FUCK I MISS YOU GERARDO WELL WE’LL SEE EACH OTHER SOMEDAY WELL JUST WANTED TO SAY I STILL HAVE YOU IN MY HEART MISSING YOU
HILARY
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DAM
HEY I READ ALL THE MESSEGE YOU HAVE AND YOU HAVE ALOT YOU COULD SEE PEOPLE STILL LOVE YOU DAM BABY I MISS YOU SO MUCH I DONT WANT TO CRY NO MORE MAD BUT IT HURTS IN SIDE I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU I NEED TO TALK TO YOU TELL ME EVERYTHINGS OK THAT YOUR STILL THERE LET ME TOUCH ONES AGAIN DOES TIPS FUCK MAD WHY I DIRENT EVEN GET TO SAY GOOD BYE TO YOU WHEN YOU WHERE A LIVE HOW THE FUCK YOU WONT ME TO SAY GOOD BYE TO SOME ONE THAT CANT SAY NOTHING TO BE. FUCKEN GERARDO IT STILL HURT ME. I DONT WANT TO CRY NO MORE WHY YOU LEFT ME COME KISS THIS TEARS AWAY FUCK MAD I STILL MISS YOU.
SHY GIRL (HILARY)
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thinking of you
HEY BABY HERE JUST THINKING OF YOU. I CANT BELIFE ITS GOING TO BE 3 YEARS THAT YOUR BEEN GONE. FUCK GERARDO I MISS YOU. ALOT OF THINGS CHANGE SEEN YOU LEFT. FUCK MAD STILL CANT EXPLAIN THE PAIN I FEEL IN SIDE. HERE A POEM . “3 YEARS AGO”3 YEARS AGO WE SAID “SEE YA LATER” YOU NEVER CAME BACK.., 3 YEARS AGO, I LOOKED AT YOU WITH TEARS IN MY EYES, YOU LAID THERE MOTIONLESS, BUT YET WE STILL SAID OUR GOODBYES, 3 YEARS AGO, I SAID “I’LL SEE YA AROUND.” TOOK A ROSE… AND FELT TO THE GROUND I LANDED ON MY KNEES AND I BEGGED U… DON’T LEAVE ME PLEASE!!! BUT YOU HAD TO GO IT WAS TIME. 3YEARS AGO I REALIZE WHAT YOU MEANT TO ME …. BECAUSE 3 YEARS AGO…. WE LAID YOU TO REST…. AND WE LET YOU BE…. REST IN PEACE GERARDO I GUESS IT WAS YOUR TIME GOD WANTED YOU THEN AND LEFT ALL OF US BEHIND BUT WITH YOUR LOVE DEAP IN SIDE THANKS FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE, I KNOW YOU SORRY FOR LIVING SO SOON. I MISS YOU SO MUCH STILL GOT LOVE FOR YOU.
SHY GIRL (HILARY)
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IT STILL HURT
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!THEM PEOPLE MAY SAY WHAT THEY WANT ABOUT ME BUT NOBODY REALLY WOULD KNOW WHAT I WHEN THROUGTH TO SEE YOU THERE NOT SAYING NOTHING WAS THE HARDES THING I HAD TO DO THEN TO HEAR PEOPLE TELLING ME I HAD TO LET YOU GO HOW CAN THEY SAY THAT? HOW CAN YOU LIVE ME LIKE THAT AND NEVER EVEN SAY BYE GERARDO MAYBE I WASENT THE BEST GIRLFRIEND BUT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURT ME AND TO THIS DAY IT STILL DO. i FUCKEN MISS YOU MAD FUCK YOU YOU LEFT ME AND YOU DIRENT LOOK BACK. YOU LET ME GO THROUGTH LIFE BUT A PAIN IN MY HEART THAT WONT GO AWAY. I DONT WANT TO CRY BUT THIS PAIN WONT GO AWAY. DON’T BE SAD MAD ITS YOUR B-DAY BE HAPPY AND PLAY AGAIN LIKE A LITTLE BOY HAVE FUN UP THERE I’LL SEE YOU SOME DAY. I STILL GOT LOVE FOR YOU.
HILARY (SHY)
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missing you
HEY GERARDO SO WHAT CAN I SAY JUST HOW MUCH I MISS YOU I THINK ABOUT ALOT SAY HI TO ALL THE HOMIES UP THERE FOR ME. I STARE AT YOUR PICTURE EVERY DAY THE ONE UP IN MY WALL AND STILL CAN BELIEVE YOUR GONE I GUESS YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE. FUCK THAT I DON’T WANT TO THINK OF THAT MAD I KNOW YOU STILL HERE WITH ME I KNOW YOU LOOK OUT FOR ME TOO. I MISS YOU I MISS YOUR CUTE SMILE I WANT TO GO SEE YOU WANT TO HUG YOU.
your lady shy girl
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You are always on my mind
i know i know…but..i have a good excuse..ok..no i dont..i guess i havnt seen u cuz i feel guilty cuz i waited so long. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!..ur b-day is cummin..i cant promise when i will see u anymoe…cuz when i do..i feel bad=0(. but i know that u know how much i miss u. i love u so much..and just in case i dont come back on ur b-day…HAPPY BIRTHDAY…loves u with all my heart….MONICA
Monica Espinoza
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I'M STILL HERE
HEY YOU STILL HERE FOR YOU JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I STILL MISS YOU LAST TIME i SOW YOUR NAME IN A GRAVE I CODEN’T BELIEVE IT YOU ITS STILL HARD THE FIRST TIME I GO I CODENT TOUCH YOU IN TILL WE WERE ALONE SORRY FOR NOT BEEN THERE I STILL LOVE.
SHY GIRL (HILARY)
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HEY BABY JUST HERE PAYING A VISIT TO YOU SEEING IF YOU ARE STILL NEXT TO ME BABY WE MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH HAPPY VALENTINES I WILL GO VISIT YOU SOON WITH MY TIA TERRY LOVE YOU
SANDY
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Im So Sorry
hey baby G..im so sorry..i havnt forgotten u..but u know how it is..i know u know i love u..but i dont know how to drive..and u know how i feel about ridin the public limo..with raquel gone..its hard for me to get rides..i really wanted to go see u on ur b-day..and i know i promised i wouldnt wait till ur b-day to go see u again..i felt so bad when i couldnt go..i tried not to think about it but its on my mind..and i had to let it out here..cuz i dunno i guess i feel u can read this better than when i think it..i havnt seen ur mom since x-mas..i know she is getting it ruff right now seeing as its ur 18th b-day and all..but help us pray for her to be tuff..ur little brothers and sisters looked happy the last time i saw them..they got bikes for x-mas..i wasn’t in a very good mood..cuz…u know women stuff..anyway..i try to show them i love them..b-cuz its hard when u love someone and then they leave u…u never get that chance to show them..i told u i loved u..but i guess i never showed u..i cant believe its gonna be 2 years now..and the most msgs ive seen is from hilary…they have been deceasing thoe..but dont worry…its not that she dont love u anymore..because we all do..well baby G..i got to hit the hay now..dont forget who loves u..i rememebr when i wrot etaht to u when u were locked up..i really did mean it..i still do…dont forget us the little people since we cant be up in Glory where u are..we will see eachother again…but not yet
Monica
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Still in my heart
Hey you here a new year and still missing you you still in my heart.
Shy Girl
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POEM
I´VE CALLED OUT YOUR NAMEBUT I GET NO ANSWER
IT SEEMS I´VE BEEN CALLING OUT IN VAIN
I´VE REALIZE THE LORD HAS DONE HIS CALLING
I´M VERY HURT AND LOST
BUT I MUST KEEP MYSELF FROM FALLING
LATE AT NIGHT
I SIT INA DARK CORNER
TRYING TO FIGHT
FOR I FIND MYSELF STILL CALLING YOU
GERARDO
WHERE ARE YOU??????
SOMETIMES DURING THE DAY
I CAN CLOSE MY EYES
AND HEAR YOU PLAY
IM CRYING YET LAUGHING
REMEMBERING OUR MOMENTS
SEEING HOW THE TIME IS PASSING
WE DIDN´T GET A CHANCE TO GROW
FOR IT WAS YOUR TIME
AND NOW I MUST SEE YOU GO
I´M HURT FROM YOUR SUDDEN DEPARTURE
YET I´M STILL CALLING
GERARDO, WHERE ARE YOU???
HOPING ONE DAY
I´LL HEAR YOU
AND YOU´LL SAY
I´M RIGHT HERE
I´VE BEEN WAITING
IT´S SO GOOD TO HAVE YOU NEAR
remember i read that to you at the viewing??? i wrote it for you i know you know already but still i hope you liked it. everytime i read it i cry!!!! cuz i can´t even see your face as i read to you from the bottom of my broken heart!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GERARDO!!! i know you like that nickname MAD but you know i can get around to call you that. that is part of the reason your gone!!!!! i know it´s you but still GERARDO sounds much better and with much more respect to you i love you little cousin and you know what i wish you a happy birthday i know it aint till a few dayz but still have a happy 18th birthday. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
your COUSIN RAQUEL ESPINOZA 🙂RAQUEL
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Hey you
I miss you!!!!!!i cried today just looking at the video all the memories come back to me!! the laughs the pain everything we shared together i miss you soooo much to tell you that seem so little there isn´t a day that goes by that something happens and your there!!! in everything i do your there i still can believe your gone there was so much to do to see i love you so much. the world seem so different now. i upset with everyone you know even GOD why did he have to take you its not fair all the pain we feel from your loss. why couldnt you stay???? i prayed and prayed and it didnt do anything all my pain all my sorrow is still there!!!!! it will never go away never. i miss you please show me a sign that your here with me heal this pain that has consumed my heart. come into my life and let me feel again i cant keep going without knowing that your here for me when i need you. you were no suppose to go you were suppose to stay and have a family and babies and grow old!!!!!! why did u leave me. you left me with this pain that has consumed my life i miss you so much i need to know your with me please give me a sign something to ease the pain let me know its ok to feel again to live life the way we are suppose to. please i need that from you Gerardo please tell me you hear me and this pain i feel!!!!!!!!! i cant go on anymore i need you!!!!! please
remember how much i love you
your cuzin RAQUEL!!!!!!!!!!!Raquel
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Dreams
I know one day we will be together again i just pray to God that one day i will be avel to achive all things that needs to be done for our lord so Father blees me in all my work an everything that i do and deliber me from evil and disaster you are the only one that can make this happen for me lord so that my baby’s dead would not be inbain protect me from all my enemies and most inportant my self don’t let my desieved my self bless me with your godly knolege and wisdom and hold my hand and walk with my and the pad you is showing me.
Mom
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Thinking of you
Hey you here I am thinking of you today is 1 year and 4 mount that you left me behand just trying to get it I was reading a poem last time I just have to write here for you.A tear for a time, When you hold me tight, Told me that thinkings would always be right, A kiss for when you were my friend, I could never imagen this would come to an end. A memory forgotten, as time goes by, when time came I ask god why How he could take something to good to be true? As I watched you lied there, I whispered “I love you” You’ve been gone for a year, what seem to be longer Although I miss you all this time made me stronger, I belive in myself for you would too, Whatever I put my mind toward I know I could do. This last tear would show how much I do care And even though you’re in heaven I know you’re still there. I miss you Gerardo see you some day hope you still know who I am Cu’z down here I just can’t forget you. Alrato Mad
Always your lady Shy Girl
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Just thinking of you
Hey, you just sitting here in 2 period have you in my mind I’m sorry I coden’t go on Sunday but you know the resent. Fuck what can I do I miss you Why life had to be this way why we had to cross this strees you know what I meen .Fuck what can I do I just have so many thins to say that I can’t I just dont know how to rigth it in word to say the thing I feel. I know with a hug and a kiss I could show you the feeling I feel and the things I know I miss you Gerardo I really do miss the old days the time past so fast went a love one has gone away why there still a big ? mark in my heart the days past so fast the weeks past in a flashis. why we have to go trow this ASTA ALRATO MY ONE FORGETIBEL LOVE.
Hilary (Shy Girl)
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ALWAYS ON MY MIND!
WELL BABY BOY ITS BEEN A WHILE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN GONE AND WELL I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE BEING THOUGHT OF EVERY DAY THAT GOES BY. GEROGINA,KIANNA,GORDO THEY ALWAYS SEE MY BACK WHERE I PUT IN MEMORIE OF GERARDO R.I.P IN MY BACK AND THEY SAY MOM WILL WE EVER SEE HIM AGAIN? I SAY TO MYSELF THEIRS IS A DAY THAT WE WILL BE UNITED AS ONE. I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I MISS YOUR SMILE AND YOU CALLING ME YELLING AT ME TELLING ME THAT BADBOY WANTEDME FOR REASONS BUT HEY LIKE THEY SAY THE GOOD MEMORIES ALWAYS STAY IN YOUR HEART I LOVE YOU MIJO AND I TRULY MISS YOU ALOT. LOVE ALWAYS YOGIE
YOGIE
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FUCK WHY?????
I STILL LOOK AT YOUR PICTURE AND MY EYES HAVE TEARS I STARE AT FOR HOURS AND I CRY JUST TINKING ON THE MEMORIES WE HAD FUCK WHY IT HAD TO BE THIS WAY WHY YOU WHY US WENT YOU WERE HERE YOU CHANGE ALOT OF LIFE WITH YOUR SMILE AND NOW THAT YOUR NOT HERE YOU CHANGE ALOT MORE WITH TEARS AND PAIN I HAVE TO GO LOVE YPU AND MUCH RESPECT
HILARY (SHY GIRL)
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A lost love
Hey Still looking for you I still have you in my haert and I know you know that. It’s Hallowing and hoping I’ll see you soon you know what I meen tham I miss you can’t belive a year already past so many thing have happen so many thing have change me but what I feel for you is till the same. Some day I know we’ll meet again tell my mom I said hey and thank for every thing Gerardo you still mind in my heart cu’z my soul can’t let you go.
Shy Girl
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A lost love
Hey Still looking for you I still have you in my haret and I know you know that. It’s Hallowing and hoping I’ll see you soon you know what I meen tham I miss you can’t belive ayear already past so many thing have happen so many thing have change me but what I feel for you is till the same. Some day I know we’ll meet again tell my mom I said hey and thank for every thing Gerardo you still mind in my heart cu’z my soul can’t let you go.
Shy Girl
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I still remeber you
Hey you I miss you dont trip I still remeber you even your cute smile and the way you laught I just can’t forget you even dout I havent Talk to you in a wild I still have you in my heart.
Hilary (Shy Girl)
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FOREVER ON OUR MINDS
GERARDO, IT HAS BEEN A LITTLE OVER A YEAR THAT YOU HAVE LEFT US, BUT YOU ARE STILL ON OUR MINDS. WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN GOODS HANDS UP ABOVE WITH OUR FATHER FULL OF LOVE AND JOY. WE KEEP YOU IN OUR HEARTS ALL THOSE GOOD REMORIES WE HAD WITH YOU. EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT HERE IN OUR PRESENTS, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS. ALWAYS REMEMBERING THOSE GOOD LAUGHS WE SHARED. WE WON’T SAY GOODBYE, BUT WE WILL TALK TO YOU LATER. WE LOVE YOU!!!
THE CHAIRA FAMILY
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hello once again
IT’S BEEN A YEAR ALL READY BUT IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY. WE STELL HAVE THAT PAIN IN OUR HEARTS BUT HOPE TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN. YOU HAVE THOUGHT ME MANY THINGS LIKE HOW TO VALUE LIFE. I WISH IT COULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT BUT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY THINGS HAPPENED THE WAY THEY DO.YOUR IN MY MIND EVERY DAY,I’M JUST THINKING OF HOW YOU COULD ALL WAYS PUT A SMILL ON MY FACE.I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU HAVEN’T BEEN FORGOTEN AND YOU NEVER WILL NO MATTER HOW MANY YEARS GO BYE BECAUSE YOU AFFECTED ALL OF OUR LIVES IN A WONDERFULL WAY. GERARDO WE LOVE YOU AND WE WILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE AND THE LORD HAVE YOU IN HIS GLORY.
little Danny
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Missing You
here I am just missing you smile snd the way you were can’t forget you tham I miss you got to go love always your lady Hilary
Shy Girl a lost friend
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thinking
damn baby g…i have read all these msgs for u…ur fuckin famous and shit..hey…everyone here knows u as mad..but i only know Gerardo Lujan Jr. my baby cousin who grew up with me..but i guess now that i think about it..i didnt even know ur nick was mad..till that one day.. u know when…yeah maybe they know u better than ur own cuz…but none of then will love u like me…u see cuz i had a special love for u…i’ll never forget when Cindy told me u were killed…i was in shock…then i went to my room and looked at ur picture…and let it out..damn little cuz..i miss u a lot..i guess i still look at it as if ur far away but i just cant see u…hahah…wait u are far away and i really cant see u..but u know what i mean…well baby g..love u and miss u…
Monica Espinoza
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Fuck I miss you
Hey you I still miss you But I dont trip cu’z I know I’ll see you soon. My friends and I still talk like you right next to us remember your cunada chonchis she is till here talking and we all still laght like you right here making fun of her like you always did tham we miss you your crazy ass laght remember how we alway use to trow up the C you was always that CLANTON (C14) and me that CRAZY EVIL QUEEN so what now baby what you got for me. Remeber that day in the park I almost made you cry I was fucken scare of you but you know why I did that you diserve it yeah lagth know fool but that day you were ready to fuck me up them here I am thinking your rigth next to me sorry. see you soon.
still me la SHY GIRL with that CRAZY love
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I just can't let you go
I know I wasen’t your only one look at you fine nigga like you woden’t be with one girl but still thank for the fun we had and that fine, cute smile still makes my day. Always Loving You, Never For Getting You.
Alwas your lady Shy Girl
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It is still hard
Baby now is 11 mounts and it still hard to know your gone I try to move on my hair is black I change alot of things from my life so it wodent hurt but still every day that goes by your in my mind and every minute your in my heart so what can i do if I’m going crazy inside. Tell me why do it hurt so much. Every time i get drunk I think of you and remebering how fast we got along the fun we had in the park and on school and I laught and cry at the same time I need you to tell me what should I do without you. Baby I know you looking down on me i hope your not looking up to me nah I’m playing but baby thank for been there for be because i know you were there that night I coden’t see you but I felt you thank for looking down and taking care of me. one thing I ask you look down on Tricky take care of him. Just want to tell you I miss you and thanks for the good memories and you know I’m sorry.
your lady that's missing you
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I'M MISSING YOU
Hey baby I’m right here in school thinking of you.I wrote a poem for you and every one that want to know.Its one of the many poems I have for you is call “pain” It’s a dark day today the only thing you see is pain cause someone took my man away. There pain everywere cause Gerardo is not here no more someone took his life and dirent care. So the only thingyou see in this dark day is pain everywhere. Look at my eyes,look at my tears if you are really looking at me you know this is real. Gerardo went away and I’m here with this pain so if you see me crying and screaming you know this pain is killing.
SHY GIRL
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TO THE HOMEBOY MAD”rip” …WELL DOGGY I HAD SEEN YOU ABOUT A MONTH BEFORE YOU PASSED AWAY AND I HAD TOLD YOU TO TRY TO DO GOOD ESE… BUT THE THE BIG HOMIE ABOVE TOOK YOU FROM US ,I GUESS IT WAS MENT TO BE AT.. LEAST YOU’LL STAY OUT O TROUBLE FOOL!j/k .I MISS THE FUCK OUT OF YOU DOG (YOU REMEMBER THAT TIME I FRIST MET YOU ,WHEN ME ,YOU ,AND MINER WENT TO THE EAST SIDE WITH THAT GAVACHO AND YOUR ASS GOT LOST.. IN AND ON THE WAY BACK YOU ALMOST CRASHED THAT SHIT WAS FUNNY!!!) I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US ESE YOU ARE A FIRME PERSON . MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT
TO MY HOMEBOY&FRIEND
MADrip WS/ES/C-TON-XIVSTREET.
SINCERLY,LIL BANDIT
ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE YOULIL BANDIT,WS-C14ST-TLS
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WEIRD
Hey Gerardo, I guess you can say that i havnt really spent time with you here. Well i still miss you, and your with me at work everyday. Its weird how your picture always pops up when something is goign to happen. Like Angels b-day. It was march 16. Cindy made a b-day party. And i found your picture. I guess you wanted to go. I also found your picture in the family reunion. So you were there too. Ok Gerardo i guess i’ll talk to you next time i am here..later….
Monica Espinoza
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sorry for your loss of a love one
i know how much pain that it is to lose someone that you love i never thought it
would happend to my whole family to. my brother loss two friends in 98 by a police set up and im thankful that my brother wasnt there that day it happen cause one of them he usually hangs around almost everyday and my brother was supossed to have went with them but lucky he stay home that day and they forgot to pick him up but its weird how were talking the day before it happend about when the one that died was talking about when he dies he wants everybody that he knows to be happy and haveing a party for him which he was like a brother to me but i know in my heart that he loved everyone that he knew just like gerardo does with everyone he knew but only god can judge when its someone’s time to go to heaven on a star beaming lights of angels where that person will be watching over everybody in there familys so i hope you all remember the good times that you had with him and stay strong for gerardo even though i didnt know him i got nothing but love for him and his whole family so stay strong for him ok!!!cause god is watching over everybody :)peace everyone!!!!!!!scott sullivan
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HELLO
HEY COUSIN, YOU KNOW AS THE DAY TURN INTO MONTHS I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER IF ONE DAY THE PAIN AND HURT I FEEL WILL GO AWAY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. SOMETIMES DURIN THE DAY I FEEL I COOL BREEZE AROUND ME. IS IT YOU?? OR AM I GOIN OUT OF MY MIND??? I SURE DO HOPE IT’S YOU!!!!!!!! WELL HUN I GOTTA GO BACK THE REAL WORLD SO UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU UR CUZ, RAQUEL ESPINOZA VALADEZ 🙂
RAQUEL
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MI QUERIDO SOBRINO
MESES PASAN Y NO HAY UN DIA QUE DEJE DE PENSAR EN TI. VIVIRAS SIEMPRE EN MI CORAZON Y EN MI PENSAMIENTO. TE QUIERO MUCHO. TU TIA
LORENA LUJAN
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2 a great cousin and friend
Hi Gerardo, It’s me your cousin. Well I’ve been thinking of you every day, I just can’t believe your gone forever now. It’s been hard letting go, trying to go on with my life cause ever thing I do I think of u and wish u were there. Sometimes I even feel bad cause I’m having fun and your not even here. Gerardo there were so many things I wanted to do with and tell you but destiny took you away. What I really wanted to tell u was that I know we had our ups and downs but I never stop loving you as my cousin and that you were and always will be a part of my life that will never be forgotten. U were young when u left us but u accomplished a lot, u affected every ones life. I wish we could have spent more time together but the times we did will never be forgotten cause that’s all I have left of u. Gerardo I will always love u, miss u, pray 4 u, and carry u in my mind, heart, and soul. Rest In Peace And Let The Lord Have You In His Glory
Ur cuz Danny
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ALWAYS IN OUR MINDS GERARDO
GERARDO, IT WAS HARD TO LET GO, BUT SOMEBODY HAD TO DO IT. EVEN THOUGH IT WAS VERY HARD FOR US, WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN OUR MINDS AND IN OUR HEARTS. NOW WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN BETTER HANDS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR PRAYERS. WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE GOODS TIME WE HAD TOGETHER. EVEN THOUGH WE SPENT A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TOGETHER YOU WERE ALWAYS PART OF OUR FAMILY. ALWAYS KEEP THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE OF YOURS MIJO AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS. WE LOVE YOU GERARDO!!!!!
THE CHAIRA FAMILY
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ALWAYS IN OUR MINDS GERARDO
Anonymous
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Missing you
Hello, Well it’s been awhile you know. I just turn 20. Yesterday was my B-Day. i’ve been thinking about you alot i miss you so much. I think about it and you didn’t even get to see 18. I know your looking down upon us seeing every thing that’s going on. I miss you so much my love for you is still strong, it will never fade for I keep you alive in my mind and in my heart. The family reunion is this Sunday i can’t imagine a family reunion without you. You are so important to me and my family and even if your not there in person i know your there in spirit. I love you Gerardo with all my heart and soul.
Your cousin
RaquelRaquel
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MISSING YOU
GERARDO HERE WE ARE JUST CHILLIN THINKING OF ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD,REMEMBERING THE TIMES THAT YOU USED TO COME IN AND WAKE ME UP JUST TO GET ON MY NERVOUS BUT HEY IT WAS WORTH THE GOOD TIMES THAT WE SPEND… I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT BABY DOLL AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR SMILE.. I LOVE YOU AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED IN MY HEART.. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE I LOVE YOU ALWAYS,NEVER FORGOTTEN!!!!!!
YOUR HOMIEGIRL YOGIE
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to my lil boy
I reaiise I can’t no longer touch hold you or see you as the time goes by everithing seems so hard I fell I can not breat or fell no more why did you go why did you leave me I don’t know how to start with out you I just fell like my hold world is over I know that time will be hard for me caus is so hard for me to let you go i refuse to and don’t want to either I had you I raise you and i hab to barrie you thas the hardes pain that I had to go thourgh my life is always been a pain in my buttom but nothing bets these pain but now I konwthat your in a bether place where there is no more tears no more worries no more pain even thow your gone you will always be here with me I love you baby from mom
mom
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to my lil boy
I reaiise I can’t no longer touch hold you or see you as the time goes by everithing seems so hard I fell I can not breat or fell no more why did you go why did you leave me I don’t know how to start with out you I just fell like my hold world is over I know that time will be hard for me caus is so hard for me to let you go i refuse to and don’t want to either I had you I raise you and i hab to barrie you thas the hardes pain that I had to go thourgh my life is always been a pain in my buttom but nothing bets these pain but now I konwthat your in a bether place where there is no more tears no more worries no more pain even thow your gone you will always be here with me I love you baby from mom
mom
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the last person who visited you was monica other than that nobody!!! it ok i love you still. no matter what. i miss you so much. at times i feel a lot better cuz i know your looking down at me and watching out for those i love. i love you baby cousin. there is not one day that goes by that i don’t think of you i miss you. i miss you smile your laugh your heart i miss everything about you. i just the whole you. i love you. GERARDO!!! your cousin RAQUEL
Raquel
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by the way
oh yeah..remember that song i sang to u at ur tribute????…i wasnt really crying…i had dirt in my eye…REALLY
monica again
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GERARDO!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey there little cousin….or should i say Big cousin…um…younger cousin…ha ha ha…I also wanted to ask u…if u happen to see Elvis…tell me in my dreams……….a big fat kiss to u my baby boy…love ya
ur fav cuz..not that one..or that one..its monica
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Hi Gerardo.I love you.Pice
Angel Nieto
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Hi Gerardo!! God you know as the time passes by I remember everything we have been through. I miss you so much. I know your with GOD looking down on us. I know you see all the good and bad in us. I hope you see in each and everyone of us how much we miss you and how much our life has changed with out you in it. It seem my own life has turned up side down. You opened up my eyes you let me feel again. I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you. But you gotta believe me when I say that I love you still. You’ll always be in my heart and I’ll never forget you. You mean so much to me. I saw you doing wrong and I did nothing. I so sorry!!! But know that I wont let that happen again. You asked me once to look out for your brothers and sisters and that’s what I’m going to do. I miss you little cousin. I promise it ‘s not going to happen again. I LOVE YOU GERARDO!!!!!
Raquel
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WAZ UP???
waz up gerardo?? i miss you dog. thing just ain’t the same. i sit back remembering all our times together and i start to cry. i can’t believe i wont be able to hold or to kiss you. now all i have are my wonderful memories of us. i miss you dog. hey i wanna ask you a favor, since your in heaven and all could you tell 2 Pac i said waz up??? nah i’m just playin’ dog but i really do miss you. my world just doesn’t seem the same.
Anonymous
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My Love
Hi baby!! How are you??I miss you!! You know a
funny thing happend to me
I was walking down the street
to my house, and there was this
guy waving at me. i tryed to focus
on him but i couldn’t see him clearly
so i crossed the street to see who it was and he wasn’t there anymore!!
I thought it was you, he looked just like you. so then i smiled and went
home cuz now i know your watching over me!!! I LOVE YOU GERARDO!!!!!Anonymous
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Gerardo
NO LLOREN POR MI QUERIDA FAMILIA Y AMIGOS,QUE NO HE MUERTO,SOLO DUERMO,AQUI NUNCA FUI DE USTEDES SIEMPRE FUI Y PERTENECI A DIOS,Y EL DIOSITO HA VENIDO A LLEVARME A SU CASA.PORQUE ALLI VIVIRE CON DIOS PARA SIEMPRE.POR SIEMPRE Y PARA SIEMPRE.
Memo
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You were like a son to me. You’ll be in my heart always mijo. I love you and you’ll never be forgotten.That’s Clant love babeee!!!
Huera WSC14ST.
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My Baby Cuzin
Dear Gerardo, Im still not able to say good-bye. I wish this could be easier but the more i think about you the harder it is to belive ur gone. I know you’ll never leave alone. You’ll always be alive in my heart and soul. If i culd of done and said more things while u were still with us belive me i wold of. All i want is for u to know now that for me u will never die. i will keep u in my thoughts, in my dreams, in my prayers, in everthing i do all always have u with me. so with a great big loving thought ill finally say good bye. Rest in peace lil. cuzin.
Cindy.Cindy
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My sorrow
I feel hurt. I’m alone once again. I know it was your time but I can’t help but wonder if one day I’ll be able to hold you to kiss you and tell you how much I love you! We had a lot of good times. We understood each other. Now I have to say good bye and it hurts. I can’t seem to make my mind and heart realize that your not with me anymore. I have all this pain, this was not suppose to happen. Not in our family. We had plans remember! GOD GERARDO I LOVE YOU!!!!! I promise you one thing cousin I will not let you die!!! your memory will live with me for the rest of my life. And through me people will know what a geart person you are!!!!! I Love You Cousin!!!!!! may the LORD rest your soul!!!!!
Raquel
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My Lil' Baller.....
Well my lil’ baller, our times spent together will always be in my mind, heart, and soul. We connected in a way that you were more like a brother than a cousin. I’ll always remember our one on one games we had after my b-ball practices. Also, “our” song, Brass Monkey. Never forget that we all love you and miss you very much. GOD BLESS YOU!!!!
your cuz YAHZID
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para mi amigo MAD
amigo MAD te fuiste y dejaste un bacio muy grande en este mundo,no puedo creer
memo
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To my nephew
we were just remembering all of the good times that we share together and we wanted to let you know how much we loved you and miss you. hugs & kisses
Rosa and Tripper
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To a special nephew
Rosa and
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we miss you baby.
rosa and family
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Little Gerardo
Gerardo, A little 5 year old Gerardo is all i remember because that was the last time i saw you. Though we didn’t really know each other it still hurts to know that you are no longer with us and that we won’t be able to see you become a great man. Our thoughts and prayers will always be with you. Love always–Kuky, Marco, Marisa and Adrian Galan 🙂
The Galan Family
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We'll always remember you
Dear Gerardo, We still can’t believe that you are gone. It seems like just yesterday when we last saw your smile. It’s a shame you lived such a short life but you managed to touch many lives while you were here. We know you will be watching over your family. Let’s hope that others learn from your death that violence only hurts families when they lose a loved one to it.
We will never forget our little nephew,
Carlos, Flor, Yahzid, Karla & Natalie BautistaThe Bautistas
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My Cousin
In loving memory of my dear Cousin Gerardo, I know he would of loved to see how strong weve all been. Only time will heal our sorrow. We have to be strong for him.
Cindy Lopez
May 14, 2024
Hi
I love you. forever.
P
May 14, 2024
Hi
I love you.
P
June 26, 2022
Hi
Yep, still need you….
Sister
July 5, 2021
Na
I need you …
Sister
May 16, 2021
yur lil cousin
Miss yu primo. Talked to my pops today and yu were the topic of our convo. Made me miss yu man .i only got the chance to meet yu a few times but jus know yur missed💔 keep protecting everyone primo. Cs up hoes down. Rest Easy MAD 💔
Danielle
August 10, 2020
I’m here, alone in my own apartment, in my own room, a grown ass man now. 24 years old. I’m older than you now Gerardo. I still can’t wrap my head around that, you’ll forever be my older brother until I die. Even though 24 is fairly young, I feel old. I been through a lot, we been through a lot. Every now and then I wonder how life would have been if you were still alive. Where we would be, how we would have turned out. You would’ve been 35, truly an old ass man lol. I don’t even know what i’m writing. I’ve never even written on of these and I don’t even believe I’m talking to you. I guess I feel somewhat connected. I can miss you too, can’t I? hahah. I wish you were here. Sorry for the things I’ve done, but I’m sure you’d understand. This page lonely. Going through these old comments and photos… 19 years. Man. I’ll visit soon. Your big head cry baby little brother, Charlie
Charlie
January 9, 2020
Thinking of you ❤️
Hey you, I know it’s been a looooooooong time since I stopped by.. first and foremost I would like to say that I am truly sorry and even though I’m not writing you here you are always in my mind, today is January 8 2020 and when I woke up this morning. I had this strange feeling that I couldn’t describe till it was time to go to bed I got on my phone and this song came on that you will bump “Brake Fluid” and rite away that feeling that I had went all away and u just came into my mind 🙁 so many years has passed since u been gone and I know your birthday is coming up as well and I would like to wish u a happy early birthday 🎂 finally 35 huh 🥳🥳🥳 i wish we can go back to 2001 the day before u passed away when we were all together on 68 having a water ballon fight in the apartments bbq your mom my mom all of us chilling having a good time hearing u always talking shit to us those are the memories I will always hold on too💔😔 just know that you are never forgotten the pain is the same since the day u left…. love you always❤️
-Your Cousin Pam-
Pam
June 15, 2016
Hi ?
Hey ? I know I haven’t wrote in about a year , but now things just feel so odd , like I’m just writing & what’s the point ? Your gone , your dead & there isn’t any way to talk to you . Your anniversary is coming up , 15 years & as every year goes by it only makes me miss you more 😒 . The other day I was remembering how you’d defend me when I’d get crap . The way you looked out for me . Man how I miss you . Maybe it’s better that your not around , cause life sucks . Things are hard , glad I have my jay to keep me going , honestly . Ahah how cliche that sounds but I’m going crazy 😩 . I miss you & even if this message is just me talking to no one it’s okay . Just needed to say some things . See ya 💞
Priscilla
March 25, 2015
just stoppin by ,
hey gerardo , just thought id stop to say hi , really wish i didn’t have to be typing here , wish it could be in person when i said hi , or whatever . but things arent how we want it right -_- been going through alot , really needed family , but we all know how that goes , as long as i have my grams ill be fine i guess & of course jeremiah too <3 hes now 4 , growing too fast . everyone asks when will i have another one , but no thank you i aint tryna have none anytime soon . i still try and wonder how would it be if you was here . im sure things would've been way different if you was here . but hey let me stop with the whole how it couldve been cause that ont change a thing . anyway sill end it here , ill stop by another time <3 i love you .
priscilla
October 12, 2013
:/
hey , *sigh so I haven’t wrote in a good minute , guess cause for a sec I thought it was dumb to keep messaging you here . even trying to talk to you when all I hear I hear is shit . thought to myself “why do I keep tryna reach out to you” -_- but here I am once again . the only place I can come to to feel like I am talking to you -_- rally wish you was alive . have you ever felt like you have no one ? like I know I have my son & his dad . but wheres everyone else ? wherres thee family ? -_- only family that always has ben there for me since day one no matter the shit ive done is my nana . and I thank whomever for that . I hardly see my siblings as is . really don’t like going ove , theres always some weird vibe like if your not wanted get me ? so id rather see them whenever they have a chance but seems like never . I miss seeing my brothers , but I guess as they get older everyone just ignores each other . I hate that I care so much . wish I could be as cold hearted as some people I know . I wonder if im like my dad ? hmm guess ill never know right . . . so when im feeling down I come here & write my ass off still not having a clue why D: ha , is it wrong of me to want a father ? Is it wrong that id rather have you & my dad here , hmm kinda is , cant say he’d be cool , idk . I don’t even know the guy he probably was a dick but then again he probably was a sweetheart , he probably had to much of a heart like I did . if not then idk why or how I came out like this -_- im super happy that I have my nana though , im 21 & I still have her . super glad she was able to meet her great grandchild . & she loves him so much . I hope to have more years with her , im sure i’d be lost with out her . everytime something happens she’s the first to call . shes always there for me . and im so great full for that . who would I call if somethings wrong ? no one cause theres no one that wants to know whats up with me , everyone else oonly cares about the parts where I fuck up so thy can be quick to judge . ive been judge to many times & from the people that are suppose to be my family . but it’s okay . it happens , guess that’s why I also keep my distance . wish jay could know all my family . but in reality who do I really have ? well ill leave it as is . don’t wanna write to much , most likely already did . ha well I love you bro , & still wish you were alive but that’ll never happen . so yeah bye Gerardo .
prissss
July 14, 2013
dengggg
so next sunday you officially make 12 years gone :/ fuuckkkk . still miss you , obviously . still try talkin to you when im alone but then i feel weird , its like are you really there or am i talking to thin air ? its weird . i mean im kinda okay with typing stuff on here cause its to youo , will you read it ? im not sure , but i feel like i could write anything here . i really dont have much to say , but im doing fine , im doing more then fine , although seems like theres people who you “thought” care or are atleast suppose to pretend to care dont , it would be alot better if some people where more supportive , wish i could be that child to be proud of there parents or say “i love you mom/dad” but i cant & doubt il ever be able to . sucks , i always turn to my nana , shes always been there though everything , i may not be the goodest girl but atleast shes never judged me & always has been there even till this day , very thankful to have her , well anywho , going to bed now , well in a boit . i love you & miss you dearly .
prisss
February 27, 2013
*sighh
hey bro , sorry i havent wrote you , usually i do every month but lately i havent , i appoligize for that , not sure why ive been only dreaming of death , not only of thoughs who are already dead but the ones i care for the most . shits scary . i hate sleeping , i hope it aint no type of sign . cause then that’ll be some damn bullshit , anyways as you can see jays going to be 2 next month already which is in two weeks , wow hes growing so fast on me , im gettin old . wish yiou was here to see yo nephew . he’s to much and to damn smart , ahah today was charlies birthday , he turned 17 . deng we aint no longer little . times passing to fast :c its going on 12 years since youve been gone . damn . aint even tryna think anout it . shit gets to me , well as you also can see , im going to school . tryna get a career ahah tryna stay positive for my son , i wanna give him everything i wasnt able to have and never have him not have anything . its crazy how life is , yes we all have our diffulties , yes we all have shit going on , but thats life , right xD lifes just fucked up in everyway . i really miss you , like alot , well im sure everyone does , i hope . well ima let you go , and btw keep an eye out for my granny , you know how i feel about her , i want her to have plenty more years besides me . please . im not sure how will i react if she leaves me aswell . shes like my mother , i cant stand loosing her like i lost you and my dad , just watch over her , thats all i ask for if its not to much , i love you dearly and i miss you , see you later bro ,
prisss .
October 13, 2012
WHATS UP BRO.
HEY BRO…WELL I KEPT MY PROMISE..IM DOING GOOD IM STAYING OUT OF TROUBLE.WELL I SORRY FOR NOT WRITING YOU FOR OVER 4 YEARS, BUT I KNOW YOU UNDERSTAND IT PAINFUL THINKING ABOUT U BEING GONE FOR SO LONG ITS CRAZY ……HAHAHA WELL I KNOW YOU IN A CHILL PLACE. WELL YOU MAKE SURE YOU KEEP ON DOING WHAT YOU BEEN DOING FOR ME. WELL I KNOW U KNOW I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER. LOOKS JUST LIKE ME AND HAVE THE SAME PERSONALITY ME, AND U HAVE/HAD. WELL JUST DO ME A FAVOR AND LOOK OUT FOR MY DAUGHTER WHILE IM IN SAN DIEGO TRYING TO DO MY BEST TO MAKE SURE SHE HAVE A BETTER LIFE ME AND YOU HAD.. ILL BE SEEING U SOON HOPEFULLY JUST NOT TO SOON HAVE TO BE HERE FOR MY BABY GIRL..WELL IM RIGHT HERE IN A HOTEL WITH A BEAUTIFUL WOMEN NAME SARA WHICH IM FALLING FOR…BUT WELL SEE THE OUTCOME JUST GIVE ME PATIENTS AND HELP ME ENJOY MY LIFE A BIT MORE THAN NOW.. I PRETTY SURE U KNOW WHAT IM THINKING RIGHT NOW HAHAHA ….CATCH YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE
RAUL
July 24, 2012
miisss you .
hey gerardo . damn your now 11 years gone . time flys so fast . damn , member when you first got out of jail , you looked different from the day you left . you where super tall . bald , just different . i will never forget that day . its amazing how i remember so many things . even things i dont want to remember . im sure you know . you know everything . i member the day you came out we all went to dominos to eat pizza ahaha , we had finally had our family back ! but damn you ended up leaving us again . but this time for good . lifes a bit to funny how things happen . i have a child , hes 16 motnhs , im going to be 20 like next weekend . i relized that you past away a month before my birthday , well im sure yout in a way better place now . who knowa how you wouldve been if you where still here . well anyways ill let you go , btw everyones doing good ,so rest peacefully . where doing good (: love you , laters .
little sissy (pris)
June 20, 2012
why did you have to go !
hey bro , idk whats whats wrong with me , why did you leave me for ! i need you , moments like these i wish i had a big brother or father to run to , i need you guys real bad ! why did you have too go for?!?!?! why did you have to be from a gang ! why couldnt you just be normsl . what did you get out of being from there ?!?!? same goes for my father , hes also dead !!! & you guys are the ones i really need right now !! i mss you soo muchh , i need you back , i never wanted you to leave ! your little sister needs you , dont you see her crying out for you !? gerardo where are you ?! you said you’ll always be there for us ! i stood up nights crying for you , waiting to see if you’ll respond to me , you never did ! you left me alone , so did my father , i never knew him , but i wish i did , everyday i look at his oicture and try to figure out how was he , & then i look at you and wonder how would you be right now , im sorry , sorry for going off , i didnt mean to , i just had to let things out , i wish i could in person tho , i could really use a hug from you right now , D’: just know ill always love you and il never forget you !!! i just think you made a bad choice in leaving , i wish i had that chance to talk to you one last time ! for you to tell me “ill be ok” well ill let you go , ima keep watching your video , an remember how you were , how you looked when you would get mad , etc. well love you , & see you later bro.
priscilla (sister)
June 7, 2012
<3
damn no one even shows my primo love anymore i cant say anything either cuz ihavent been on here either but ihope u doing gud watch over all of us
danielle
April 9, 2012
miss you<3
hey gerardo , welli know its been to long since i wrote you , & im sorry , i just been really busy with school & my son , (: anyways i been good , so has my son, hes now going on 13months on the 10th , the boyfriend treats me perfect , besides that mom , daisys , charlie & jimmy are doing good (: idk about raul tho O.o hes kinda in his own world right now :c but oh well he’l get over it eventually (x well laters , love you <3
priscilla (:
March 12, 2012
thought about u mijo its been awhile
Hi mijo its been awhile since i wrote u something u been gone for a long time but i still remember chuco tiny and me went to tj and u kept messing with me all the way uo there and was trying to make me fall with my high heels …lol i miss u so much mijo ill never forget u and terry if ur reading this its me Becky wats up girl how u been if u want to get a hold of me call chuco tell him to give u my number ok mija luv u and u to mad goodbye
loca from east clanton
March 8, 2012
Missing you
Just stopping by to let you know we havent forgot about you , and we miss you alot .
-love always your cousin Pam
Pam
February 12, 2012
need you
heyy bro , sorry its been 2 months since i wrote you , but hey i did visit you durinig that time , as you know i really miss you , been thinking about you lately alot , wishing i had you here , just like i wish i had my damn dad , wonder why did i have to live with out him , i know everything happens for a reason but i dont like it , i want ah dadd 🙁 i need him , his talks something , but eekkk , i dont even know where hes burried , i cant even visit him , i tried looking online to see if i get any information , all i get is how he died , ugh , i dont wanna know that , i wanna visit him so i can talk to him & tell him how im doing , how much i need him , but anyways il stop talking about him , im here to talk to you , so yeahh , how you doing ? hows everything ? im pretty sure good >.< damn your 27 now , your old bro (x ahahah , kidding , love you , wishh you was here , i know i always say the same thing , but i actually mean it ! i really do miss you , well il let you go , love you , il be here later on . (: love you ,
baby sister (priss)
December 15, 2011
just stopping by reall fast,
heyy bro(:soo its only been a month since i havent wrote you, i was kinda feeling bad because i thought its been a really long timee, but it aint that bad, lol so yeahh just wanna say hello(: & of course like always i miss you and love you, i cant never forget to say that 😀 ahahah, so hows everything going for you.? im pretty sure everythings dope ass fuckk huh.? anyways , im doing good 😀 really good, ahahah, never been soo happy now that i have my son and my man , best family ever, >.< well love you and lates gottah goo broo,
your sister priscilla(:
November 16, 2011
upset -.-
soo i came to say hello obviously , ahahah but besides that im upset to see that no one takes the time to write you , not even 5 minutes , everytime i come here i always hope someome has wrote you , but ugh noo one.! and it gets me madd , everyone says they miss you and all kinda extra shit , yet they dont take the time to atleast say hello.? anyways ima leave that subject , I MISS YOU.! especially right now, i, sure you see whats happening, this is the moment i need you or atleast a father, but i guess i cant ): by the way tell him i said hello >.< even though he doesnt know me, (wish he did though) so how is everything going with you.? im pretty sure everythings good.!<3 well with me everythings good, ha. im happy, and my baby boy is doing good aswell , he's growing soo fast, he's 8 months already, he's forever screaming, and one thing he doesnt stop is always smiling, he has the cutest smile ever.! theres days that he looks like you, (x ahah , but anyways ima let ou go, i love you and miss you tons and everyday that passes by i wish you were here with us, honestly. xoxoxo, il be here again, iPromise bro, <3
your sister priscilla(:
September 28, 2011
its been ah whilee : i miss you.!
heyy bro, i know i havint been oon to write you and im honestly sorry , i really miss you , it seems like im the only one who writes you /: whitch aint right , cause you have brothers and ah sister and dislike the fact that they cant waste 5 minutes of there time to write you ,):< one thing for sure i will always write you noo matter what , even if its once ah month , im still going to write you tho(: so a few days ago i was telling my boyfriend about you also how we would all play resolling in my moms room , ahaha memories i will never forget , remember that time you told my mom you was taking us to school , but instead you took us to one of your girlfriends house with my moms car , aahhhh i remember everything like if it was yesterday(': its funny how i could remember so many things , well what can i tell you now , im doing good , my son (your nephew) is doing great and growing up so fast >.< me and my boyfriend are doing perfect , everything is going better ,(: charlie and jimmy are doing good as always growing , raul is ok i guess , havint talked to him , and daisy is also doing good , and my mama aswell, and rauls baby , shes adorable, your neice , (: well il be here later on this month if not il be back to write you sooner or later , you know i never forget you(: il keep you updated on the family when i write you again(: love you tons , lateess(:
prisss(:
August 18, 2011
sorry >.<
heyy gerardo , i’m soo sorry i havint wrote you ):i know it’s been a while , but hey atleast i still write you right.? ahahah well so far everythings good, im starting school(: & looking for a job ;o hopefully i find one asap lol well besides that hhmmm jeremiah’s growing so fast ,he’s now 5months , its likee each dayy he grows <3 well how's everything with you.? i'm pretty sure everyhtings good huh.!(: aahhhh really wishhh you could write backk /:well anyways, i wouldd stay to chat but i dont get no responce so il just end it right here >.< love you & i really miss you.!(:
priscilla(:
June 10, 2011
stopping by ,
hey bro. its bee about two months since i wrote you o: dammit, sorry tho’ havint had ah chancee tho/: my sos 3months today omg he’s getting so bigg and lookig cuter as the days go by(; really wished you were here with us.!/:< butt oh-well(: i reallly miss you gerardo.! looks like im the oly oe that writes you here now , & noo everyone still remebers you just ah few people dont have much time -_- well idk but ima goo to bedd now its gunna bee 12.00 soo nights & i love you with al my heart <3
cilla(:
April 15, 2011
hello(:
hey gerardo , well hhhmmm what to say.? how are you.? i’m doing good , living life ( my son’s growing soo fast <3 he's now a month & five days old <3(: & he's just the cutest baby ever >.< he makes me the happiest mom ever<3 specially when he smiles.! aahhh he's so damm adorable , only if you had the chance too carry & look at himm , i love my boys(: my boyfriend & my son<3(: well anyways let me tell you how your familys doing , daisy is doing really good , she's in college & working , charlie's doing good aswell , he looks soo old >.< he's only 15 & he looks like he's 18 & he's ah damm player with all these females lol (x dengg , jimmy is also doing good , he's short tho >.< lol but he has some features from you & girls are just on his little cute face 😛 lol , raul is doing good , has his own little family of his own , he looks like ah proud father(: which i'm glad(: & my mother is also doing good , proud to be ah grandmothere<3 well i might as well say everyone is doing good , <3 well that's how the family is doing , everyones good , & i know your doing good aswell<3 well ima lett you goo bro , lates & ii love you , we all LOVE you.!(:
cilla(:
March 30, 2011
guess what >.<
hey gerardo , well ima start off with ah hello 😀 ahaha ‘ soo im sorry cause i havint wrote too you , usually i doo it once ah weekk & this time its been like ah few weeks /: sorry >.< but i'm sure you know by now , my baby boy was bornn on march 10 , same as little marcos may he rest in peace , my baby boy soo adorablee , wishh you could meet him >.< & also raul's baby was born on marchh 19 , on his birthday (x how cute is that right.? best gift ever , her name is samantha(: you have ah nephew & niece >.< it's nice how they only ah few days apart(:<3 i really miss you bro.! we all doo not only me >.< well i just wanted too tell you that my jeremiah was born (x il come write you some other day , kay.? well i love you gerardo & i really miss you , bye<3.
priscilla ,
February 25, 2011
bleh ,
heyy gerardo , how was your day.? ^o^ well minee was greatt (: even thoo it rainded >.< i love the rain thoo , just can't gett soked cause i don't wanna end up sickk >.< then jeremiah well get suick >.< & we don't want that to happen >.< hehehehe , well charlie's birthday's on sunday , he's turning 15 , old guy , lol time goes by so fast >.< & then jimmy's birthday is the fallowing saterday he's turning 12 , everyones getting old >.< aahhh soo i'm tryna figure out if you do actualy read what i write.? or am i just writting for the fuck of it.? idk but i'm still gunna write you cause i have ah feeling you are able to read this<3 well i wana tell you a little about my baby<3 the guy that makes me happy & keeps me smilling 24/7 , his name is moises , obviously i'm sure you know that already >.< he's the sweetest guy ever , i wish you coulda met him , but then again what if you think wrong of him like everyone else does ): idk why everyone thinks of him in ah bad way , only if they took the time to get to know him they'l see he aint ah bad person , im sure you know that , cause i know your watching everything that happens <3 & i know you know how & who he is , so i don't think i have to tell you much , but i truely love this guy , my baby's father , been with him almost going on two years<3 & planning to stay with him for ever , i honestly love him , and you know that , he has changed me in so many ways that no one can , before him my world was darkk & plain & now look at it >.< it's way better im always happy & before my head was always stuck on the floor , i want everyone to see he is the guy & for them o stop thinking he's gunna leave me.! but how can i tell them , all i could doo is let time pass & show them that he's still with me & we still sticking strong.!<3 no matter what.! anyways , i wish i could write my dad the same shit i write you to let him know how his baby girls doing , but sucks that i can't ): i wish i had the chance to meet the guy , for him to know his daughter & to for him to meet his grandson<3 , but hey i can't ask for miracles right.? he made a stupid choice & fallowed the wrong croud.! he's dead & theres no way il ever get to know what kind of guy he was or anything , 19 years with out ah father , whats ah lifetime gunna do.? not much >.< but i aint gunna let that put my head down , ima keep my head up high , not for me or him but for my son & for my family<3 ,well il let you goo now gerardo , (: il be backk later this week , lovee you<3 HILLARY : WEREE ARE YOU.?
cilla ,
February 19, 2011
hieee<3
hey gerardo , ahhh soo today is pretty boring >.< typical saterdays , nothing else to doo right.?(: lol , yummy im eating posole-__- aint nothing like mamas food right >.< ahahah' soo im almost due>.< yikes , my baby wants to comee >.< my little jeremiah<3(: wishh you coulda been here for you could meet him , i wonder how's he going to look.? >.< the only thing i could do is wait for the day to come & meet my son right.? hehehehe , i also wonder how rauls baby gunna look.? will he be white or darkk.? hhhmmmm , well seee >.< he's having ah little girl ,im sure you already know tho >.< wish you could respondd to every question i askk you , but im sure your reading them thoo<3(: that's what counts , well im ending it here , soo love you & byee bro. don't trip il be backk here to write you again(: love you.
cilla ,
February 14, 2011
hola<3
here again on your page too sayy HAPPY VALENTINES DAY’<3(:& i miss you bro.! aight well laters & i love you.
priscilla ,
February 10, 2011
juss stoppin byy ,
heyy gerardo , just stoppin by to sayy hello (: i toldd you ili comee on your page pretty sooon <3 well i love you & ill be backk on here probably next week (: who knows maby tomarrow , ahahah' well lates bro.!(:
your sister , priscilla
February 6, 2011
missing you.!
heyy gerardoo , well your birthdayy juss passed , noo i didnt forget i juss didnt logg on your page>.< soo as you can see im pregnant , he's gunna be born next month>.< im so happy , his middle names going after your name , im sure you already know that>.< it would of bein better if you were here for you could meet him ♥ i was & have been thinking how would it be if you were still here.? sometimes i jus wonder why did you have to go.? but i guuess , how they say shit happens for ah reason right.? ): well ima let you go noww' il be comming backk on this pretty soon to write you again(: love you soo muchh & miss you.! byee broo , ♥
your little sister priscilla
December 21, 2010
hey
just dropping by to say hello.dnt worry i havent forgotten bout u. I miss you bunches big brother. We all miss u. wish u were here, but i guess things happen for a reason.
love u lots
-lil sis
daisy
daisy
March 18, 2010
UR STILL INMY HEART
IT WASNT OVER WHEN U LEFT ME IS FUCKED UP HOW WE HAD TO LET EACH OTHER I STILL REMEMBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY DROPPING U OFF AT YO HOUSE LOOKING AT REAR MIRROW SOMETHING TOLD ME TO CALL UR NAME BUT MY PRIDE JUST DIDNT LET ME TO FIND OUT THEY KILL U WAS TO MUCH FOR ME I WAS JU8ST 15 SHOKED IN SCHOOL I SAW EVERYONE LOOKING AT ME AND I WHEN BLIND OF A MON U HAD UR CLASS RIGHT NEXT TO MINE I RAN I LOKKED I SCREAM FOR U BUT U WAS GONE GERARDO WHY GOD WHY ME WHY I GOT UR NAME CARVE IN MY HAND DID IT WHEN I WAS 15 BANDMY SON SEE IT NOW AND ASK WHO ITS G ABD I LET HIM NOW IT WAS A YOUNG LOVE U WHEN AWAY TO SOON DNT NEED IT TATTO ITS CARVE IN MY HEART YOU IN MY LIFE AND ON MY DREAMS FOREVER AND I DNT CARE WHO KNOW OR WHO DOSENT BELIEVED IT FUCK YO UGLY OTHER BITCH SHE AINT SHIT TO ME I WAS YO MAIN ONE AND ILL ALWAYS BE YOUR MAIN ONE THAT WHY SHE NEVER COULD FACE ME NOT THEN NOT NOW I FUCKEN MISS U GERARDO I MISS BABYYY
UR LADY HILARY
March 18, 2010
missing u
FUCK GERADO HOW CAN I LET EVERYONE KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS U HOW MUCH U REALLY MENT IN MY LIFE FUCKEN MY WORLD END IT WHEN U DIE AND NO ONE GET IT…NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME…TERRY I LOST MY BABYYY IM ALONE IN THE WORLD MY BABYDDY IS IN JAIL MY SON GOT WORST MY PARENT TOOK HIM AWAY WHEN I WHEN TO JAIL IM LOST IN THIS WORLD AND IM SCREAMING FOR GERARDO TO COME SAVE ME IM TRYING TO KILL MYSLEF FOR SO LONG AND IDK WHY I KKEP WAKING UP IN THE HOSPITAL FOR SOME REASON GOD WANT ME HERE BUT I JUST CANT UNDERSTAND WHY I WANT TO RUN AWAY FAR FAR AWAY BUT IT SEEMS MY DAD KEEPS CALLING MY NAME MY MOM DNT WANT ME IN HEAVEN AND GERARDO KEPS PUSHING ME AWAY WHY GOD WHY AM I STILL HERE MY DADS IS DYING IN MY ARMS JUST LIKE POPEYE DID WHY U KEEP MAKING ME GO TROW THIS PAIN WHY ME GEARARDOM PLEASE COME BACK FOR ME IM ALL ALONE I DNT GOT NOONE….TERRY REACH OUT FOR ME I NEED U GUYS
HILARY
February 25, 2010
babyboy
I LOVE YOU I MISS YOU AND I WISH I COULD HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS JUST ONE MORE TIME THEY TOLD ME THAT TIME WILL MAKE IT BETTER BUT IS NOT TRUETH IS BEEN 9 YEARS SEENS YOU BEEN GONE LIFE IS NOT THE SAME AND IT WILL NEVER BE THE SAME NOT TILL THEY BURRY ME NEXT TO YOU NOT THAT AM PLANNING ON GOING SOON YOUR BROTHERS NEED ME AND MOST OF ALL I LOVE TO LIVE MANY MANY YEARS MORE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE MY GRAND KIDS ONE DAY NOT KNOW BUT MAYBE ONE DAY I LOVE YOU BABY AND FROM HEAVEN PLEASE AS GOD TO BLESS YOUR BROTHERS AND YOUR SISTERS ALWAYS ANDTO GUIDE THEM IN EVERY THING THEY DO AND TO GO AS FAR AS THEY CAN GO IN THERE LIFE -MISS YOU-
mom
February 25, 2010
forever young forever beatifuel forever love
It fells good to know that family havent forgot you also special thanks to who ever it is that has not stop goint to the cementerie i would like to know who you are please call me at 323 354-46-24 thank you very much for making the time to go see him and letting him know that he is not forgotten also to those that take the time to write he is with us always thank you sincerly This message is for chata sorry about your sister boo call me 323-354-4624 or at daisys cel at 323 921-9722 my addres is 556 colonia magnolias LA CAL 90022 BLG,35 I WILL LIKE TO SEE YOU AND YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU NEED ME AM HERE NO MATTER WHAT FOOL I HOPE YOU GET THIS MESSAGE SOON cousi MONICA call me chaoo
mom
February 6, 2010
to babyboy
im sorry daddy i havent written to you. honestly i havent had the courage to do so believe it or not this is the first time i have seen this clip since u been gone.I guess u know by now u r tia Chio is with u.I cant do this right now!I luv u with all my heart,take care of my baby sis please,tell her i luv and miss her dearly too! Terry if u r reading this; I luv u too and i miss u and I need u right now we will always be family!LUV U ALWAYS CHATA
tia martha
February 6, 2010
tia martha
January 29, 2010
My Dream
Hey, you know why I am here. 🙂 I had a dream about you again. It felt so real that I had to come here as if it were a message. He told me needs everyone to know he is fine, and always has been, that it’s more difficult being in a body than it is to be on the side where he is. He says to tell “ma” he is good. This was for you tia terrie. He called you ma in my dream. He told me he is with family and no one is to blame for what happened. He told me that no one was in controle of his life but himself. In my dream he was a man and helping others.He also kept talking about some type of vase or jar. its white-ish but i dont really remember what he was saying. anyway. this dream helped me out because all I kept doing was thinkin of my baby cousin that died too young. I love you baby G. we had good memories.
Monica
January 28, 2010
Remembering you still
I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.. I had a dream of what you would look like today.. You were all buff.. lol.. love you cousin.. Happy 25 baby G
Cousin Monica
January 28, 2010
I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH.. I had a dream of what you would look like today.. You were all bbuff.. lol.. love you cousin
Anonymous
January 10, 2010
heyy
well heyy yewr birrfdaiis kumin upp((:25yearss oldd,woow oldd guyy,well miss yew bro. alott!
pris,
December 22, 2009
miss yewe
heyy bro,wel uh juss stoppin bah tew saii heyy&&we miss yew alott!
we goin on christmas tew visit yew((:finalyy huh!((:heheh,soo uh yeah,wel peace outs bro,il write yew laters!mis yewe
yewr liddo sistah pris,
November 23, 2009
miss yew((:<3
heyy therr((: uh juss here writtin yew tew tell yew dat i miss yew!!alott//:i try tew imaine how would it be iff yew wer here??))’: wel buh-byes i miss yew((:<3
yewr liddo sistah priss((:
November 4, 2009
CALLING OUT 4 U
I CANT SAY WHAT I BEEN TROUGHT THE WORDS THE WAY I ALMOST FANIT WHEN THEY TOLD ME THEY KILL U THE WAY I RAN HALF WAY TO YOUR HOUSE FROM HIGHSCHOOL WAITING 4 U STILL WAITING FOR U AND BEATING ALL THEM FUCKUP LOOKS THEY DNT UNDERSTAND AND WILL NEVER DO____________________-GOING INSANE LIL BY LIL I NEED YOU
UR LADY
November 4, 2009
STILL HERE
HEY YOU IM SORRY I COME WITH U WITH MY SHIT…I KNOW U MUST KNOW EVERYTHING ABT ME BUT FUCK GERARDO CAN U SEE ME CANT U REALLY SEE ME? I KNOW SOMETIMES I FEEL U AROUND I KNOW IM NOT CRAZY I WANT 2 GO SEE U BUT SHIOT STILL SCARES ME…………………….IM FUCKEN MISSING YOU____________________________________ & ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY HE PUT YOU IN MY LIFE___________& TOOK U OUT OF IT THIS WAY!~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHYGIRL
October 26, 2009
Hey Mijo
Hey Mijop just thinking of you and wanted to that i love u
Rosa Sanchez
October 21, 2009
INSANE
HEY LOVE DAMN GERARDO U THE ONLY ONE I CAN RUN TO FUCK IM MISSING YOU………I KNOW WE WASENT 2GETHER 4 A LONG TIME BUT U KNOW U TRUELY CHANGE MY LIFE…….IM SITTING HERTE ALONE WITH A LIL BOY NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO GOING INSANE BY THE MIN TELLING AND CRYING OUT 2 GOD WHY HE DIDNT TAKE ME LAST YEARS I FUCKEN HARD UGLY ACCIDENT AND HE DIDNT DO SHIT TO ME…………WANTED TO DIE AND TRY KILLING MYSELF SOOO MANY TIMES AND FUCK IM STILL HERE WHY PLZZ ASK GOD AHY HE STILL HAS ME HERE…………..FUCKEN ALONE AND GOING INSANE WITH A LIL BOY CRYING OUT MOMMIE PLZZZ STOP CRYING FUCK IM FUCKEN ALONE GERADO WHY DOSENT GOD WANT ME?????????????? IM FUCKEN MISSING YOU WHEN I SEE YOUR MOM IS LIKE SHE MAKES EVERYTHING BETTER DNT KNOW WHY BUIT SHE GIVE ME HOP-E 4 THE FUTURE HAVENT SEEN HER ION A WHILE LAST TIME I SEEN HER SHE WAS WITH DAISY FUCK SHE LOOK LIKE A LIL LADY IT HURT ME ALOT THEY GROW UP SOOO MUCH PRISILA DNT SOUND THE SAME O0N THE PHONE I REALLY WANT 2 SEE HER HEARD SHE DOPING BAD BUT HOW CAN I HELP HER BABE WHEN IM DOING WORST I FUCKEN WANTED 2 GO SEE DAISY GRADUATE BUT I WAS GONE THAT SHIT HURT ME ALOT IM LOST AND NEEDING YOU SOOOO MUCH………………….FUCKEN TRICKY IS AN OG IN THE HOOD CAN KICKIT WITH HIM IT SCARE ME IM TRYING TO KICK BAX FROM THE HOOD BUT I ALWATS END UP LOST IN IT FUCK BABY HELP ME WHY U HAD TO LEAVE ME WHEN I WAS SOO YOUNG PLZZ JUST COME BAX AND TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DOO,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I HATE FUCKEN PLP JUDGING ME SAYING WHY DO I CRY 4 YOU WHEN WE JUST HAD LIKE 2WEEKS TOGETHER BUT IDK U GOT TO ME CHASE ME AROUND U WANTED 2 BE WITH ME U USED TO TALK SHIT KUZZ I WAS NOT AROUND FUCK BABY I WISH I COULD TAKE TIME AROUND & JUST BE WITH YOU FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD WHY YOU TOOK HIM AWAY FROM WHY YOU TOOK HIM AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK GERARDO I FUCKEN NEDD YOU7 PLZZZ COME BACKKKKK PLEASE BABYYY BACK EVERYTHING GO BACK,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,IF I WOULD OF BEEN THERE 4 YOU YOU WOULDENT BEEN OVER IN UR HOOD AND JUST MAYBE MABE YOU WOULD OF BEEN HERE STILL WITH ME———————-FUCK IF I WOULD OF BIENG A BETTER LADY TO YOU IF I WOULD OF JUST CARE A LIL MORE YOU WOULD STILL BEEN HERE WITH ME NIM FUCKEN SOOOOORYYYY JUST PLZZZZ MAKE THIS PAIN GO AW3AY PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
SOMEONE WHO CANT 4GET U
July 15, 2008
I MIZZ U!!!
GERARDO IM JUS STOPPIN BY TO SAI HI!!=]UH I WISH I COULD TELL U EVERYTHING I REALLY WANNA TELL U BUT TO MAKE IT SHORTER ILL JUS SAII I NEED U SO BAD RIGHT NOW!!THIZ IZ DA TIME WER I NEED DA LUV 4RM U!!I KNOW U BEEN WATCHIN OVER US N I THANK U 4 DAT!!BUT I NEED U I WANNA SEE U SO BAD I JUS DONT WANNA DO SUM’THIN STUPID.[IF U KNOW WAT I MEAN]WILL ILL LET U GO BRO..I MIZZ U N ILL B SEING U SOON!!=…….
YO LIL SISTAH!![PRISCILLA]
June 2, 2008
whats up big bro..
whats up bro. i miss you alot fo imright here locked up the last place you would like to see me i know i broke some of your promises already but you know what know im doing what i have to do i got to start from scrap again and move myself up but you know what i been thinking of you alot fo the wonderful memories we had but now i feel alone in this shity world i think to myself that they will never be another person like you who care about like you did fo well im almost going home i get realease around july fo and trust me when i say im going to do good fo for you, me, and the famila you know what i mean fo just to let you know im going to do what i have to do to survive just keep on watching over me and the family and protecting us at all times a bro. ill see in the ends of my days will meet again and will be united once again i love you bro. and always thinking of you stay up mad and dont let anybody put you down.
Raul
May 12, 2008
ME
SO WHAT CAN I SAY GERARDO………………WHY THE FUCK DID YOU GO WHY WHY FUCK..YOU KNEW ME GERARDO I WAZ STUPID BACK THEN IM REALLY SORRY I AM 2 THIS DAY I STILL WISH 2 HAVE ONE MORE DAY WITH YOU ILL HUG YOU N NEVER LET GO FUCK… I KNOW NO 1 REALLY UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I FEEL 4 YOU NOT MY FRIENDZZ NOT MY FAMILY..CANT THEY UNDERSTAND I KISS YOU,YOU WHERE MY BOYFRIEND THE 1ST ONE N ONLY THAT WALK ME 2 MY CLASS WANTED 2 BE WITH ME SORRY 4 ACTING STUPID SORRY 4 NEVER CALLING YOU IM SORRY 4 GETTING YOU MAD FUCK U LEFT ME WHY YOU WHERE MAD AT ME WHY LIVE ME LIKE THAT I STILL REMEBER THAT DAY LIKE IT WAZ YESTERDAY WE WHEN N DROP YOU OFF HOME IN TRICK RED BUCKED YOU GOT MAD N I JUST LOOKED AT YOU WALKING AWAY TROUGHT THE MIRROW… THE DAY IN SCHOOL I CODENT WAIT 2 SEE YOU N THEY TOLD ME YOU WHERE GONE NOOO GERARDO NO I FACE DEAD I SAW YOU…FUCKKK WHY FUCK WHY DID YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE WHY YOU LEFT ME YOU REALLY LEFT ME ASKING WHY FUCKKKKK
HILARY
April 26, 2008
HEY BRO. WAT UP?MISSIN U..
HEY BROTHER WATS UP..WELL IM HERE AT HOME MISSIN U SO MUCH..WONDERIN HOW WOULD IT BE IF U WAS WITH US….OH COULD U DO ME A FAVOR N TELL RANDY,ISIAH,N MA DADDY I SAID HI N I MISS THEM SO MUCH.,DA SAME GOES 4 U…U GUYS R DOIN A GOOD JOB IN WATCHIN OVER US….HOWS IT UP THERE?I WANNA SEE U I MISS U SO MUCH GERARDO!!!
YO LIL SIS..
April 7, 2008
waz ^
jus stoppin by to say hi!
daisy {ur sis}
March 13, 2008
SHY GIRL
hey just passing by to drop a line or two. every time I’m drunk n feel lost I run to ur mom. tell her I’m sorry. just that when I talk to her brings me back just to feel u just a lil. fuck gerardo our relationship was a trip thanks 4 tryingur best sorry baby I really I’m sorry. u change my life thank u n just WHY
Anonymous
March 3, 2008
BAUTISTA FAMILY
OH N TO EVERYONE THAT DO NOT KNOW OUR INFORMATION…IF U WANT TO CONTACT US OUR NUMBER IS (323)268-7332N IF U WANT TO WRITE TO US OUR EMAIL IS daisyguerra323@yahoo.com
LOVE U GERARDO
N THANX FOR WRITING TO MY BROTHER.
WE REALY APRECIATE IT
N HE DOES TOO
BYE
Anonymous
March 3, 2008
I MISS U BROTHER
HEY BROTHER. HOW U BEEN? WE’VE BEEN ALRIGHT. HAPPY SUPER LATE BIRTHDAY! IM SO SORRY WE HAVENT WENT TO GO VISIT U, BUT WE R, I PROMISE. WELL I JUS TALK TO HILARY TODAY, SHE STILL MISSES U. IM GLAD SHE ALWAYS STOOD IN CONTACT WITH US AFTER U DIED. WELL EVERYONE IS DOING GOOD. CHARLIE JUS TURN 12, JIMMY IS GOING TO TURN 9 ON WEDNESDAY, PRISCILLA IS GOING TO TURN 16 ON AUGUST 8, IM GOING TO TURN 17 IN APRIL THA 2ND, AND RAUL IS ABOUT TO TURN 18 ON THA 19 OF THIS MONTH. YUP WE ARE BIG. ANYWAYS HOW R U UP THERE? I HOPE U MET ISAIH MY TIO DANNY’S BABY THAT DIED, AND RANDY, A GUY WE ACKNOWLEDGE AS OUR FAMILY. HE IS SO AWESOME. IM STILL SAD CUZ HE JUS DIED ON FEBRAURY, N LIKE WE KNEW HIM SINCE MY TIO DANNY HAD GOT OUT OF JAIL. RAUL IS REALLY SUFFERING TOO B-CUZ RAUL WAS CLOSER TO HIM, I REMEBERED WHEN RANDY USE TO GET OUT OF WORK HE USE TO PICK UP RAUL EVERYDAY. I MISS U GUYS VERY MUCH! N ALL OF U GUYS TAKE CARE OF US. OH N TAKE CARE OF MY TIO DANNY, EVEN THOUGH IM REALLY DISAPOINTED IN HIM TAKE CARE OF HIM. I CANT BELIEVE HIM, THE MAN THAT HELPED HIM MOST DIDNT EVEN RECONIZE HIM IN HIS TIME OF DEPARTURE. WELL ANYWAYS KEEP WATCHING OVER US LIKE YOU’VE BEEN ALL THIS YEARS. WELL I GOT TO LET U GO CUZ OUR MOM IS GONNA BE TRIPIN EVEN THOUGH IM OFF TRACK BUT ILL LET U GO..BEFORE I FORGET TAKE CARE OF FRANK, HELP HIM TO MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE AND DOING THA RIGHT THING…CUZ CHARLIE IS REALLY SUFFERING. WELL I GOTS TO GOI LOVE U ALOT
N I MISS U
TAKE CARE AND TAKE CARE OF US
WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U
MAY U REST IN PEACE GERARDO
WE ALL LOVE U N TAKE CARE
BYE
UR LIL SISTA, DAISY
February 18, 2008
miss u!
♥REST IN PEACE GERARDO♥JUST COMING BY TO TELL U I MISS U ND MY MOM MISSES U TO.
XOX DANIELE
danielle (ur lil.cousin)
January 31, 2008
MISSIN U ALWAYZ
MA BAD HILARY ITS (323)2687332)LOVE U GERARDO!!!
PRISCILLA(LIL. SISTER
January 31, 2008
I MISS U
HEY GERARDO HAPPY LATE B-DAY(HILARY CALL MA MOM 323-2867332 MISS U)WELL MISS U GERARDO!!!
PRISCILLA(LIL SIS)
January 9, 2008
thinking of u
hey just wanted to say I miss u. trying to start a book. look after me baby ur one n only shy
Anonymous
January 9, 2008
thinking of u
hey just wanted to say I miss u. trying to start a book. look after me baby ur one n only shy
Anonymous
December 31, 2007
help
hey terry its me hilary missing u a lot n of course my life changer my my baby gerardo yeah mind. fuckk terry call me
Anonymous
October 4, 2007
missing you
Anonymous
June 27, 2007
I REALLY MISS U!!!!!
well hey Gerardo how have u been….well Charlie just graduated from elem. to middle school……..{TO EVERY1 MY MOM SAID TO CALL HER 323 2687332 WE LIVE IN EAST LA}
UR LITTLE SISTAH{PRISCILLA}
April 4, 2007
I LOVE YOU!!
HEY GERARDO,JUST DROPPIN BYE 2 SAY HI AND 2 TELL U THAT I MISS U SO MUCH.ITS BEEN SO LONG BUT IT FEELS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY THAT U LEFT US LIKE THAT..I MISS U SO MUCH IT SUCKS WITHOUT U, I LOVE U!!WELL GOTZ 2 GO GOODBYE &GOODNIGHT..(2:PAM HEY CALL US WHEN U HAVE A CHANCE (323)268-7332.WE MISS YA TELL EVERYONE WE SAID HI)..
UR LIT. SIS.(PRISCILLA)
March 15, 2007
miss u
hey you
pam
February 10, 2007
friend
hey i no its been so long im sorry we miss you alot hope you still remember me and my sis hilary we miss you so much and i know one day will see you again later
mayra
February 10, 2007
friend
Anonymous
January 26, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHAPPYBIRTHDAY
pam
January 26, 2007
thinking of you
pam
January 19, 2007
Hi
Anonymous
November 17, 2006
hello
Anonymous
October 30, 2006
hey u
love you
Anonymous
October 26, 2006
Alwys In My Thoughts
Hi Mijo its been a long time since you havent heard from me its been a lot of things going on but i wont you to know that i miss u
Tia Martha
October 26, 2006
Miss U
Hey you how are you just stoped bye to let you know we have not forgot about u
Pam
October 18, 2006
ALWAYS IN MY HEART
Hey there primo! SORRY its taken me this long to write but i haven’t forgot about u and i never will cause i carry u deep inside my heart. I will always love u and u will aways be a apart of me.I know that I havent visit u but its because i’ve been going thru some drama buti carry u in my thoughts and in my prays so i hope u hear me but as soon as i get the chance i be there. Well Cuz I LOVE U, I MISS U and I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF U.TALK 2 U IN MY PRAYER.GOODNITE!!!!!!!
Lil Danny Boy
October 18, 2006
4ever Lasting
Lil Danny Boy
October 18, 2006
4ever Lasting
Lil Danny Boy
October 4, 2006
hey
Anonymous
September 29, 2006
hello
just stop by to say hello
pam
September 27, 2006
good morining
HEY YOU JUST STOP BY TO SAY GOOD MORING LOVE U AND MISS U
pam
September 26, 2006
love u
miss u
pam
September 26, 2006
miss u a lot
hey gordo its been a while since i wrote to u but if u see am writing to u from camp yes am here again i was doing bad.but i miss u alot u just dont know the other day i was thinking of u when we had the ballon fight and you put soap in 1 of theme and it hit my mom in the face and we started chasing you all around.TIA TERRY IF YOU READ THIS CALL MY MOM AT (310)953-6268 AND I LOVE U TIA TERRY AND THE KIDS. well georardo i got to go love u a lot and MISS U VERY MUCH.BY PAM
pam
September 26, 2006
miss u
hey georado i miss u so much Happy late birthday
pam
August 31, 2006
just to tellu that i loveu
I honey sorry I havent veen to see you lately but i promise i will be there this mpnday i miss you so much i miss your smiley your kisses your attitud every thing . i hear onces some one saying that most of the time you dont know what you have till you loose it and you know what that is so trued i didn’t realise how important you really were for me now that i don’t have you even to breath or to go on in my life it’semms so hard i dontsometimes how i make it. but i realise so much and there is so much i got to tank you for you could’t even began to imagen in the natural but seens i know you are an angel i know you know thank you for being and important part of my live thankyou for loving me the way you have thank you for being there the way you werejust thank you for being born and most of all i thank god for you for giving me the pridilege of being your mother a’m so sorry for all the mistackes i have made along the way a’m still learning but i know that i a’m not where i was thank to god and thanks to you caues you dad make me realise alot of things and the most inportat one is that the love that i have for you not even dead can’take that from me always you’re mother terrie
Mom
August 31, 2006
mom
August 31, 2006
mom
January 29, 2006
WAIT
HEY i didnt write my correct email.. hahaha.. hey uncle danny wanted my mom to go to church today… i am so sorry for not remembering your birthday. i am such a terrible cuz…but i will make it up to you. In my new Apt. i will put up a big picture. YEAH…and a candel right by it.. PERFECT!! let me see where… i will have to put one of those thingys..yup i have the perfect place…ok…well…see u…but not yet
Monica Espinoza
January 29, 2006
Happy Birthday
Ok I am not sure if your day is today…or the 26th and i am sorry.. but its not like u ever rememebered my birthday.. anyway.. i love you…happy 21st birthday..
Monica Espinoza
January 22, 2006
I REALY MISS YOU MIJO
I JUST GOT THREW WATCHING YOUR VIDEO AND I REALIZE THAT I STILL MISS YOU SO MUCH AND REMEMBER EVERY TIME YOU USE TO LOVE TO MESS WITH ME AND I WOULD YELL AT YOU . STAY STRONG TERRY LOVE YOU CALL ME AT 323 971-6541 OK WOULD LOVE TO HERE FROM YOU TO SEE HOW YOU BEEN DOING. LOVE ALWAY’S AND FOREVER CON MUCHO CARINO Y REPETO YOUR OG HOMEY’S BECKY AKA LOCA PACHY SLEEPY AND LEFTY FROM THE BIG BAD CLANTON GANG EAST SIDE AND WITH THIS I’M OUT….
homegirl loca aka Becky
January 22, 2006
homegrl loca
Anonymous
December 22, 2005
missing you
HEY YOU ITS BEEN SOME TIME SEEN I WROTE BUT YOU KNOW I STILL HAVE YOU IN MY HEART I STILL MISS YOU AND HOPE SOME DAY WE DO SEE EACH OTHER UP THERE WELL GERARDO I’M HERE TO LOOK FOR YOUR MOM I MISS YOUR FAMILY TOO. PLEASE LOOK DOWN ON ALL OF US. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU HONEY. TERRY PLEASE CALL ME I WANT TO SEE YOU MISS YOU AND THE KIDS 216 50 47 MISS YOU AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS
HILARY YOUR TRULY
December 14, 2005
Its ME
All week I have been thinking of you. I have all your funeral papers and all the pictures i took in a box. and i was afriad to go through them because i didnt want to see u. Gerardo, you were too young. It shouldnt have been your time. you would have finally turned 21 this year. I want to say it isnt fair but i know in my heart that this happened for a reason. I heard the recorded msg aunt terry put on one of ur pictures and i started to cry and think ‘HE WAS ONLY 16!!!!’Well uncle danny’s baby is up there with you. watch over him. I never met him but he is still my cousin. i love you…..MONICA
Monica Espinoza
August 11, 2005
we miss you always on our hearts
Mayra
August 4, 2005
beloved friend
hey i know its been a while but im just letting you know your still in my heart and that you will always be miss your friend chonchis i know you remember that cause you were the one to named me that well ill let you go for now but not for long love you always your friend Mayra sleep in peace
Mayra
August 1, 2005
me
hello just thinking of you
Hilary (shy girl)
July 28, 2005
thinking of you
HEY YOU STILL MISS YOU A LOT I KNOW I WAS MAD LAST TIME I WROTE IS JUST SO MUCH SHIT GOING ON IN MY LIFE I WISH SOME TIMES THAT EVRY THING WOULD JUST GO AWAY. I MISS YOUR CUTE SMILE. I MISS THE OLD DAYS I MISS BEEN YOUNG I MISS NOT GIVING A FUCK ABOUT NOTHING I WISH YOU WERE BACK HERE.
TERRY I MISS YOU AND THE KIDS TELL THEM I STILL THINK OF THEM AND I HOPE THEY HAVENT FORGET ME LIKE GERARDO’S GIRL NOT LA OTRA I HAVE TO GO BYE
HILARY
July 25, 2005
So whats up bro how you doing the reason im talking to u today is because i realy miss u bro i know u know that but i being strenghing these day u ant around i just want u to know that for u to help bro well it time to go bye
Raul
July 18, 2005
I MISS YOU
I STILL THINK OF YOU AND CARE SO MUCH DONT EVER FORGET THIS LITTLE SHY GIRL IT WAS A RESENT YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE TO SHOW ME THE WAY I JUST HAVE TO OPEN MY EYES AND SEE IT
Hilary (shy girl)
July 18, 2005
what happen
dam what happent to me i’m trying so hard that im afria i’m going to brake down and hard dam gerado things in my life change so much that i’m afraid to see you i’m afraid something if going to happen that i’m going to see you soon i miss you i do but i’m not tready to be up there yet not now i have my little one to think of and his just my life now HIS just killing me how can some one love you so much and hurt you much more
Hilary (shy girl)
July 15, 2005
dam
Fuck what can i say Gerarardo i just talk to your mom and it hurt what she told me about you fuck i wish i could just go back know and look in your eyes and tell you how much i did care for you fuck fuck mad i hate this shit how life had to be so hard i’m sorry but you change my life and you are changing it every day fuck fuck i wish i could go back.
Terry thanks and sorry
Hilary (shy girl)
July 8, 2005
still here
here i am still thinking of you missing the times we spend together hopeing you were still here just with us even if were not together it would be nice to know you are out here fuck what am i saying fuck Gerardo i misss you you change my hold life i still get stuck on the day you were gone fuck fuck what can i say i wish you were here just to tell you i did care i did like you i did i fucken did fuck Gerardo i miss you.
i miss your mom TERRY IF YOU READ THIS PLEASE EMAIL ME I WANT TO HERE FROM YOU HOW ARE THE KIDS I MISS YOU GUYS HIT ME UP OK
Hilary (shy girl)
March 23, 2005
LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER
SINCE YOU BEEN GONE NOTHING IS THE SAME AND IT WILL NEVER BE BUT I THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME A SECOND CHANCE TO MAKE IT RIGHTFOR THE REST OF YOUR BROTHERS AND SISTERS A’M SO SORRY THAT YOU HAVE LAY YOU’R LIFE FOR US IN ORDER FOR ME TO LOOK AT LIFE THE WAY I SEE IT TODAY AND I KNOW IN MY HEARTH THAT YOU ARE MY SHINNING START AS I LLOK AT THE SKY I CAN PICTURE YOU YOU WILL ALWAYS BE LOVE AND REMENBER TILL THE DAY I’LL WE MEET EACH OTHER BECAUSE YOU ARE RIGHT THERE WAITING AS YOU SLEEP THE CONSALETION THAT I HAVE TO DAY IS I KNOW YOU ARE SAFE AND THERE IS NO MORE PAIN NO MORE TEARS NO MORE PAIN, WHEN YOU HEARD JESUS CALL YOURE NAME YOU TOOK HIS HAND AND WALK AWAY FROM AS LIVING MANY THINGS UNDONE BUT IT WAS YOURE TIME AND NOW I UNDERSTAND I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY SHINNING START.
MOM
March 18, 2005
ILOVE YOU HILARY
HEY GIRL I’M STILL HERE ALSO CALL ME 323 789 68 33 OR AT 323 218 77 27 I’LL BE WAITING PORTATE BIEN OKEY BEATIFUL AND DON’T LET NO ONE LET YOU DOWN REMENBER THAT OKEY
TERRIE GERARDO'S MOM
March 18, 2005
Q-Vo
Hey all of you out there thank you for loving my baby and not forgetting him I belived that remenbers each and everyone of you and that he loves as well look if you guys need to get in touch with me or woul like to see me am at 254 w. manchester ave L.A 90003 write me or come an see me or you can reach me at 323 789 68 33 Home or cell 323 218 77 27 don’t forget I love you God bless you and take care of you always
TerrieGerardo's mom
March 17, 2005
still here
HEY YOU SO I’M STILL HERE STILL THINK OF YOU AND MISS THAT CUTE SMILE OF YOUR SO MANY YEARS AND I STILL CANT FORGET ASKING WHY LIFE HAVE TO BW THIS WAY. STILL A TEAR DROP TO SHOW I STILL HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART FOR YOU.THIS FOR YOUR MOM TERRY I’M LOOKING FOR YOU ITS LIKE YOU JUST GOT LOST AND I CANT FIND YOU PLEASE WENT YOU COME DOWN TO MY HOOD PLEASE LOOK ME UP I DONT STAY WERE I USE TO BUT I’M STILL AROUND LOOK ME UP I MISS YOU AND THE KIDS.
REST IN PEACE A DEAR GERARDO LOVE YOU
HILARY
February 9, 2005
R.I.P BABY BOY
I MISS YOU ALOT BOY.AND I LOVE YOU TO .HAPPY B-DAY I WILL SEE YOU AND MY BABY JOHN ONE DAY UNTILY THEN GOOD BYE FOR HOW BUT NOT FOREVER . DED’ NO I CAN’T FORGET THIS EVENING OR YOUR FARE AS YOU WERE LEAVING BUT I GUESS THATS JUST THE WAY THE STORY GOES YOU ALWAYS SMILE BUT IN YOUR EYES YOUR SORROW SHOW YES IT SHOWS NO ICAN’TFORGET TOMORROW WHEN ITHINK OF ALL MYSORROW WHEN I HAD YOU THERE BUT THEN I LET YOU GO AND NOW IT’S ONLY FAIR THAT SHOULD LET YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SHOULD KNOK ICAN’T LIVE IF LIVING IS WITHOUT YOU I CAN’T LIVE ICAN’T GIVE ANYMORE. LOVE YOU ALWAY TELL MY BABY HIII. AND ILOVE AND MISS HIM TO LOVE NENA A.K.A NANCY HAPPY B-DAY ON THE JAN.29,2005 OK…OK..YOU KNOW HELL WE DO IT UP AND THE ES
LOVE ALWAYS NANCY
February 9, 2005
R.I.P MOYO
HI MY MIYO.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.I REALLY MISS YOU.YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND MY THOUGHTS EVERYDAY.YOU ARE AVERY SPCIAL YOUNG MAN TO THE FAMILY REST IN PEACE MIYO
LOVE ALWAYS MICHELLE
February 9, 2005
R.I.P MOYO
HI MY MIYO.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.I REALLY MISS YOU.YOU ARE IN MY HEART AND MY THOUGHTS EVERYDAY.YOU ARE AVERY SPCIAL YOUNG MAN TO THE FAMILY REST IN PEACE MIYO
LOVE ALWAYS MICHELLE
February 9, 2005
rip mijo
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH ,YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE UP THERE ,TELL ALL THE HOMIES WHAT IT CEE LIKE TILL WE MEET AGIAN. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR TIA LOCA
becky
February 9, 2005
rip mijo
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH ,YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE UP THERE ,TELL ALL THE HOMIES WHAT IT CEE LIKE TILL WE MEET AGIAN. LOVE ALWAYS YOUR TIA LOCA
becky
February 9, 2005
R I P
Anonymous
January 20, 2005
i till miss you
hey there lose one so how you been cute i miss you so much can you believe i’m going to be 19 next mounth already went i had you i was only 15 fuck how time past fast. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE ONE. i miss you and have you in my heart every day still thinking about your lovely smile and still could here your laugth fuch mad.i miss your mom take care of her please and if she gets to read this Terry please look me up i miss you guys.
Hilary
November 26, 2004
GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
November 26, 2004
GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
November 26, 2004
GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
November 26, 2004
GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
November 26, 2004
GERARDO MAD ONE
HEY WAS UP ITS ME AGAIN THINKING OF YOU LOOKING THROW THE MESSAGES PEOPLE LIVE YOU AND I KNOW FOR A FACT BEACUSE I FEEL IT THAT YOU READY EVERYTHING THAT EVERY ONE WRITES TO YOU SO HERES SOME FEW WORDS FOR YOUR SOLD WELL HOW ARE YOU DOING UP THERE I BET HAVING A BLAST ASS FOR ME GUESS WHAT BELIVE IT OR NOT IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL I START THIS MONDAY GUESS WHAT IM STUDYING TO BE WELL IM GOING TO BE A MA THAT MEANS A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND MY SISTER SHE GOING TO SCHOOL TO SHES GOING TO BE SOMETHING ELSE BUT WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL ITS COOL BUT I HAVE A FAVOR TO ASK YOU FOR PLEASE GERARDO LOOK OVER OUR HOMIE TRICKY QUE NADA LE PASE BECAUSE RIGHT KNOW THERES A LOT OF GUYS GETTING KILL AND TO LOOSE ANOTHER HOMIE ITS GOING TO BE REALY HARD SO AS A FAVORITE LOOK OUT FOR THE HOMIE WELL I KNOW WE HAVE TO LET GO BUT ITS REALY HARD SPECIALLY TO LET GO TO THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES THAT WE SHARED WITH YOU AND I STILL HAVE THEM IN MY HEART AND MIND ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE THEY TOOK YOU AWAY FROM US BUT IT SEEMS LIKE IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY YOU FOR EVER BE IN MY HEART LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WELL LATER ILL LET YOU GO FOR KNOW BUT NOT FOR LONG REST IN PEACE
LAZY YOUR CUNADA
November 5, 2004
my friend
hey was up again its me the one that realy doesnt stops writing to you because i realy miss you just likke the rest that had the luck of meetingyou well ass for us your friends the one you use too kick it in school with miss you like crazy and hopefully i could go and visit you very soon because i havent for a while but you always visit my dreams and your always remmember in my heart well clanton because thats what me and my sister and your homie from school use to call you remember gerardo becuse i do well intill then ill write back to you miss
lazy
October 30, 2004
MY BELOVED FRIEND
I KNOW I VERLYWROTE TO YOU YESTERDAY BUT LIKE I TOLD I ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN MY MIND SO I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT WE MISS YOU AND WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU WE LOVE YOU TALK TO YOU LATER.
LA CHONCHIS
October 29, 2004
Hey was up my favorite cunado well even doe your not with us your still on our minds and hearts and youll always remember its been 3 or 4 years now but your still on my mind and i still remember when we use to go to freemont and you got with my sister when she lost you she was doing realy bad and you will always on her mind so thats why she will always write to you her beautiful poems and you have a couple of them were you live messages for you i remember the first time you and my sisterand triky and griselda and of course my self when to bethune park and stated playing tackle football and you started calling me names and call me chonchis you were the first one and i still remember and me and my sister and tricky were talking about you last time and remember when you came up with that named for me seince then they call me chonchis gerardo we still miss you and i still remember the last time we seen you when tricky and my sister and i drope you of in your house after school that was the last time we were going to ever going to see you i still remmeber it was on a thursday. and we did not know that was going to be the last time you ever walk away from us so like i said youll always on my mind and heart we love you and miss you. In Loving Memory of my Beloved homeboy and friend Gerardo Lujan Jr Rest In Peace
MAYRA
September 28, 2004
Miss u
Pam
July 24, 2004
friend
i still remember the days that we use to kick it remember conado how you always call me fats ass and we use to kick in school we love you and your still in our hearts for ever it still hearts and its been so long you still in my mind for ever love you your homegirl mayra la chonchis remember
chonchis
July 24, 2004
friend
Even if your not with us we will always have you in our hearts and minds we miss you from your friend love for ever
mayra
February 17, 2004
thinking of you
HEY BABY HERE I AM JUST THINKING OF YOU JUST LOOKING AT YOUR PICTURE FUCK I MISS YOU GERARDO WELL WE’LL SEE EACH OTHER SOMEDAY WELL JUST WANTED TO SAY I STILL HAVE YOU IN MY HEART MISSING YOU
HILARY
February 3, 2004
DAM
HEY I READ ALL THE MESSEGE YOU HAVE AND YOU HAVE ALOT YOU COULD SEE PEOPLE STILL LOVE YOU DAM BABY I MISS YOU SO MUCH I DONT WANT TO CRY NO MORE MAD BUT IT HURTS IN SIDE I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU I NEED TO TALK TO YOU TELL ME EVERYTHINGS OK THAT YOUR STILL THERE LET ME TOUCH ONES AGAIN DOES TIPS FUCK MAD WHY I DIRENT EVEN GET TO SAY GOOD BYE TO YOU WHEN YOU WHERE A LIVE HOW THE FUCK YOU WONT ME TO SAY GOOD BYE TO SOME ONE THAT CANT SAY NOTHING TO BE. FUCKEN GERARDO IT STILL HURT ME. I DONT WANT TO CRY NO MORE WHY YOU LEFT ME COME KISS THIS TEARS AWAY FUCK MAD I STILL MISS YOU.
SHY GIRL (HILARY)
February 3, 2004
thinking of you
HEY BABY HERE JUST THINKING OF YOU. I CANT BELIFE ITS GOING TO BE 3 YEARS THAT YOUR BEEN GONE. FUCK GERARDO I MISS YOU. ALOT OF THINGS CHANGE SEEN YOU LEFT. FUCK MAD STILL CANT EXPLAIN THE PAIN I FEEL IN SIDE. HERE A POEM . “3 YEARS AGO”3 YEARS AGO WE SAID “SEE YA LATER” YOU NEVER CAME BACK.., 3 YEARS AGO, I LOOKED AT YOU WITH TEARS IN MY EYES, YOU LAID THERE MOTIONLESS, BUT YET WE STILL SAID OUR GOODBYES, 3 YEARS AGO, I SAID “I’LL SEE YA AROUND.” TOOK A ROSE… AND FELT TO THE GROUND I LANDED ON MY KNEES AND I BEGGED U… DON’T LEAVE ME PLEASE!!! BUT YOU HAD TO GO IT WAS TIME. 3YEARS AGO I REALIZE WHAT YOU MEANT TO ME …. BECAUSE 3 YEARS AGO…. WE LAID YOU TO REST…. AND WE LET YOU BE…. REST IN PEACE GERARDO I GUESS IT WAS YOUR TIME GOD WANTED YOU THEN AND LEFT ALL OF US BEHIND BUT WITH YOUR LOVE DEAP IN SIDE THANKS FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE, I KNOW YOU SORRY FOR LIVING SO SOON. I MISS YOU SO MUCH STILL GOT LOVE FOR YOU.
SHY GIRL (HILARY)
January 21, 2004
IT STILL HURT
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!THEM PEOPLE MAY SAY WHAT THEY WANT ABOUT ME BUT NOBODY REALLY WOULD KNOW WHAT I WHEN THROUGTH TO SEE YOU THERE NOT SAYING NOTHING WAS THE HARDES THING I HAD TO DO THEN TO HEAR PEOPLE TELLING ME I HAD TO LET YOU GO HOW CAN THEY SAY THAT? HOW CAN YOU LIVE ME LIKE THAT AND NEVER EVEN SAY BYE GERARDO MAYBE I WASENT THE BEST GIRLFRIEND BUT YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURT ME AND TO THIS DAY IT STILL DO. i FUCKEN MISS YOU MAD FUCK YOU YOU LEFT ME AND YOU DIRENT LOOK BACK. YOU LET ME GO THROUGTH LIFE BUT A PAIN IN MY HEART THAT WONT GO AWAY. I DONT WANT TO CRY BUT THIS PAIN WONT GO AWAY. DON’T BE SAD MAD ITS YOUR B-DAY BE HAPPY AND PLAY AGAIN LIKE A LITTLE BOY HAVE FUN UP THERE I’LL SEE YOU SOME DAY. I STILL GOT LOVE FOR YOU.
HILARY (SHY)
January 21, 2004
missing you
HEY GERARDO SO WHAT CAN I SAY JUST HOW MUCH I MISS YOU I THINK ABOUT ALOT SAY HI TO ALL THE HOMIES UP THERE FOR ME. I STARE AT YOUR PICTURE EVERY DAY THE ONE UP IN MY WALL AND STILL CAN BELIEVE YOUR GONE I GUESS YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE. FUCK THAT I DON’T WANT TO THINK OF THAT MAD I KNOW YOU STILL HERE WITH ME I KNOW YOU LOOK OUT FOR ME TOO. I MISS YOU I MISS YOUR CUTE SMILE I WANT TO GO SEE YOU WANT TO HUG YOU.
your lady shy girl
January 10, 2004
You are always on my mind
i know i know…but..i have a good excuse..ok..no i dont..i guess i havnt seen u cuz i feel guilty cuz i waited so long. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!..ur b-day is cummin..i cant promise when i will see u anymoe…cuz when i do..i feel bad=0(. but i know that u know how much i miss u. i love u so much..and just in case i dont come back on ur b-day…HAPPY BIRTHDAY…loves u with all my heart….MONICA
Monica Espinoza
December 11, 2003
I'M STILL HERE
HEY YOU STILL HERE FOR YOU JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I STILL MISS YOU LAST TIME i SOW YOUR NAME IN A GRAVE I CODEN’T BELIEVE IT YOU ITS STILL HARD THE FIRST TIME I GO I CODENT TOUCH YOU IN TILL WE WERE ALONE SORRY FOR NOT BEEN THERE I STILL LOVE.
SHY GIRL (HILARY)
February 17, 2003
HEY BABY JUST HERE PAYING A VISIT TO YOU SEEING IF YOU ARE STILL NEXT TO ME BABY WE MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU VERY MUCH HAPPY VALENTINES I WILL GO VISIT YOU SOON WITH MY TIA TERRY LOVE YOU
SANDY
February 10, 2003
Im So Sorry
hey baby G..im so sorry..i havnt forgotten u..but u know how it is..i know u know i love u..but i dont know how to drive..and u know how i feel about ridin the public limo..with raquel gone..its hard for me to get rides..i really wanted to go see u on ur b-day..and i know i promised i wouldnt wait till ur b-day to go see u again..i felt so bad when i couldnt go..i tried not to think about it but its on my mind..and i had to let it out here..cuz i dunno i guess i feel u can read this better than when i think it..i havnt seen ur mom since x-mas..i know she is getting it ruff right now seeing as its ur 18th b-day and all..but help us pray for her to be tuff..ur little brothers and sisters looked happy the last time i saw them..they got bikes for x-mas..i wasn’t in a very good mood..cuz…u know women stuff..anyway..i try to show them i love them..b-cuz its hard when u love someone and then they leave u…u never get that chance to show them..i told u i loved u..but i guess i never showed u..i cant believe its gonna be 2 years now..and the most msgs ive seen is from hilary…they have been deceasing thoe..but dont worry…its not that she dont love u anymore..because we all do..well baby G..i got to hit the hay now..dont forget who loves u..i rememebr when i wrot etaht to u when u were locked up..i really did mean it..i still do…dont forget us the little people since we cant be up in Glory where u are..we will see eachother again…but not yet
Monica
January 22, 2003
Still in my heart
Hey you here a new year and still missing you you still in my heart.
Shy Girl
January 21, 2003
POEM
I´VE CALLED OUT YOUR NAMEBUT I GET NO ANSWER
IT SEEMS I´VE BEEN CALLING OUT IN VAIN
I´VE REALIZE THE LORD HAS DONE HIS CALLING
I´M VERY HURT AND LOST
BUT I MUST KEEP MYSELF FROM FALLING
LATE AT NIGHT
I SIT INA DARK CORNER
TRYING TO FIGHT
FOR I FIND MYSELF STILL CALLING YOU
GERARDO
WHERE ARE YOU??????
SOMETIMES DURING THE DAY
I CAN CLOSE MY EYES
AND HEAR YOU PLAY
IM CRYING YET LAUGHING
REMEMBERING OUR MOMENTS
SEEING HOW THE TIME IS PASSING
WE DIDN´T GET A CHANCE TO GROW
FOR IT WAS YOUR TIME
AND NOW I MUST SEE YOU GO
I´M HURT FROM YOUR SUDDEN DEPARTURE
YET I´M STILL CALLING
GERARDO, WHERE ARE YOU???
HOPING ONE DAY
I´LL HEAR YOU
AND YOU´LL SAY
I´M RIGHT HERE
I´VE BEEN WAITING
IT´S SO GOOD TO HAVE YOU NEAR
remember i read that to you at the viewing??? i wrote it for you i know you know already but still i hope you liked it. everytime i read it i cry!!!! cuz i can´t even see your face as i read to you from the bottom of my broken heart!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU GERARDO!!! i know you like that nickname MAD but you know i can get around to call you that. that is part of the reason your gone!!!!! i know it´s you but still GERARDO sounds much better and with much more respect to you i love you little cousin and you know what i wish you a happy birthday i know it aint till a few dayz but still have a happy 18th birthday. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!
your COUSIN RAQUEL ESPINOZA 🙂
RAQUEL
January 21, 2003
Hey you
I miss you!!!!!!i cried today just looking at the video all the memories come back to me!! the laughs the pain everything we shared together i miss you soooo much to tell you that seem so little there isn´t a day that goes by that something happens and your there!!! in everything i do your there i still can believe your gone there was so much to do to see i love you so much. the world seem so different now. i upset with everyone you know even GOD why did he have to take you its not fair all the pain we feel from your loss. why couldnt you stay???? i prayed and prayed and it didnt do anything all my pain all my sorrow is still there!!!!! it will never go away never. i miss you please show me a sign that your here with me heal this pain that has consumed my heart. come into my life and let me feel again i cant keep going without knowing that your here for me when i need you. you were no suppose to go you were suppose to stay and have a family and babies and grow old!!!!!! why did u leave me. you left me with this pain that has consumed my life i miss you so much i need to know your with me please give me a sign something to ease the pain let me know its ok to feel again to live life the way we are suppose to. please i need that from you Gerardo please tell me you hear me and this pain i feel!!!!!!!!! i cant go on anymore i need you!!!!! please
remember how much i love you
your cuzin RAQUEL!!!!!!!!!!!
Raquel
November 25, 2002
Dreams
I know one day we will be together again i just pray to God that one day i will be avel to achive all things that needs to be done for our lord so Father blees me in all my work an everything that i do and deliber me from evil and disaster you are the only one that can make this happen for me lord so that my baby’s dead would not be inbain protect me from all my enemies and most inportant my self don’t let my desieved my self bless me with your godly knolege and wisdom and hold my hand and walk with my and the pad you is showing me.
Mom
November 21, 2002
Thinking of you
Hey you here I am thinking of you today is 1 year and 4 mount that you left me behand just trying to get it I was reading a poem last time I just have to write here for you.A tear for a time, When you hold me tight, Told me that thinkings would always be right, A kiss for when you were my friend, I could never imagen this would come to an end. A memory forgotten, as time goes by, when time came I ask god why How he could take something to good to be true? As I watched you lied there, I whispered “I love you” You’ve been gone for a year, what seem to be longer Although I miss you all this time made me stronger, I belive in myself for you would too, Whatever I put my mind toward I know I could do. This last tear would show how much I do care And even though you’re in heaven I know you’re still there. I miss you Gerardo see you some day hope you still know who I am Cu’z down here I just can’t forget you. Alrato Mad
Always your lady Shy Girl
November 12, 2002
Just thinking of you
Hey, you just sitting here in 2 period have you in my mind I’m sorry I coden’t go on Sunday but you know the resent. Fuck what can I do I miss you Why life had to be this way why we had to cross this strees you know what I meen .Fuck what can I do I just have so many thins to say that I can’t I just dont know how to rigth it in word to say the thing I feel. I know with a hug and a kiss I could show you the feeling I feel and the things I know I miss you Gerardo I really do miss the old days the time past so fast went a love one has gone away why there still a big ? mark in my heart the days past so fast the weeks past in a flashis. why we have to go trow this ASTA ALRATO MY ONE FORGETIBEL LOVE.
Hilary (Shy Girl)
November 6, 2002
ALWAYS ON MY MIND!
WELL BABY BOY ITS BEEN A WHILE THAT YOU HAVE BEEN GONE AND WELL I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE BEING THOUGHT OF EVERY DAY THAT GOES BY. GEROGINA,KIANNA,GORDO THEY ALWAYS SEE MY BACK WHERE I PUT IN MEMORIE OF GERARDO R.I.P IN MY BACK AND THEY SAY MOM WILL WE EVER SEE HIM AGAIN? I SAY TO MYSELF THEIRS IS A DAY THAT WE WILL BE UNITED AS ONE. I JUST WANT TO SAY THAT I MISS YOUR SMILE AND YOU CALLING ME YELLING AT ME TELLING ME THAT BADBOY WANTEDME FOR REASONS BUT HEY LIKE THEY SAY THE GOOD MEMORIES ALWAYS STAY IN YOUR HEART I LOVE YOU MIJO AND I TRULY MISS YOU ALOT. LOVE ALWAYS YOGIE
YOGIE
October 31, 2002
FUCK WHY?????
I STILL LOOK AT YOUR PICTURE AND MY EYES HAVE TEARS I STARE AT FOR HOURS AND I CRY JUST TINKING ON THE MEMORIES WE HAD FUCK WHY IT HAD TO BE THIS WAY WHY YOU WHY US WENT YOU WERE HERE YOU CHANGE ALOT OF LIFE WITH YOUR SMILE AND NOW THAT YOUR NOT HERE YOU CHANGE ALOT MORE WITH TEARS AND PAIN I HAVE TO GO LOVE YPU AND MUCH RESPECT
HILARY (SHY GIRL)
October 31, 2002
A lost love
Hey Still looking for you I still have you in my haert and I know you know that. It’s Hallowing and hoping I’ll see you soon you know what I meen tham I miss you can’t belive a year already past so many thing have happen so many thing have change me but what I feel for you is till the same. Some day I know we’ll meet again tell my mom I said hey and thank for every thing Gerardo you still mind in my heart cu’z my soul can’t let you go.
Shy Girl
October 31, 2002
A lost love
Hey Still looking for you I still have you in my haret and I know you know that. It’s Hallowing and hoping I’ll see you soon you know what I meen tham I miss you can’t belive ayear already past so many thing have happen so many thing have change me but what I feel for you is till the same. Some day I know we’ll meet again tell my mom I said hey and thank for every thing Gerardo you still mind in my heart cu’z my soul can’t let you go.
Shy Girl
October 24, 2002
I still remeber you
Hey you I miss you dont trip I still remeber you even your cute smile and the way you laught I just can’t forget you even dout I havent Talk to you in a wild I still have you in my heart.
Hilary (Shy Girl)
August 11, 2002
FOREVER ON OUR MINDS
GERARDO, IT HAS BEEN A LITTLE OVER A YEAR THAT YOU HAVE LEFT US, BUT YOU ARE STILL ON OUR MINDS. WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN GOODS HANDS UP ABOVE WITH OUR FATHER FULL OF LOVE AND JOY. WE KEEP YOU IN OUR HEARTS ALL THOSE GOOD REMORIES WE HAD WITH YOU. EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE NOT HERE IN OUR PRESENTS, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS. ALWAYS REMEMBERING THOSE GOOD LAUGHS WE SHARED. WE WON’T SAY GOODBYE, BUT WE WILL TALK TO YOU LATER. WE LOVE YOU!!!
THE CHAIRA FAMILY
August 8, 2002
hello once again
IT’S BEEN A YEAR ALL READY BUT IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY. WE STELL HAVE THAT PAIN IN OUR HEARTS BUT HOPE TO SEE YOU ONCE AGAIN. YOU HAVE THOUGHT ME MANY THINGS LIKE HOW TO VALUE LIFE. I WISH IT COULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT BUT ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY THINGS HAPPENED THE WAY THEY DO.YOUR IN MY MIND EVERY DAY,I’M JUST THINKING OF HOW YOU COULD ALL WAYS PUT A SMILL ON MY FACE.I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU HAVEN’T BEEN FORGOTEN AND YOU NEVER WILL NO MATTER HOW MANY YEARS GO BYE BECAUSE YOU AFFECTED ALL OF OUR LIVES IN A WONDERFULL WAY. GERARDO WE LOVE YOU AND WE WILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE AND THE LORD HAVE YOU IN HIS GLORY.
little Danny
August 2, 2002
Missing You
here I am just missing you smile snd the way you were can’t forget you tham I miss you got to go love always your lady Hilary
Shy Girl a lost friend
June 7, 2002
thinking
damn baby g…i have read all these msgs for u…ur fuckin famous and shit..hey…everyone here knows u as mad..but i only know Gerardo Lujan Jr. my baby cousin who grew up with me..but i guess now that i think about it..i didnt even know ur nick was mad..till that one day.. u know when…yeah maybe they know u better than ur own cuz…but none of then will love u like me…u see cuz i had a special love for u…i’ll never forget when Cindy told me u were killed…i was in shock…then i went to my room and looked at ur picture…and let it out..damn little cuz..i miss u a lot..i guess i still look at it as if ur far away but i just cant see u…hahah…wait u are far away and i really cant see u..but u know what i mean…well baby g..love u and miss u…
Monica Espinoza
June 3, 2002
Fuck I miss you
Hey you I still miss you But I dont trip cu’z I know I’ll see you soon. My friends and I still talk like you right next to us remember your cunada chonchis she is till here talking and we all still laght like you right here making fun of her like you always did tham we miss you your crazy ass laght remember how we alway use to trow up the C you was always that CLANTON (C14) and me that CRAZY EVIL QUEEN so what now baby what you got for me. Remeber that day in the park I almost made you cry I was fucken scare of you but you know why I did that you diserve it yeah lagth know fool but that day you were ready to fuck me up them here I am thinking your rigth next to me sorry. see you soon.
still me la SHY GIRL with that CRAZY love
May 22, 2002
I just can't let you go
I know I wasen’t your only one look at you fine nigga like you woden’t be with one girl but still thank for the fun we had and that fine, cute smile still makes my day. Always Loving You, Never For Getting You.
Alwas your lady Shy Girl
May 22, 2002
It is still hard
Baby now is 11 mounts and it still hard to know your gone I try to move on my hair is black I change alot of things from my life so it wodent hurt but still every day that goes by your in my mind and every minute your in my heart so what can i do if I’m going crazy inside. Tell me why do it hurt so much. Every time i get drunk I think of you and remebering how fast we got along the fun we had in the park and on school and I laught and cry at the same time I need you to tell me what should I do without you. Baby I know you looking down on me i hope your not looking up to me nah I’m playing but baby thank for been there for be because i know you were there that night I coden’t see you but I felt you thank for looking down and taking care of me. one thing I ask you look down on Tricky take care of him. Just want to tell you I miss you and thanks for the good memories and you know I’m sorry.
your lady that's missing you
May 14, 2002
I'M MISSING YOU
Hey baby I’m right here in school thinking of you.I wrote a poem for you and every one that want to know.Its one of the many poems I have for you is call “pain” It’s a dark day today the only thing you see is pain cause someone took my man away. There pain everywere cause Gerardo is not here no more someone took his life and dirent care. So the only thingyou see in this dark day is pain everywhere. Look at my eyes,look at my tears if you are really looking at me you know this is real. Gerardo went away and I’m here with this pain so if you see me crying and screaming you know this pain is killing.
SHY GIRL
April 15, 2002
TO THE HOMEBOY MAD”rip” …WELL DOGGY I HAD SEEN YOU ABOUT A MONTH BEFORE YOU PASSED AWAY AND I HAD TOLD YOU TO TRY TO DO GOOD ESE… BUT THE THE BIG HOMIE ABOVE TOOK YOU FROM US ,I GUESS IT WAS MENT TO BE AT.. LEAST YOU’LL STAY OUT O TROUBLE FOOL!j/k .I MISS THE FUCK OUT OF YOU DOG (YOU REMEMBER THAT TIME I FRIST MET YOU ,WHEN ME ,YOU ,AND MINER WENT TO THE EAST SIDE WITH THAT GAVACHO AND YOUR ASS GOT LOST.. IN AND ON THE WAY BACK YOU ALMOST CRASHED THAT SHIT WAS FUNNY!!!) I WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US ESE YOU ARE A FIRME PERSON . MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT
TO MY HOMEBOY&FRIEND
MADrip WS/ES/C-TON-XIVSTREET.
SINCERLY,LIL BANDIT
ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE YOU
LIL BANDIT,WS-C14ST-TLS
March 19, 2002
WEIRD
Hey Gerardo, I guess you can say that i havnt really spent time with you here. Well i still miss you, and your with me at work everyday. Its weird how your picture always pops up when something is goign to happen. Like Angels b-day. It was march 16. Cindy made a b-day party. And i found your picture. I guess you wanted to go. I also found your picture in the family reunion. So you were there too. Ok Gerardo i guess i’ll talk to you next time i am here..later….
Monica Espinoza
March 19, 2002
sorry for your loss of a love one
i know how much pain that it is to lose someone that you love i never thought it
would happend to my whole family to. my brother loss two friends in 98 by a police set up and im thankful that my brother wasnt there that day it happen cause one of them he usually hangs around almost everyday and my brother was supossed to have went with them but lucky he stay home that day and they forgot to pick him up but its weird how were talking the day before it happend about when the one that died was talking about when he dies he wants everybody that he knows to be happy and haveing a party for him which he was like a brother to me but i know in my heart that he loved everyone that he knew just like gerardo does with everyone he knew but only god can judge when its someone’s time to go to heaven on a star beaming lights of angels where that person will be watching over everybody in there familys so i hope you all remember the good times that you had with him and stay strong for gerardo even though i didnt know him i got nothing but love for him and his whole family so stay strong for him ok!!!cause god is watching over everybody :)peace everyone!!!!!!!
scott sullivan
November 7, 2001
HELLO
HEY COUSIN, YOU KNOW AS THE DAY TURN INTO MONTHS I CAN’T HELP BUT WONDER IF ONE DAY THE PAIN AND HURT I FEEL WILL GO AWAY. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. SOMETIMES DURIN THE DAY I FEEL I COOL BREEZE AROUND ME. IS IT YOU?? OR AM I GOIN OUT OF MY MIND??? I SURE DO HOPE IT’S YOU!!!!!!!! WELL HUN I GOTTA GO BACK THE REAL WORLD SO UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU UR CUZ, RAQUEL ESPINOZA VALADEZ 🙂
RAQUEL
November 2, 2001
MI QUERIDO SOBRINO
MESES PASAN Y NO HAY UN DIA QUE DEJE DE PENSAR EN TI. VIVIRAS SIEMPRE EN MI CORAZON Y EN MI PENSAMIENTO. TE QUIERO MUCHO. TU TIA
LORENA LUJAN
October 17, 2001
2 a great cousin and friend
Hi Gerardo, It’s me your cousin. Well I’ve been thinking of you every day, I just can’t believe your gone forever now. It’s been hard letting go, trying to go on with my life cause ever thing I do I think of u and wish u were there. Sometimes I even feel bad cause I’m having fun and your not even here. Gerardo there were so many things I wanted to do with and tell you but destiny took you away. What I really wanted to tell u was that I know we had our ups and downs but I never stop loving you as my cousin and that you were and always will be a part of my life that will never be forgotten. U were young when u left us but u accomplished a lot, u affected every ones life. I wish we could have spent more time together but the times we did will never be forgotten cause that’s all I have left of u. Gerardo I will always love u, miss u, pray 4 u, and carry u in my mind, heart, and soul. Rest In Peace And Let The Lord Have You In His Glory
Ur cuz Danny
October 13, 2001
ALWAYS IN OUR MINDS GERARDO
GERARDO, IT WAS HARD TO LET GO, BUT SOMEBODY HAD TO DO IT. EVEN THOUGH IT WAS VERY HARD FOR US, WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE YOU IN OUR MINDS AND IN OUR HEARTS. NOW WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN BETTER HANDS YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR PRAYERS. WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE GOODS TIME WE HAD TOGETHER. EVEN THOUGH WE SPENT A LITTLE BIT OF TIME TOGETHER YOU WERE ALWAYS PART OF OUR FAMILY. ALWAYS KEEP THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE OF YOURS MIJO AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS. WE LOVE YOU GERARDO!!!!!
THE CHAIRA FAMILY
October 13, 2001
ALWAYS IN OUR MINDS GERARDO
Anonymous
October 9, 2001
Missing you
Hello, Well it’s been awhile you know. I just turn 20. Yesterday was my B-Day. i’ve been thinking about you alot i miss you so much. I think about it and you didn’t even get to see 18. I know your looking down upon us seeing every thing that’s going on. I miss you so much my love for you is still strong, it will never fade for I keep you alive in my mind and in my heart. The family reunion is this Sunday i can’t imagine a family reunion without you. You are so important to me and my family and even if your not there in person i know your there in spirit. I love you Gerardo with all my heart and soul.
Your cousin
Raquel
Raquel
October 9, 2001
MISSING YOU
GERARDO HERE WE ARE JUST CHILLIN THINKING OF ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD,REMEMBERING THE TIMES THAT YOU USED TO COME IN AND WAKE ME UP JUST TO GET ON MY NERVOUS BUT HEY IT WAS WORTH THE GOOD TIMES THAT WE SPEND… I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT BABY DOLL AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR SMILE.. I LOVE YOU AND YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED IN MY HEART.. MAY YOU REST IN PEACE I LOVE YOU ALWAYS,NEVER FORGOTTEN!!!!!!
YOUR HOMIEGIRL YOGIE
September 28, 2001
to my lil boy
I reaiise I can’t no longer touch hold you or see you as the time goes by everithing seems so hard I fell I can not breat or fell no more why did you go why did you leave me I don’t know how to start with out you I just fell like my hold world is over I know that time will be hard for me caus is so hard for me to let you go i refuse to and don’t want to either I had you I raise you and i hab to barrie you thas the hardes pain that I had to go thourgh my life is always been a pain in my buttom but nothing bets these pain but now I konwthat your in a bether place where there is no more tears no more worries no more pain even thow your gone you will always be here with me I love you baby from mom
mom
September 28, 2001
to my lil boy
I reaiise I can’t no longer touch hold you or see you as the time goes by everithing seems so hard I fell I can not breat or fell no more why did you go why did you leave me I don’t know how to start with out you I just fell like my hold world is over I know that time will be hard for me caus is so hard for me to let you go i refuse to and don’t want to either I had you I raise you and i hab to barrie you thas the hardes pain that I had to go thourgh my life is always been a pain in my buttom but nothing bets these pain but now I konwthat your in a bether place where there is no more tears no more worries no more pain even thow your gone you will always be here with me I love you baby from mom
mom
September 25, 2001
the last person who visited you was monica other than that nobody!!! it ok i love you still. no matter what. i miss you so much. at times i feel a lot better cuz i know your looking down at me and watching out for those i love. i love you baby cousin. there is not one day that goes by that i don’t think of you i miss you. i miss you smile your laugh your heart i miss everything about you. i just the whole you. i love you. GERARDO!!! your cousin RAQUEL
Raquel
September 13, 2001
by the way
oh yeah..remember that song i sang to u at ur tribute????…i wasnt really crying…i had dirt in my eye…REALLY
monica again
September 13, 2001
GERARDO!!!!!!!!!!!
Hey there little cousin….or should i say Big cousin…um…younger cousin…ha ha ha…I also wanted to ask u…if u happen to see Elvis…tell me in my dreams……….a big fat kiss to u my baby boy…love ya
ur fav cuz..not that one..or that one..its monica
September 5, 2001
Hi Gerardo.I love you.Pice
Angel Nieto
September 5, 2001
Hi Gerardo!! God you know as the time passes by I remember everything we have been through. I miss you so much. I know your with GOD looking down on us. I know you see all the good and bad in us. I hope you see in each and everyone of us how much we miss you and how much our life has changed with out you in it. It seem my own life has turned up side down. You opened up my eyes you let me feel again. I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you. But you gotta believe me when I say that I love you still. You’ll always be in my heart and I’ll never forget you. You mean so much to me. I saw you doing wrong and I did nothing. I so sorry!!! But know that I wont let that happen again. You asked me once to look out for your brothers and sisters and that’s what I’m going to do. I miss you little cousin. I promise it ‘s not going to happen again. I LOVE YOU GERARDO!!!!!
Raquel
August 28, 2001
WAZ UP???
waz up gerardo?? i miss you dog. thing just ain’t the same. i sit back remembering all our times together and i start to cry. i can’t believe i wont be able to hold or to kiss you. now all i have are my wonderful memories of us. i miss you dog. hey i wanna ask you a favor, since your in heaven and all could you tell 2 Pac i said waz up??? nah i’m just playin’ dog but i really do miss you. my world just doesn’t seem the same.
Anonymous
August 24, 2001
My Love
Hi baby!! How are you??I miss you!! You know a
funny thing happend to me
I was walking down the street
to my house, and there was this
guy waving at me. i tryed to focus
on him but i couldn’t see him clearly
so i crossed the street to see who it was and he wasn’t there anymore!!
I thought it was you, he looked just like you. so then i smiled and went
home cuz now i know your watching over me!!! I LOVE YOU GERARDO!!!!!
Anonymous
August 21, 2001
Gerardo
NO LLOREN POR MI QUERIDA FAMILIA Y AMIGOS,QUE NO HE MUERTO,SOLO DUERMO,AQUI NUNCA FUI DE USTEDES SIEMPRE FUI Y PERTENECI A DIOS,Y EL DIOSITO HA VENIDO A LLEVARME A SU CASA.PORQUE ALLI VIVIRE CON DIOS PARA SIEMPRE.POR SIEMPRE Y PARA SIEMPRE.
Memo
August 19, 2001
You were like a son to me. You’ll be in my heart always mijo. I love you and you’ll never be forgotten.That’s Clant love babeee!!!
Huera WSC14ST.
August 17, 2001
My Baby Cuzin
Dear Gerardo, Im still not able to say good-bye. I wish this could be easier but the more i think about you the harder it is to belive ur gone. I know you’ll never leave alone. You’ll always be alive in my heart and soul. If i culd of done and said more things while u were still with us belive me i wold of. All i want is for u to know now that for me u will never die. i will keep u in my thoughts, in my dreams, in my prayers, in everthing i do all always have u with me. so with a great big loving thought ill finally say good bye. Rest in peace lil. cuzin.
Cindy.
Cindy
August 17, 2001
My sorrow
I feel hurt. I’m alone once again. I know it was your time but I can’t help but wonder if one day I’ll be able to hold you to kiss you and tell you how much I love you! We had a lot of good times. We understood each other. Now I have to say good bye and it hurts. I can’t seem to make my mind and heart realize that your not with me anymore. I have all this pain, this was not suppose to happen. Not in our family. We had plans remember! GOD GERARDO I LOVE YOU!!!!! I promise you one thing cousin I will not let you die!!! your memory will live with me for the rest of my life. And through me people will know what a geart person you are!!!!! I Love You Cousin!!!!!! may the LORD rest your soul!!!!!
Raquel
August 14, 2001
My Lil' Baller.....
Well my lil’ baller, our times spent together will always be in my mind, heart, and soul. We connected in a way that you were more like a brother than a cousin. I’ll always remember our one on one games we had after my b-ball practices. Also, “our” song, Brass Monkey. Never forget that we all love you and miss you very much. GOD BLESS YOU!!!!
your cuz YAHZID
August 12, 2001
para mi amigo MAD
amigo MAD te fuiste y dejaste un bacio muy grande en este mundo,no puedo creer
memo
August 10, 2001
To my nephew
we were just remembering all of the good times that we share together and we wanted to let you know how much we loved you and miss you. hugs & kisses
Rosa and Tripper
August 10, 2001
To a special nephew
Rosa and
August 10, 2001
we miss you baby.
rosa and family
August 10, 2001
Little Gerardo
Gerardo, A little 5 year old Gerardo is all i remember because that was the last time i saw you. Though we didn’t really know each other it still hurts to know that you are no longer with us and that we won’t be able to see you become a great man. Our thoughts and prayers will always be with you. Love always–Kuky, Marco, Marisa and Adrian Galan 🙂
The Galan Family
August 10, 2001
We'll always remember you
Dear Gerardo, We still can’t believe that you are gone. It seems like just yesterday when we last saw your smile. It’s a shame you lived such a short life but you managed to touch many lives while you were here. We know you will be watching over your family. Let’s hope that others learn from your death that violence only hurts families when they lose a loved one to it.
We will never forget our little nephew,
Carlos, Flor, Yahzid, Karla & Natalie Bautista
The Bautistas
August 9, 2001
My Cousin
In loving memory of my dear Cousin Gerardo, I know he would of loved to see how strong weve all been. Only time will heal our sorrow. We have to be strong for him.
Cindy Lopez