Tara Pirtle

Messages

1. February 26, 2023

   Walking together

   It was a dicey one. All the usual suspects were there, chipping away at my resolve. Carrying you with me everyday, helped me get through the thick of it.
   I was more than a little unsteady.
   Daily, I was on the ground. Picking myself up but still shaking in my boots. Thank you 🙏🏻 for walking through that with me. You are my constant. It’s a blessing that I can draw strength from your life experiences. If Tara did it, I know I can do it (always runs through my mind). I know you are with me and walking with me. Thank you for letting me draw on you for strength.
   Thank you for being.
   I am beyond lucky 🍀 to have known you. I♥️U, always.

   REM

2. February 13, 2023

   Time

   You’re always with me, no matter how much time passes. You are my conscious, my guidance through the dark, and the jolt that propels me forward whenever I am stuck. I miss you every single day.. I wish you were here physically but I know that you’ll never be truly gone because I carry you within me. Super corny but my stop and pause “what would Tara do” moments have helped me along through many incidents. I’m forever grateful to know you. My heart ♥️ sorely misses you. You know I love you.

   Renée Elissa Montes

3. December 14, 2021

   TrAnSiTiOnS

   I thought 💭 if I just stood still. If I didn’t make a change, you’d surely wrap back around and we’d find each other here. I didn’t move and so I grew callous and brut. You never came back around these parts. There was no enlightenment. I’m just a dumb piece of clay. I still miss you. I miss you like thunder misses lightning ⚡️I am all ominous grumble without your electric glow. It hurts. Not having you around, hurts. It’s an invisible wound with an eternal ache.

   REM

4. October 17, 2021

   Invisible Threads 🧵 You’re my Everglow

   Oh, they say people come
   Say people go
   This particular diamond was extra special
   And though you might be gone
   And the world may not know
   Still I see you, celestial

   Like a lion you ran
   A goddess you rolled
   Like an eagle you circle
   In perfect purple
   So how come things move on?
   How come cars don’t slow?
   When it feels like the end of my world
   When I should, but I can’t, let you go?

   But when I’m cold, cold
   Oh, when I’m cold, cold
   There’s a light that you give me
   When I’m in shadow
   There’s a feeling you give me, an everglow

   Like brothers in blood
   Sisters who ride
   And we swore on that night
   We’d be friends ’til we die
   But the changing of winds
   And the way waters flow
   Life is short as the falling of snow
   And now I’m gonna miss you, I know

   But when I’m cold, cold
   In water rolled, salt
   I know that you’re always with me
   And the way you will show
   And you’re with me wherever I go
   And you give me this feeling
   This everglow

   Oh, what I would give for just a moment to hold
   Yeah, I live for this feeling, it’s everglow

   So if you love someone
   You should let them know
   Oh, the light that you left me will everglow

   Renee Elissa Montes

5. February 26, 2021

   Memorial day

   “Do not stand at my grave and forever cry I am not there I did not die” Happy 16 years in heaven mom Love you. Miss you.

   Your Son

6. February 26, 2021

   February 26th, 2021

   I miss you mom, its been 16 years without you and every day I try to be the best person I can be in hopes that I will ever be half the person you were. Last time I wrote to you I was just starting school and now i’m almost done wow does time fly by. Wish you were here, I love you mom happy 16 years in Heaven.

   Your Son

7. February 20, 2021

   Message received

   Thank you for always being around me. When I fail myself, you never let me down. Thoughts of you are my constant companion and pepper my life in my good and difficult times. Whenever, I am low and I don’t know where or who to turn to. I look to you for guidance and strength. I know whether I make a decision on par or completely opposite from what you would do, you walk with me on my journey. Stay with me now, cause I need ya.

   Renee

8. July 28, 2020

   miss you

   I’ve been thinking about you a lot lately, wish I could talk to you and ask you some questions. I miss you very much.

   vi

9. December 20, 2018

   Vacancy

   Beautiful Bird,
   My entire being aches because of your absence. I miss you, Sista. I am feeling such a great heartache, only you could and would understand. I need you. How I wish you were here.

   Renee Montes

10. March 17, 2012

    Science Fair

    guess what there was this science fair thing at my school. my question was about plants, it was What effect does liquid have on plants. It was funny because i used sugar water for one plant and it grow mold and was very nasty, it was also smelly. YUCK! i got to go to district and i got FRIST place. i was really proud of myself. by the way this was the 8th grade science fair. i miss you veeeerrrryyyy much! love you! also there is this great book called the hunger games and i can’t wait tell they come out with the movie. i love this book. once again i love and miss you so very much. bye !!!!!!! <3

    Violet Mahina Pirtle

11. March 7, 2012

    i miss you, sister

    i miss you, sister, every single day.

    samantha pirtle

12. October 1, 2009

    hi

    hi ! i miss u !i want to tell u a funny song when your felling something run down your leg it feels like scramble eggs DIEARY DIEARY !!!!!!!!!I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;)

    violet

13. October 1, 2009

    hi

    Anonymous

14. September 27, 2009

    whats going on

    today is my 11th birthday. papa took me to olive garden !!!!!!!!!! it was so fun mommy! i miss u! some times i thing u r at work.i won a leadership contest (i am a legal leader).i talk back but i am working on it.I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BYe;violet

    violet

15. September 26, 2009

    Invincible....... I was sure you were

    If I had known what trouble you were bearing;What griefs were in the silence of your face,
    I would have been more gentle, and more caring,
    And tried to give you gladness for a space,
    I would have brought more warmth into the place,
    If I had known.
    If I had known what thoughts despairing drew you;
    (Why do we never try to understand?)
    I would have lent a little friendship to you,
    And slipped my hand within your hand,
    And made your stay more pleasant in the land,
    If I had known.

    Me

16. October 7, 2005

    INNOCENCE

    DUDE, DO YOU REMEMBER THIS OLD SONG FROM THE CURE. I THINK IT’S CALLED “IT’S NOT YOU.” IT KINDA HAS A PUNK TONE TO IT. DUDE, THAT SONG IS SO BITCHIN.A BIT HARSH, BUT STILL GREAT. I WISH I STILL HAD ALL OF MY RECORDS,AND OF COURSE YOU… SO WE COULD LISTEN AND REMINISCE TOGETHER. ONE OF THE MOST ENDEARING THINGS ABOUT YOU, YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON WHO COULD SPARK THE FLAME OF CHILDHOOD WITHIN ME. YOU MADE ME FEEL SO ALIVE….SO ALIVE.

    ME

17. October 2, 2005

    DEAR EVERYONE

    DEAR MOMMY & SLYLER & TITI & VIOLET & TITI RENEE & UNCLE VLAD TOO. I GO TO SCHOOL NOW. I LIKE IT. I LOVE YOU MOMMY I MISS YOU.LOVE,JACOB.

    JAY-COBB

18. October 2, 2005

    I'M IN 2ND GRADE

    I GOT A 100% ON VOCABULARY. I JUST LOVE SCHOOL.I HAVE ALOT OF FRIENDS NOW.EVEN THEY WERE IN KINDERGARDEN WITH ME SOME OF THEM.MY BIRTHDAY WAS REALLY FUN MOM.MY FRIENDS WERE THERE.TITI WAS PROUD OF ME.THE END. LOVE VIOLET.

    VI VI

19. September 22, 2005

    LORD BYRON

    SO WE’LL GO NO MORE A ROVING SO LATE INTO THE NIGHT. THOUGH THE HEART BE STILL AS LOVING AND THE MOON BE STILL AS BRIGHT. FOR THE SWORD OUTWEARS THE SHEATH,AND THE SOUL OUTWEARS THE BREAST,AND THE HEART MUST PAUSE TO BREATHE, AND LOVE ITSELF HAVE REST. THOUGH THE NIGHT WAS MADE FOR LOVING, AND THE DAY RETURNS TOO SOON, YET WE’LL GO NO MORE A ROVING BY THE LIGHT OF THE MOON.

    ME

20. September 22, 2005

    RESIDUE

    HEY THERE IT’S JUST ME AGAIN. SKY TURNED THREE YESTERDAY. THREE ..CRAZY,WHO’D A THOUGHT. TIME FLIES BY SO FAST. I REMEMBER WHEN I TOOK HIM TO SEE YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME. HE WAS 6 MONTHS. SUCH A TENDER AGE. THE WAY YOU LOOKED AT HIM AND HELD HIM. WE WERE STANDING IN FRONT OF THE ELEVATORS AT DEPOT. IT WAS SO WEIRED CAUSE NO MATTER THE UNRESOLVED FEELINGS OF HURT BETWEEN YOU AND I. TAKING MY SON TO SEE YOU, TO KNOW YOU. WELL IT WAS A MUST. IT HAD TO BE SHARED WITH YOU, MY FRIEND, MY CONFIDANT, MY SISTER. YOU A PART OF ME NO MATTER THE UGLY CARDS LIFE DELT US. THE LITTLE GUY HAD TO HAVE YOUR SEAL OF APPROVAL.THANK GOD THAT BOND FROM ME TO YOU AND YOU TO ME WAS CREATED CAUSE FORGIVING AIN’T EASY. AND I DON’T KNOW HOW I WOULD FEEL RIGHT NOW IF YOU NEVER GOT TO SEE HIM. WELL I’M THANKFUL FOR THAT, IS ALL. I DEDICATE SCARED AS YOU AND OUT OF THIS WORLD TO YOOOOUUUU. HEY JUST IN CASE GOD WANTS TO KNOW I ONLY DEDICATE CURE SONGS TO YOU. TELL HIM IT’S A CHICK THING.(HEE-HEE) LUV YA,ME

    ME

21. September 22, 2005

    RESIDUE

    HEY THERE IT’S JUST ME AGAIN. SKY TURNED THREE YESTERDAY. THREE ..CRAZY,WHO’D A THOUGHT. TIME FLIES BY SO FAST. I REMEMBER WHEN I TOOK HIM TO SEE YOU FOR THE FIRST TIME. HE WAS 6 MONTHS. SUCH A TENDER AGE. THE WAY YOU LOOKED AT HIM AND HELD HIM. WE WERE STANDING IN FRONT OF THE ELEVATORS AT DEPOT. IT WAS SO WEIRED CAUSE NO MATTER THE UNRESOLVED FEELINGS OF HURT BETWEEN YOU AND I. TAKING MY SON TO SEE YOU, TO KNOW YOU. WELL IT WAS A MUST. IT HAD TO BE SHARED WITH YOU, MY FRIEND, MY CONFIDANT, MY SISTER. YOU A PART OF ME NO MATTER THE UGLY CARDS LIFE DELT US. THE LITTLE GUY HAD TO HAVE YOUR SEAL OF APPROVAL.THANK GOD THAT BOND FROM ME TO YOU AND YOU TO ME WAS CREATED CAUSE FORGIVING AIN’T EASY. AND I DON’T KNOW HOW I WOULD FEEL RIGHT NOW IF YOU NEVER GOT TO SEE HIM. WELL I’M THANKFUL FOR THAT, IS ALL. I DEDICATE SCARED AS YOU AND OUT OF THIS WORLD TO YOOOOUUUU. HEY JUST IN CASE GOD WANTS TO KNOW I ONLY DEDICATE CURE SONGS TO YOU. TELL HIM IT’S A CHICK THING.(HEE-HEE) LUV YA,ME

    ME

22. September 13, 2005

    IT'S CONCERT SEASON

    HEY THERE KITTY KAT.I THINK ABOUT YOU MOST EVERY DAY NOW.I HAVE YOUR PICTURE OVER THE MANTEL. IT’S THE FIRST THING I SEE WHEN I LEAVE IN THE MORNING AND IN THE AFTERNOON WHEN I COME HOME.IT WILL BE SEVEN MONTHS ON THE 26TH.FOR SOME REASON I FIND THAT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I AM ABLE TO WRITE.THE KIDS ARE GROWING SO FAST. TODAY WAS MR.COBBS FIRST DAY AT SCHOOL.LITTLE MISS.RED LEE PIRTLE IS DOING A MAGNIFICENT JOB.THEY COULD NOT HAVE BEEN LUCKIER,LESS YOU WERE HERE.I MISS YOU AND WHEN I FEEL I’M BOUT TO CRY (BY THE WAY I AM HAVING ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS RIGHT NOW) I FIGHT THOSE TEARS. I DON’T REALLY KNOW WHY I DO THAT,BUT I DO. I GUESS A BIG PART OF ME STILL THINKS YOU ARE STILL HERE.LIKE YOUR JUST ON A VACATION,A LONG ONE BUT YOU WILL RETURN. THEN REALITY SETS IN AND THEN FOR SOME REASON ANGER SETS IN RIGHT BESIDE REALITY,AND I GET KINDA SO REALLY MAD THAT YOUR NOT HERE AND YOUR NOT COMING BACK. I GUESS I’M JUST A BAD PERSON CAUSE I NEED YOU FOR MY OWN SELFISH RREASONS.LIKE WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO WHO WON’T PASS JUDGEMENT ON MY WORDS AND MY INNER MOST THOUGHTS OR LIKE WHEN I’M CRAVING THE WORLDS GREATEST POTATO BURRITO OR LIKE WHEN IT’S CONCERT SEASON…OR JUST WHEN I NEED THE LIGHT IN MY SOUL THAT ONLY YOUR LIGHT COULD GIVE.WELL IT’S MORE THAN ALL THAT TOO,YOU KNOW?(IT’S BEEN A BIT BLACK IN THERE LATELY)I NEED SOME HELP HERE MY FRIEND.(YOU SEE WHAT I TELL YOU ABOUT THAT SELFISHNESS)HERES TO YOU MY FRIEND…. I DEDICATE CATCH,INBETWEEN DAYS,AND I’M A CULT HERO TO YOU.THATS ONE YOU HAVEN’T HEARED IN A WHILE.I’M A CULT HERO, DUDE… YOUR MY CULT HERO….HEE-HEE, YA,YA I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING I’M A DORK BUT YA KNOW WHAT SO ARE YOU………..LUV YA,ME.

    ME